Couch 248: Curiouser and Curiouser

I think we haven't fully discussed it all yet--the specific topic of the fish, yes, but more the bigger topics that have come up from it.

And yes, the self-comfort stuff definitely takes practice.

For the last part, I do think some of the therapy is in the entanglements and acting out. Working through conflicts now in a way that maybe I couldn't as a kid or teen, for example. Though I'm unclear as to where the end of it all is, I suppose. Is this still helping me--both therapy with this person and therapy in general? Not expecting anyone else to answer that, it's just something I'm thinking about. What's the endgame?

Also stuff I'm thinking about in terms of writing the memoir because where does that end? Will I have come out of therapy on the other side, transformed for the better? Will I still be muddling through, trying to have faith that it will help, whether with this person or with someone else? Or will I have stepped away from it and realized it's best to mostly go on without it? (Aside from maybe a short stint when something acute happens, like grieving.) That I've learned what there is to learn, and now it's up to me? Again, I'm not looking to anyone to answer these, they're just thoughts in my head.