i feel so broken inside help me ♡

I saw him today he walked and didn't even notice me he just looked at me like he didn't care a all didn't care about the girl he left for another much beautiful girl i don't know how to deal with this i feel like im nothing like im worth nobody it's been 6 months alreadyy he just forgot about me i feel sick why people are so evil why is this happening to me why do you have to bee so nice to someone and care about them and love them despite every thing and thenn theyy hurtt youuu soo muchhh and they live happyy and you just keep crying in your bed hating yourself i starting feeling so scared when i go by a mirror i just get so afraid to look at my self and see that im ugly this is so unfairr why what did i do to deserve thiss i feel so hurt so hurt i don't want i feel like this is gonna stay forever why karma is not working so is it good what he did he just gonna live happy with the love of his life and me what about me he was with me at first and then he talked to her and was telling her just wait im gonna get ride of her i don't want her i want you im in love with you i remember the day i called her cuz i felt that there is something between them she was actually with him and they put me on speaker and started talking to me she told me call him now he won't answer you since that day i think my heart will never heal again when i discovered he was sheathing on me my self esteem is so low i don't wanna even look a t my self i don't want him to see me what should i do plz help me and sorry if my english is bad im moroccan

I am so sorry this happened to you.. Often times we meet and become involved with people and love them to pieces but they just dont feel the same and walk out of our lives.

It sucks it hurts, it will make you look at yourself and wonder what you did wrong ? Nothing .. you just loved the wrong person..

Do you have a Therapist you can talk to and process all of this with? Im not sure about your country but hopefully you can find hope, Keep posting here

Thank you christina and no i don't have a therapist there is no one here in my city so it's hard but just seeing people like you taking the time and writing something to me just anything makes me feel a lot better so thank you so much ♡

Hi Stellah, I'm sorry you went through this breakup and are so hurt. With time, it will get better, but I know it sucks right now.

Really ? Even after 6 months

Ah Stellah, (oops sorry, I seem to have written a small book here...)
I think most folks have felt this raw, aching, oozing, hurt after loving someone who seemed to love us for a while, then didn't.

Your struggle is normal and real.
From your post—I want to say…
You don’t deserve it---no one does…and
Why give this person so much power?

You are letting him, the guy who dumped you, dictate how you see yourself? No, don’t do that…

To take the power back here are some suggestions…

Reduce your thoughts about him. I know it sounds hard, but it can be done. Think of the moment you are in right now…feel the chair under your butt—the shirt on your back—the sun on your face… And when your thoughts loop back to him, cancel them, and do something to occupy your mind, reading, happy movies— IF needed, give yourself a set amount of time in a day to think about him (half hour) Write down how you are feelings and then put him away for the rest of the day (this will take practice)…It will help, believe me.

Try and shift your thinking about the relationship… there must have been times you were not 100% happy—that he said the wrong thing, did the wrong thing. It couldn’t have been nirvana. Feel sorry for him—I mean, he ended it with you in a jerkish manner; he found her-while he was with you (and will probably find the next her—while with this her). He couldn’t see how good you were to him—that is HIS loss. Also, when you think negative things like, no one will ever love me, stop, and tell yourself that statistics say you will…the odds are in your favor. Talk to an objective someone if needed.

And I’ll bet that right now, during this vulnerable time, you are learning a whole lot about yourself. Learn from what happened. Do you like how you acted while with him? Did you change yourself for him/hide parts of you? No relationship is worth having to give parts of yourself up. When I’ve been kicked to the curb is when I have learned some of my most valuable insights.

Find someone who has had a terrible breakup or relationship that has gone on successfully—and emulate their behavior.

It’s been 6 months—and it will take as long as it takes. I can’t tell you when it will end, but I can tell you it will. THIS TOO SHALL PASS. Make that your mantra.

MOST important—take care of you!!! Baby yourself, treat yourself—be good to you—and BE YOU because there is no one else like you! You are special in yourself.

Omg i just can't thank you enough im gonna read this every time i remember what happened to me i just love you thank you :')