Annoyed and concerned

I have a hard time thinking about leaving or kicking him out, but I know people do leave their significant others for this type of stuff, and meanwhile others don’t care. I do care and would have to live with it, which is already what I’ve been doing for 20 years.

I don’t worry about myself being liable so much, because I am not doing the same and I am saying no and demanding it to stop.

I could kick my son out but he is working on moving out anyway.

My son is acting typical for his age, and I don’t blame him for taking advantage of the green light my husband gives him..it’s my husband who would have to change his ways and I guess he isn’t going to.

My husband is asleep at the wheel.

It was very difficult for me to start this thread and get this out. I almost had an anxiety attack at work today because of it. Like I said, I grew up with an alcoholic, and mentally ill father, and that was very traumatizing. I have come a long way from how weak and sick I used to be in this relationship. I’m not that way now, but I’m not sure what is there.

My husband has changed a lot, but still.

I really don’t know what to think right now.

Thank you, and everyone else for interacting with me. I needed support.

I just am having a hard time being honest about how I feel because I’ve been of a certain mindset for so long.