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Hi, I have been married for 17 years to a beautiful man, fit and who has always had a habit of alcohol. We got married very young.
I think he married me only for money but I have always been tremendously in love with him, he's charming, he knows how to have sex really well, but then he only thought about work and all his colleagues flirt with him because despite being 41 years old it seems that has 30 and very attractive. I am sure he betrayed me a sea of ​​times causing me great suffering and making me think of the sadness of our two children if we had to separate. Although in reality he always neglected them.

But that's not the point.

The point is that last year a co-worker of his who belongs to a certain religious organization started talking to him. This man's wife also has a maid of my neighbor study the Bible. I would never have believed that my husband could change and instead in a year studying with them he stopped cheating on me, stopped drinking and became a caring and wonderful husband. He showed me videos from the their website that talk about how to communicate more when married, how to give each other more affection and fidelity etc. etc. I practice a different religion myself, but at the beginning all this made me a great pleasure. My children again had a real father who gave them time and love. And I had a husband who is only seen in romantic movies.

But after a few months of enjoying these magnificent changes, he had to start preaching !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Noooooooo! What a great shame! I cannot accept it !!! How can I live with a man who makes me so ashamed! I was hoping that he would go to preach in an area far from here, instead he also preaches in the neighborhood where we live, a luxury residential area. I am terrified that my neighbors may realize that my husband is preaching! I have VIP neighbors, even famous ones with whom I have an excellent relationship!

I want the husband I had back! I tried to buy alcohol and hire beautiful maids to make him give up, but nothing. What a great shame! I don't know how to do it, I have an anxiety that devours me and I'm falling into depression and what does he do? He cuddles me, supports me but doesn't realize he's destroying me.

I don't write English well, I'm European, I'm too ashamed to write in a forum in Europe!

I want to make sure I understand.. your husband was sort of a playboy but found a religious calling and became devoted to you. But now he is trying to convert others like your neighbors to his religion. Do I understand properly?

Let me get this straight, your angry at him for preaching and turning his life around. If hes christian good for him, it doesnt mean your relationship has to end, although religious differences can cause huge problems depending on how serious you and him are, and he sounds very serious in his religious views. All the best. perhaps you and him ca talk about the differences and try to find common ground.
You do not need to be ashamed but you and him have alot to talk about.