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“. When emotion regulation strategies such as reappraisal are engaged, the frontal lobe—particularly the prefrontal cortex—downregulates emotion-related regions such as the amygdala by inhibiting neural activity to these regions “
Controlling Your Emotions | Psychology Today Twenty years into my journey of not getting any real help from a variety of therapists, I have recently seen a new psychiatrist who says I have “brain damage from prolonged trauma”. I have no major medical illnesses (like your husband has MS). My trauma is a series of events, the majorly triggering one being this relationship dynamic with my husband. (Married 28 years) Your situation is more complicated than I can really understand. I take it you are thinking that he has a medical condition that is causing him to act emotionally dysregulated, and possibly suspect it is due to the MS (maybe it is). Is this behavior of his a new thing? Has his personality drastically changed? But then there is also the possibility that he is setting you up to not fare well in a divorce, child custody, and maybe he has bad ulterior motives? After the confrontation you just had with him, going with him to a psychiatrist to discuss the concern for his change in emotional behavior regarding the incident ought to bring both possibilities regarding his mental health or bad intentions to light. It also brings someone else into the event as a voice of reason to hear that you are not a mother who is endangering your child. I’d want that made quite clear to whoever can help, if he is trying to paint you as a danger. I am not at all clingy to anyone. My husband is actually more clingy to me (or let’s say prefers to spend most all his time with me). Though, when I want to do anything by myself he’d never stop me. And I am fine with him taking an entire week vacation with his group of male friends, which he does every year. This year I was glad to have the break. __________________ "And don't say it hasn't been a little slice of heaven, 'cause it hasn't!" . About Me--T |
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We had a situation tonight. We took our girls to the playground. Dad had the 1yr old while I finished off my coffee. I kept eyes on our 3yr old, then we were going to switch.
When I finished my coffee (within 5min) I turned around to put my empty coffee cup into the stroller. When I turned back, dad had the 3yr old. I scanned the playground and couldn't see the 1yr old. So I said, "Where's [name]?!" He said he didn't know. He thought "I" had her. I found her right away. She was nearby but not the point. No one was watching her in that brief moment and he blamed me. So I told him "no" I didn't have her yet. He assumed I had her because she apparently headed towards me. I said we need to communicate when there's a switch off. He got irritated and said we should "just go home". No, we just arrived. We ended up staying. I didn't like how we agreed on who was going to be with the 1yr old, but once she went "missing" (for that 10sec), I became responsible for it. Then when I clarified what we agreed on, he wanted to go home. |
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Here's another scenario, and one probably not worth mentioning..
Tonight he mentioned how tired he was because we were up all night, the night before (texting). I said, "All night?" He said, "Ya, weren't we texting until 3 or 4am?" We called it a night, just before 2am. Yes, it was late but not "4am" late. It's typical for him to give inaccurate information. I often feel like "nothing" is true, coming from him. Either he gives a flat out lie, or he exaggerates and minimizes a story. .. then he tells me he "no longer lies" because he's really working on being more transparent with me. Um, ok. Maybe it was an honest mistake because it was late, regardless. I just can't help but notice when he does things like this. Or maybe HE was up until 4am doing something else and blaming me. |
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“. When emotion regulation strategies such as reappraisal are engaged, the frontal lobe—particularly the prefrontal cortex—downregulates emotion-related regions such as the amygdala by inhibiting neural activity to these regions “ Controlling Your Emotions | Psychology Today .. suggesting what? ^ You mentioned you were reading about emotional dysregulation and the frontal lobe damage. This was also just recently told to me by my new psychiatrist. I was not given any image scanning test. Just from an interview, the psy determined about me, did not give me any diagnosis and when I asked him about one, he didn’t want to. He used the term “brain damage from prolonged trauma” and when his variety of meds did nothing for me he later said “treatment resistant” (which I take as he must mean depression). If you go to a psychiatrist with your husband, I expect this will be addressed with him, too. IDK how you both would present to them what is going on within the relationship, how they’ll proceed or what they’ll think. As for the incident with the lean/push, threat of police, struggles over bedtime parenting control, and your daughter crying; IDK if that warrants any mandatory call to child welfare, tbh. I’m not an expert. Maybe you can find out if that kind of event would make your life more difficult or if this is exactly the kind of reason to get professional help. The Union Meeting might be good to do as it is his idea and you can start with the smallest things. When it comes to inability to compromise on the deal breaker things, what will happen? I joke that I never took my eyes off my kids for eighteen years. I never trusted anyone to watch them. Even if my h and I were in the park with the kids, it was my eyes scanning and watching for their safety at all times. He wasn’t that sharp to stay focused on them. I’m not saying that all men are that way. I’m just wondering if it would make your life easier to stop trying so hard to equally coparent with your h, and you take the reigns more(even if he does not realize you are and thinks he is coparenting equally). The one y/o was missing for a minute. You got into an argument with your h over whose responsibility is was to watch her. My mama bear instincts would tell me that I just always need to watch both girls at all times. How can you stand to live with a liar? Has he always been one? Do you lie, too? I’ve certainly told small lies when I’ve had to , but generally don’t lie and can’t tolerate it from others. It undermines everything. __________________ "And don't say it hasn't been a little slice of heaven, 'cause it hasn't!" . About Me--T |
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I find it curious that you find it so important and bothersome that he said 3am if it was 2am. It makes zero difference. Staying that late arguing is a bit strange and I’d feel it was all night too. Perhaps he exaggerated. I don’t see any benefit in texting fight especially late at night. There are more serious issues in your home than him being wrong on the time
Your partner is incompetent parent. He can’t be trusted alone with kids. He is unable or unwilling to be responsible for them. You said he can’t even baby sit them when you are out of the house for 2 hours. I’d not allow him alone with kids |
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I find it concerning and disconcerting that you put so much effort into "understanding" him through these post-incident conversations and through quasi self diagnoses rather than putting down your foot about unacceptable and abusive behaviors. He should be aware of the fact that his behavior towards you, ie, raising his voice, accusing you of abuse and threatening to call police and social services is NOT OK and something you will NEVER allow.
