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Default Mar 04, 2021 at 12:24 AM
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Dear Info,

The way it feels to me is that you are (inadvertently) forcing me to mourn your husband too. I have enough to deal with.

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Default Mar 04, 2021 at 12:44 AM
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I'm not dealing well with all that has happened in the last year. You may think that I am, but.
The last time I was sui in session, and after I left the house and shopped, then forgot what was discussed. Tonight, I am not me, I don't even know who I am. I'm stressed, no beyond stressed. Yet I look like I'm holding it together, but am I? I've suppressed far too much and it's getting to me tonight. I feel like my body is reacting far too much and I don't know what really is happening.

Please tell me this is a dream?!
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Default Mar 04, 2021 at 08:03 AM
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I feel so sick, it all just feels like one long day, I can't find space to breathe, I don't know what to do about it all I'm just laying here feeling like I'm the biggest outsider.
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Default Mar 04, 2021 at 09:51 AM
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Well, that was one heck of a session. Thank you for supporting me.

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Default Mar 04, 2021 at 11:06 AM
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I’m not thinking much about the old T today. I have a lot of stuff to do this weekend so I’m busy today. But I am thinking of what to discuss with new T and if I want to tell her some stuff.

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Default Mar 05, 2021 at 01:57 PM
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I want my mother.
I want my mother.
I want to go home.
I'm tired of being on my own.
I can't stop crying now.

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Default Mar 05, 2021 at 04:37 PM
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I’m glad you sounded relieved when I asked if you do in person sessions. And then you smiled and said “I’m looking forward to meeting with you in my office.”

Old T Monday was our last official in person session before those almost 200 days before we met a couple times in your office. It hit me a bit just now. But I don’t know. Maybe it’s more then just last year at this time with you. A lot more stuff happened a year ago with me and also in the world then just going to video sessions.

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Default Mar 05, 2021 at 05:29 PM
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Thank you for today and for understanding what I was trying to explain about why I chose not to tell you about last weekend's workshop in advance. Despite the ups & downs we've had, and all of my ridiculous projections over the years, you really truly are 'one of the good ones'.

I think you were right about that Shadow stuff. Why didn't I recognize my shadow in that one dream? Silly me, it's so obvious now that you pointed it out! I was all well derp. Had I had more time to work with it, maybe I would have recognized it on my own, but still.


I'm not going anywhere for the foreseeable future. Twice a month feels perfect right now, as long as I continue to do my 'work' apart from our sessions. I think last night's dream told me that I will. I am starting to envision at some point going to once every 3 weeks...

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Default Mar 05, 2021 at 05:39 PM
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Dear T: Sort of wish I was seeing you tomorrow. But I can wait. Nothing pressing. Kit

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Default Mar 05, 2021 at 06:00 PM
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Dear T,
OK, I admit I did sort of want you to tell me reasons that someone would want to be married to me, but I know that would be going down the wrong path. Your saying that there are and that I need to figure out what they are (or whatever you said) is the correct thing therapeutically to do. Besides, if I'm in a mindset where I'm feeling that badly about myself as a wife/partner, would I even believe anything you said? Maybe I should try journaling about it this weekend and if I can't come up with anything beyond "I'm a pretty good cook" (I'm guessing "good at laundry" wouldn't count...), then maybe I could enlist your help to get me there. Or at least to make changes so I can feel better about how I'm doing as a partner. Like come up with things to do.

Also, I think it's a positive sign that you gave me an opening to talk about the stuff from last session regarding you, and I didn't take it. Aside from thanking you for your email reply. That to me shows some sort of growth. To not just ask for more and more reassurance that you're OK with it. And you seemed fairly normal toward me today, not like all distant or anything. Though, I don't know, maybe your playing with that sword-like letter opener was a subconscious "stay back" (or, I suppose, something more...Freudian).

Monday feels far away though. After the last two sessions being pretty intense. But maybe it's better I have a bit of time to reflect.

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Default Mar 05, 2021 at 07:42 PM
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Thank-you for calling me back. I won't tell you anything important until middle /end of session.

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