Gaslighted, Betrayed and being under control of my family members

I couldn't articulate my entire life story into a single thread post. But, I try my best to convey enough information on who am I, my current status and my tormenting relationship/dependency with my family members (especially my mother and uncle).

Here's the synopsis about my childhood persona and my health issues.

I had a congennital deformity, I had a genuvarum (bowed legs). But, it was not a problem until middle school. I somehow managed to walk with no assistance.

After encountering several bullies and outcasted experience, I happened to leave my schooling.

I wasn't properly educated or didn't had enough awareness on importance of saving money, equiping knowledge and skillsets and especially I had no exposure and lack in social skills.

My Daily Routine:

Hence, I had a walking difficulties, I bounded to a chair or sit next to my desktop computer and I got really addicted to internet and porn.

I had zero friends, zero skills or education and I didn't get informed the value of such things by my parents.


Obviously, such toxic lifestyle lead to anxiety disorders like obbsessive and compulsive patterns, overthinking and bodily symptoms like tremor.

Now, fast forwarded couple of years, now I'm in my late teens. Somehow, with help of my parents I got corrected my deformity and other issues caused by such deformities.

Eventually, I started digging deep in internet regarding my mental condition, physical issues and so on.

Of course, I have equipped with certain skills on programming, front-end web designing, marketing and so on.

Now I've almost eliminated all the physical issues or physical dysfunctionalities. I have a proper fitness and meditation programs, Also working on my new online business ventures on digital marketing and sales copywriting.

I've been resolving all the issues and difficulties within the realm of my proximity or control.

But, I have no support and not get any affection or love from my parents.

In fact, I figured out they have been deceiving and obstructing every action I take to become financially autonomous or construct my dream business model.

I've been getting gaslighted by their every instances and behavior.

They use paralanguage, tone of voice to demotivate, even it feels like an insult or humiliation at some point.

Especially, they're constantly trying to manipulate my reality and perception by changing things around my room (without my consent) and if I ask about such weird alteration they'll always deny or blame me or say things like your thoughts and perceptions are delluded.

Recently, degree of their manipulation effects became so debilitating.

Things like taking off screws off my laptop, changing walpapers on my phone into creepy pictures, intrusive access to my mobile phone and private information.

and so on. Of course, I have been working relentlessly on studying their deceptive patterns and collecting tangible proof of their wrong doings.

But such an adversity from my parents makes my life very harder to stay focus on my career or creating financial autonomy.

I conclude, if I ever have to evade from such a sinister behavior of my family members. I just want to earn money and start building connection with people around my business niche and I just want to flee away from presence of my parents.

It is the only way I can escape from such a devilish gaslighting tactics implied by my parents.

[Please excuse my for any mistake, I'm not a native speaker]

Hello,

I'm very sorry to hear that you have been through so much difficulty
You seem very brave and smart

It's normal that you want to talk more with your parents and feel their support Sometimes it can be difficult to find balance in everyday life; you could maybe give them a chance to educate themselves and they will hopefully undestand and communicate better. But it should be not your responsibiliy and meanwhile of course you must feel safe somewhere, especially considering all the stress you've already been through
Also people from different generations can have hard times to understand each others but of course we hope parents could understand us and our needs... there should be empathy
Sometimes there is a general lack in social networking and that complicates things
Sometimes people behave in stupid ways just to interact or seeking for attention
However what you describe seems a bit dysfuncional

What about other adults around?
Is there maybe any counselor or teacher to talk to?
Maybe also a particular subject you're be interested in and would like to study? You seem very career oriented