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It's important to understand that a person that can be dangerous and is unbalanced may engage in some kind of religious activity/group or idealizations. Have you paid attention to this woman that got deeply involved with a man who got more and more into a religious cult like mindset? They just FINALLY found her two children buried on his property after they went missing for several months. He drew her into a state of religious craziness and that has happened with people. A red flag happens to be the ability to switch off the emotions like you have described too. If you were to observe this mother who is in custody and is facing charges, she sits in the courtroom cold and shut down and disassociated and disconnected.
There are individuals that go the religious route looking for some type of "supreme" state of mind. They begin to think they are special and have special powers. That's NOT someone you want to be around, that's someone who is mentally unstable and potentially dangerous. This man and this woman killed their spouses and she got rid of her own children and felt it was ok to go off to Hawaii and marry this man so they could embrace this supreme state of imaginary religious crazed mindset. Yes!! There are important deeply concerning red flags in what you are sharing here about this man. These individuals "can" be intense and can pull you in, it happens and it's so important to pay attention. |
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You have every reason to be scared and concerned. Something is off. Hopefully your therapist can guide you through the best way to break up with him so you're not at risk. Please listen to your gut instincts! |
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I too was troubled by the words that MsLady bolded above. Even if nothing else were going on in the relationship, the level of structure, rigidity, and control indicated by those words would concern me.
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If it were me I would not wait to get a psychiatrist's diagnosis or reassurance, etc. What if the psychiatrist said he was fine? It sounds like that's important to you, but he sounds dangerous. I would just run in the other direction from this guy period. However, I think you may need to be careful, if you decide to leave. Could someone leaving him be a violent trigger? You may need to find a secure way to protect yourself if or when you decide to leave, and plan for a way to protect yourself beforehand. Can you get a restraining order where you are? Are there structures in place to protect you?
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So he called me yesterday and we had a two hour conversation. He had no empathy for my fear and made no attempts to calm me.
Instead he turned very critical of areas that he feels I have not measured up as a girlfriend. He also told me that he has no feelings for me and never had. And that the best I could hope for was to deem me as someone important in his life. He ridiculously blamed his acceptance of a loveless marriage on culture. (As if I am ignorant of a culture that I have lived in for nearly 26 years). He has been lying to me about the state of our relationship for 6 months. When I asked if he was breaking up with me, he said he wasn't sure and he wanted time to think about it. I asked how he would want a cooling down period to look like. He also didn't know and said he would let me know today. But as soon as we hung up, I had clarity. I don't need any cooling down. My opinion hasn't changed. This relationship is over. I was in love with a man who doesn't exist. All there is, and perhaps ever was is this cold hearted bastard. I have no words for how much this hurts. I am ready to end this. I plan to be kind and respectful. I plan to say it's about different expectations and incompatibility. And to let him know for the sake of my moving on, I am not okay about friendship (he said if we broke up he still wanted to help me on a project he had promised to help on, no). |
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I'm not sure what you mean about the best you could hope for (in bold). Of course he'll turn it on you. You're not the problem though so let all that roll off your back and don't take a moment worrying about it. He's clearly struggling with a lot about himself. I'm glad you have that clarity. Still.. a crappy situation to be in. Big hugs to you! |
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I'm so sorry for your sudden and immense pain.
I will be keeping you in my prayers. ((((((((Anandi)))))))) |
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Many people find themselves in bad relationships, or get into a relationship all for the wrong reasons and discover it's wrong. Most people just want to be loved and to find a loving relationship. There's nothing wrong with that. People are just trying to figure things out for themselves, and they want support while they work it out for themselves. It's hard to find a good and healthy relationship it seems, and that becomes evident by all the posts and threads about relationships. __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes Last edited by FooZe; Jun 27, 2020 at 05:11 PM.. Reason: Administrative edit to bring within guidelines |
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This is a peer support forum. If people in bad relationships use it to post about their struggles, they might be doing it for support or to run things by other members.
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@Anandi, it was good that you took some time to share your concerns about this man here with others. It gave you a chance to consider things you may not be seeing, or at the very least you have gotten support from others about important red flags about this man that you really needed to recognize.
