My Boyfriend Scared Me

The worrying thing here is that he is not getting any help over his instincts and/or deep-seated desires.

All those instinctual urges (plus, he admits still watching such violent documentaries & not to mention his violent past) are just lying dormant, simmering under the surface.

One day he can blow up and then what?

I would run a mile and not trust his words.

So, 9 days ago I let my neighbors who I am friends with know what is going on, then left to stay with a friend.
10 days ago I saw my therapist, and received coaching on how to break up. He had me wrote a bullet-pointed script that made it all about me and what I am looking for. Skirted the violent fear altogether and blessed him for the things he said he wanted - to be free of the "burden" to do what he's passionate about - business.
I have continued to stay with friends, but will return home in a few days.
Next step on my work with my therapist is dealing with how I got sucked into this in the first place.
I have joined a Facebook support group for survivors of narcissistic/sociopathic relationships. And have reached out to friends and family to not go through this alone.
The pain is devastating and deep. I feel like I've been stabbed and am bleeding out. Not really functional at all. But I am moving forward with the knowledge that the pain will heal and that I deserve so so much better. I am so grateful that I posted in this forum and for everyone's honest feedback.
My therapist reminded me when I was feeling terrible that I didn't pick up on the red flags, that love is truly blind. It's not easy. But I will get through this wiser and stronger.

Thank you so much for letting us know!



Blessings to you!

Thank you for letting us know. You are wise and strong beyond your years. Hugs