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Luna's offical mini me.
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#161
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Maybe it's just me and I need to learn to stand on my own feet..I love him. I know it sounds stupid but I'm scared of changing. __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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#162
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Writing my way through...
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#163
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It doesn't sound stupid at all, being scared of changing. I don't know if if helps any but I am scared of changing, too. Scared of changing myself to become the person that I know is inside of me, and scared of changing t's both. it's a really weird thing but I think that familiarity is more comfortable (even when it HURTS) than the unknown. |
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Luna's offical mini me.
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#164
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Some of what he said actually made sense to me though and I wasn't upset and I did feel better after session. I know I am too dependent on him and he's trying to cut back on that and I need to find ways to try to fill my own emotional needs rather than relying on others to fill that gap for me. I know I can be highly manipulative and maybe a T giving me full control is what I want but not what I really need. I want more gentleness, hand holding and I want full control at the same time. It used to make me sad thinking about the person I could have been if x or Y had not happened but the fact is that it did happen and the me I am is the only version of me. I hope you can reach the point where you feel like your true self . __________________ "Love, like life, flows Through the heart. Feel the thrill of the flow And say nothing." |
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#165
I want attention and I want it now. I feel like an infant.
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#166
Hi R,
I attended an online performance poetry workshop this morning. Ended up writing a poem about or addressed to 15-year-old me. I'm not sure whether I want to knock it into shape and bring it to session on Thursday, or whether that's Avoidance (capital A avoidance.) It was a process, for sure. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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#167
Dear T,
I had this thought while I was rearranging/cleaning the living room today: "I need to make a mess first in order to fix it." And then it occurred to me that maybe that might apply to therapy, too? Not just in terms of figuring out stuff in my life, but maybe our therapeutic relationship as well? Maybe I'm too afraid of making a mess, though I think I took some steps toward doing that with some of what I shared Friday. Maybe I need to not be afraid to rearrange the furniture, so to speak. Even if it requires throwing a bunch of stuff in the middle of the room to do it. Love, LT |
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Luna's offical mini me.
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#168
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#169
Bruce Springsteen helps somehow...
Music gives me space to be royally pissed off. I haven't been able to write those songs yet, but I am grateful that other people have. Something like this. __________________ 'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
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#170
Thank you for the sign yesterday that you are still by my side. It is hard not seeing you and talking to you. However, knowing you are still "there" really does help me keep going.
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#171
God you are a waste of space
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#172
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#173
I'm a little annoyed you didn't respond to my text.
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#174
Former T: I'm over the moon that you responded to my text. You're lovely. I still love you.
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#175
Dear T,
I'm glad you want to fully work through this...whatever it is with our relationship. It makes me feel like you really value me as a client. (Not in any way more than you value any other client, but still.) We've invested 3 years in this. This stuff may not be in your wheelhouse, but it seems like you really want to help me figure it out. You're trying to understand, even if we're not always speaking the same language. It means a lot. I also appreciate your little reassurance at the end. Love, LT |
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#176
I feel anxious and tired.
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#177
Hi T. I know I shouldn't worry that you didn't reply to my email. It was titled "rambling thoughts" for a reason. You are not mad at me. Right?
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#178
You don't care about me!
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#179
12 days and no reply from you.
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#180
Sometimes I feel like you tell me things because you think I won’t understand and you know I typically don’t ask questions. Some things shouldn’t be said though.
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