Now that you are seeing some important realities about this man, and he has also told you that he never cared about you and HE is rethinking things, what you do now is important. This man NEEDS to feel HE has the control and he CAN engage in doing harmful things. IMHO, the best way to handle this break up with him is to do so in a way that allows him to think HE is the one in control and making the decision. Everything you have just shared here is actually telling you how HIS ego is all that matters. For individuals that are narcissistic and sociopathic, that is ALL they care about. There is absolutely NOTHING you can say or do to change that either. This is definitely a learning experience for you right now. NOW that you see the reality you must also see how you gave into it too. You will begin to slowly recall how MOST of your interactions with him were in fact "ALL ABOUT HIM". You were wonderful as long as you SERVICED HIS EGO. Narcissistic individuals insist on a following, THEIR need is ALWAYS GREATER. If you challenge that AT ALL, you will end up dealing with one hell of a narcissistic RAGE. Their rage will entail ANYTHING they can come up with to CONDEMN YOU. How DARE you say ANYTHING that makes them feel bad or inadequate or undeserving. You don't GET to have the power, only THEY are to have that and THAT is really ALL THEY CARE ABOUT. Think about it now, isn't that what he just told you? Quote:
Truth is you were ONLY adored when you were SERVICING HIS NEEDS. The power ALWAYS had to be his and his alone. It was in fact all about HIS EGO. You were only getting petting approvals as long as you played by that rule. Last edited by Open Eyes; Jun 26, 2020 at 12:26 PM.. |
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This is important to learn otherwise you will fall into this same trap again with yet another narcissist. They see you long before you know it because they look for a certain type they can get what they need from. They already know what kind of petting you need to keep you engaged in servicing THEIR ego and needs. |
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__________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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@Anandi most narcissists develop from some kind of "abandonment" in their history/childhood so when it comes to ending a relationship with them it's important to do your best at remembering their going to "react" IF they feel they are being abandoned. Anandi, it's not a situation where there is some kind of property or children etc., involved so the safest route to take is to make the break in a way that allows him to be the one who is leaving and you to remain kind and respectful as he will need to disconnect feeling HE is the one that has more and it's best for him to continue to grow and gain as he has outgrown you. Give him that even though it's not really how you feel. He will never get how you feel, it's always going to be what he feels or needs that he cares about the most.
Privately you can thank your lucky stars that you don't have property (or private information you have shared with him) or anything with him yet that he can use against you in some way. It's always important to remember that when it comes to narcissists or toxic people it's THEIR EGO that matters to them the most. And THAT is exactly what this man made clear to you Anandi. Last edited by Open Eyes; Jun 26, 2020 at 03:23 PM.. |
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Good job recognizing that this isn’t a healthy relationship. Good job posting about it and sharing your concerns. You are strong and courageous and you’ll do well in life. Hugs
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#37
@Anandi you have been quiet, how are you doing?
There is such a big time difference from where you are and here where I am, it's morning here and where you are it's night. So here it's 11:17 in the morning and where you are it's 11:17 at night. I was thinking more about what you shared and what your boyfriend said to you that frightened you. Well, considering some of the history you shared about him, it's not surprising that he doesn't really understand what "love" is or means. Because you have chosen to be a healer using a religion, I think that given this situation, it's important to understand that when you help someone that is looking for spiritual healing that has a very challenged history, and strong cultural messages, you are not going to get the same kind of deep understanding and sense of connection that you have yourself. Everything you have shared that this man said to you is troubling, however, at least he was being honest. The "truth" can be pretty scary, and the truth this man shared can definitely fall into the scary realm. As a religious /spiritual healer part of what you are doing as a healer is to actually help others come to terms with themselves, forgive themselves and learn to overcome some of the ways they had to function to survive. When someone you loved/cared deeply about tells you they never loved you, they may be telling you how they do not have the ability to love the same way you do. That can be deeply distressing to hear from someone you felt a deep love for. I have been thinking about how you are angry, felt he had lied to you for the past 6 months. Yet, he did not want to continue that so he confided some "truth" with you about himself. Even when he said, "I can't/don't love you but you have been an important person to me". I know that was so hard to hear, but, at least he was being honest with you. Anandi, as a healer having someone open up and share "truth" with you is important to that person's healing. The "truth" can most definitely be hard to hear, and equally hard for someone to say too. Yet, when someone does share the truth, that person must somehow respect you enough to do so. You know, there are times when a person is way too hurt due to their history that they simply cannot ever have the capacity to love and trust. That would cause them to lose their sense of control, a control that person had to develop in order to survive. A hurt or be hurt mentality that person developed in order to survive is the only way they can function. Sometimes a person has a history of being invaded so badly that they can never truly form connections with others in a normal way, it's simply causes them to feel way too vulnerable and unsafe. Now through study there are labels for individuals who can only function a certain way that fall under the "disordered" catagory. These disorders reflect behavior patterns in individuals that result from how these individuals were exposed to environments that caused them to develop certain ways of surviving whatever environment they were exposed to when they were growing up in both a family environment and cultural environment. Human beings are designed to navigate and we all learn to navigate based on whatever environment we have to survive in. There is definitely a lot of gray when it comes to this reality about human beings. There simply is no real black and white as there are too many variables to consider including temperment and even how someone's brain is wired. Well, often loving someone means having the ability to hear their truth, and be able to let go of what we wanted them to be that they could never be for us. So, as a healer, that will be something you will need to work on understanding as best as you can. It's not so easy to do. |
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