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New here, just looking for an outlet? Advice? Not sure, but I need to share.
So I'm VERY sexually attracted to my T, and I can't emphasize enough that's it's not transference. I do experience transference with him in other ways, even romantic ways. This attraction is just biological, he's an incredibly attractive man, and I'd feel this way regardless of whether or not he was my T. He knows about this, we've discussed it during quite a few sessions. My main issue is that I don't really have an outlet for these feelings (he really hasn't suggested anything). I can tell him the general feelings of attraction, but not the specifics - I don't want to cross any boundaries, make him uncomfortable, or make our sessions about my feelings for him. I'm generally a sharer, so when I'm attracted to people in my every day life, I talk about it. If I were this attracted to anyone else right now, I'd be sharing all the details with my T, just to get it off of my chest. But I don't feel like I can do that, or I don't know how. It's like when you have a strong attraction to someone and you want to swoon over them with your friends, if that makes sense. While I want to talk about it just for the sake of not keeping it bottled up, it also seems to get in the way of my personal life and our sessions. I get distracted in sessions easily and have thought about finding a new T. Any advice on any of this? Thanks in advance. |
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I relate to your post on so many ways. I am very much aware of the difference between what's transference and what's genuinely adult love and attraction with my T.
In terms of the therapy interactions, I do not think I could ask for a T that is better suited for my circumstances and personality. I came to a point where I decided that the therapy and the healing are much more important to me than anything else in my life. The healing of trauma, relief from the panic, and building trust in myself again all take precedence over everything for me. I consciously decided that this would be where my focus needs to stay. This has helped tremendously. Sometimes I think it's the love and attraction that makes me so open to her. I've never been attracted to or felt romantic type of love for any T ever until her. Interestingly, I'm also willing to actually be vulnerable and take risks with her like I've not been able to bring myself to do with past Ts. That perspective makes me feel positive and not so tormented by my feelings as well. We all need different things to get us to a place of openness to heal. Maybe my thing was that I had to fall in love? You say you have told your T you are attracted and discussed it. What would be your motivation to continue talking about it? I think that's a good question to ask yourself. Are you expecting our hoping for some particular outcome? If you feel that your T is helping you work towards your goals in therapy, maybe that's more important right now. |
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There's a small part of my that wants to talk about it because I want him to reciprocate these feelings, but mostly it's: 1. Because I'm hoping that by telling him everything, putting it all out there, and seeing that he doesn't share those feelings might help me move past it. 2. If I feel like I can't share everything with him, it makes it hard to trust myself when I'm talking to him. It feels like I have to try and filter myself more. 3. I just need to talk to *someone* about it, and he's really the only person I could potentially tell. 4. It's significant enough in my daily life that, if I felt this way about someone else, I'd definitely be talking to my T about it. |
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I think transference is just a fancy word for....feelings..
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I think there is value added to the relationship by allowing the tension to remain in place for me that outweighs taking the chance of upsetting the current flow. I can also see where each person must determine what fits for their unique circumstances. I think you should follow your heart on this one. Love is never wasted or bad, and it doesn't need to be reciprocated to be real. |
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I found this helpful. YouTube
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I think I'm confused about what transference is or means. It sounds like you just have feelings for your therapist and it sounds like it's something you need to come to terms with in order to keep making progress? Do you think that's an accurate way of looking at things. Do you think your feelings for him get in the way of discussing more intimate and important issues?
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I was in a situation like this. Was a perverse trap. Sharing my feelings resulted in a humiliating and bizarre unrequited love train wreck, and the therapist responded with typical ambiguity and equivocation and condescension. Not sharing the feelings and bottling them up would also have been unhealthy.
I suggest rather than thinking of this in terms of therapy dogma and marketing, use real life as a reference point. Then it starts to look toxic and bizarre to be locked in a non-mutual, dead-end, clinical, quasi-relationship with a paid voyeur who gawks at you while you divulge your feelings for him, building him up in the process, and possibly grinding yourself down in humiliating fashion. Usually this is framed as an obligatory process for working on your "issues" as long as the therapist "handles" your feelings. But this does not hold to up to logical scrutiny. It's much easier to make the case that it's a set up for all sorts of horrible feelings and possibly deep psychological wounding. |
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(I found this definition, just to clarify: "Transference is a theoretical phenomenon characterized by unconscious redirection of the feelings a person has about their parents, as one example, on to the therapist. It usually concerns feelings from a primary relationship during childhood.") |
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I take it you think you are making progress with your T? Because honestly, if I found myself very attracted to a therapist, I would probably try to find a new therapist.
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I've thought about it. But it's been about a year and a half, and I'd hate to start over. That's kind of my last resort if I can't find a way to deal with it.
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You might want to get a new therapist. Therapy can be hard enough without having to deal with such feelings for your therapist. I really think that therapy should feel as comfortable as possible with as few roadblocks as possible. Good luck.
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