Losing the battle

My girlfriend and I have been together for over a decade.

Early in the relationship there were incidents, comments that didn't fit in with the moment.

I began to realize she saw and heard things.
She explained she had done this since childhood as long as she could remember, but could tell one world from the other.

Our relationship consisted of really not going anywhere. The other world continually questioned my intentions.

A couple years ago we discussed the world's. This discussion I found gravely discouraging. I was being turned in to a deceiver and her enemy on every front.

Now I'm worried about her well being. What could happen to her. I fell in love with her.

Ive been looking up symptoms. Trying to find similar accounts.

I find some, some encouraging some not. But there are significant differences. She describing hers as a life long condition. I've not found any other story of a life long condition.

I don't note any decrease cognitive ability. I believe she would rate higher then average cognitive abilities.

She's an amazing person. She's managed to function and survive.

However she's in trouble. We both are. This has devastated us emotionally and financially.

She refuses to talk with a Dr. She did once, didn't go well.

She hears, sees, feels and smells. This is uncommon from what I've read.

She has total emersion, all senses. Delusions of grandeur. Some not even possible. I don't know about paranoia. She eventually suspects everything. But she doesn't hide or seem the least bit scared.

Our feelings so far have been strong enough, but we're not going to make it much longer. A distance has formed between us.

I need to find out what she has, how to reach her, what we are facing.

Why does she not want to see a doctor or psychologist? Has she said?

I'm so sorry you and her are going through this.

I'm sorry that you are struggling right now.

She's doesn't want the crazy stigma. Thinks meds will just dumb her down. Lose license, freedom etc...

Having a mental health record and meds are the main fear.

Thank you for commenting. I don't our relationship is going to survive. When she gave me details 3 years ago. I doubted our chances. I already I would eventually be seen as her enemy. I've regarded that way most of for a long time. That's what brought about the detailed discussion. She took to the l Bible year ago. I knew this would be the thing hard to get through. It has started. God is telling her not see docs, psychiatrist. Not to be with anyone. Not be with me directly yet, but it's coming. Shes still has feelings for me. I don't know what to do. This thing has caused a lot of harm her entire life. Family not inviting, friends I think are not inviting. I figured we wouldn't make it. So I've been trying to get her to look into it's not real and you're throwing away what is real, could be real over is not real.

She'll have a hard go alone. So I've been pushing getting help harder. When she's not wound up, her personality brings people in opens doors of opportunities to her. But her other way closes them fast. I believe she could keep those doors open. That she could have the things she needed.

What are the meds like? Anyone taking the meds. Are you you. Do you feel like you, but stable, more consistent. Joy and fun return? Confused about everything but won't consider for a moment could be wrong?

The meds are fine, all they do is get rid of the part that’s not real....it may be hard to wake up realizing part of life that you’ve been considering so important isn’t real though...I was only sick for a month so it wasn’t a huge deal for me, I was happy to be who I was really again. There is plenty of joy and fun use not mania.

I believe she needs to get help, @Slodiggity - but of course the final decision is up to her. I'd insist just a little bit more and if she still refuses, then I'm sorry to sayt his, but, uhm, you may want to consider ending the relationship there. You have to think of yourself as well! Try to see what you can do. Make her understand that if she doesn't get help as soon as possible then the relationship just can't last. Hopefully she'll come to her senses and try to get some help. It isn't easy. I am aware of that. But it needs to be done! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH your and your Girlfriend, @Slodiggity, your Families, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking no matter what happens, ok?!