You are far too understanding of this very sick man's disposition. And you are trying far too hard to work on this with him by understanding all of his twisted emotions that cause him to act in abusive ways. If it were me, I would be steering clear of him entirely and I would not be giving him any of what he needs from me. He would know 100% that I do not accept the abuse by showing him that I am not going to give him affection, attention or understanding of how he feels. I would be putting my foot down so much more, and I would be walking away from him in every way possible. I feel you are coddling him far too much, enabling him and therefore, enabling further toxic behaviors from him. When does it end? And yes, he should 100% be able to manage 2 hours alone with the kids without you being present. He is far too needy for your attention and presence, and he is an incompetent parent. I don't know why you even want to try at this point. I'd be giving up and walking away entirely. Especially after the last incident. I know you're "stuck", but I would be calling it quits after someone did that to me. I would NOT want to coparent with them in any way shape or form from that point onwards. __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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We were discussing the incident because I felt it was important for him to understand where I was coming from. I wanted him to realize how his actions scared our girls and what my intentions were when I entered the room. He was in complete denial because he was stuck in his head. We started the conversation at midnight. We discussed some solutions to consider. I set boundaries. Quote:
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I've raised a 20yr old with special needs who had volatile behaviours at times. If I didn't UNDERSTAND his behaviours, I was not of any help and the behaviours would continue. It was always important for me to get to the root of the situation so I knew how to handle it best. |
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You said your partner was supposed to be watching 1 year old, not you. He wasn’t watching her but then blaming you when she was unsupervised and you couldn’t find her.
Sure he loves his kids but he can’t ever handle them, according to you. They scream and cry and look frightened when he is alone with them etc You can be a loving parent but then be totally incompetent. It’s understandable that you were looking for roots of your son’s problems in order to help him. You are his mother. We are responsible for helping and treating our children and we are responsible for getting them medical help etc That’s what mothers do, take care of their children. I don’t believe it’s the same with your partner. You aren’t this man’s mother, he is an adult. Poorly behaved adult. If you believe MS causes these issues, I’d demand doctor providing the info on it. I’d not just assume. My husband has Tourette’s and OCD, he is neither abusive nor poorly behaved. If he started acting badly, id not just assume oh it must be Tourette’s. I’d be in a doctors office with him. It’s not enough to read that it might cause problems for people. That’s general information. It isn’t specific for your partner. Ton of people with MS are loving partners, not liars or abusers. It doesn’t apply to everyone. It would have to be a requirement for him to stay with you: doctor appointment with specific explanation of his behaviors and treatments lined up. Same with perceived BPD. Diagnosis by a psychiatrist is needed to determine BPD, reading about it isn’t enough to diagnose people |
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MsLady, why not see a doctor with him to confirm your suspicions of BPD? You are not qualified to either diagnose nor start treating an illness that you don't even know exists.
Why are you trying to explain away his behaviors by means of diagnosing him as having a mental illness that you can then say is causing these behaviors? You're spending a lot of time and energy on things you're not qualified to determine. If you really suspect this, then see a doctor with him and get a real diagnosis. Get him an MRI and talk to doctors. You're doing a lot of speculation without medical consultation and tests. Perhaps it's too hard to face the fact that he is abusive. Maybe that's too hard to stomach for you, and you'd prefer to think his behavior comes from mental illness or brain damage. I really do not know. What's so wrong with determining that he's abusive towards you, and that perhaps you need to leave him because of that? __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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I’m confused with your husband situation., At first it sounded really volatile and now it sounds very minimal. I have also had a toddler disappear for a few minutes while with me. They are slippery! There were times my husband’s watching the kids was not up to par, but not life threatening. For example; I once left him with them and came home to him watching the opening beach massacre scene of Saving Private Ryan, the three and one year old standing there in shock watching the carnage with him and I darted across the room to slam off the TV. The things you are now describing now sound like times like I’ve had that I thought were just minor goofs. Thankfully, I found the toddler immediately. __________________ "And don't say it hasn't been a little slice of heaven, 'cause it hasn't!" . About Me--T |
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If he was completely in denial and refusing any counseling or therapy .. or even acknowledge some of these issues, I'd see this entirely different. Classic abusers are "perfect". They "never do any wrong". My partner started off this way.. in denial.. but he's come a long way. I've pointed out a lot of issues. He's acknowledge some.. it's a start.
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I only brought up example of my husband that if he started acted abusive, I’d not self diagnose him or assume I know what it is. I’d insist on doctor’s assessment. Not my own. Unless his doctor told you he acts like this because of brain injury and BPD or what not, I’d not make these assumptions. If he is becoming progressively more unstable, seeing a doctor is a step one
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I’m sorry you are having to go through this. We’re just speculating. The best thing to do is go to his doctor with him and find a psychiatrist and go with him.
I hear what you are saying about how he has been getting progressively more volatile. You said you feel like ‘there is no limit to what he might do to hurt you.’ When you have kids together, you can’t leave your partner and not share parenting with those kids. It’s a slippery slope because now the partner has the kids alone and without you to protect them. I’m glad he’s willing to get help. You can get a FaceTime appoint and see the doctors now, if need be. Don’t wait. __________________ "And don't say it hasn't been a little slice of heaven, 'cause it hasn't!" . About Me--T |
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It sounds so exhausting to analyze your partner like this. It must be very tiring. Especially if you don’t know if your analysis is correct. He needs proper treatment if it’s truly caused by true medical diagnosis
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