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Was I a fool?
Did I get it wrong? To be held in your embrace To greet you in the morning But I see your bitter face Grousing and complaining I sleep alone everyday Was I a fool? Did I get it wrong? To be affectionate, to go places To enjoy a day and be happy But as i sit across from you All you ever do is complain Was i a fool? Did i get it wrong? To share without judgment To freely enjoy without restriction Am i to hide what i watch? Things i watched, you lambaste Was i a fool? Did i get it wrong? To receive a text from you Affection or plans for tonight Was that just a lie? Why must your texts be complaints I shouldn't get off work for you Was I a fool? Did I get it wrong? Sometimes we make mistakes We can always fix it Was I supposed to be belittled? I'm sorry I forgot the food I'm sorry I didn't understand Was I a fool? Did I get it wrong? I know relationships aren't perfect I know we might get mad But must it be daily? Does my feelings matter? Stop hurting me! Was I a fool? Did I get it wrong? How was work? Can we cuddle? All I do is work all day I do everything for you, but it's not enough. Was I a fool? Did I get it wrong? Sunny days and rainy days We can enjoy life to the fullest But you are horrible! You hit me, shove me, kick me, yell at me and manipulated me! We're through, we're divorced. I was a fool i did get it wrong. All I wanted was to be loved. Now it's over, but the wounds are fresh. Is there someone out there who share my love? Should I rebuild my shell and hide away? I lie here crying as I write this. (Yes, just tonight I had to evict my husband, ex husband. I reread my poem and sobbed so hard. This is painful. Part of me loved him a d wanted what's best. But part of me knew the abuse would continue. I bet some feel this way too. I feel like dying) |
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Separating is just so very difficult. Been there. But people who abuse and do not wish to get better must be jettisoned. You deserve far, far better that that. And if you want it, it is out there for you, no question about that.
But for now, please try to heal. Be kind to you. You have been through a trauma. It will take time. But you will survive. One foot in fornt of the other. Little by little. You can do this!!!!!! Hugs and love!!!!!!!!!! __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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