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Default Sep 28, 2020 at 04:06 PM
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Hi, this is such a fascinating thread. I had some out there experiences as a child/teenager, but was always sceptical about channeling...my ex was not, and I'm sure he channeled some really dark stuff. He had books that I wanted out of the house and he would only sell them when I thought (I didn't tell him) that they should have been destroyed. I had to get a long way (energetically) from that stuff.
I have felt like my mum's energy rubbed off on me when she passed, and I had to find a way of clearing that. I practice Reiki and have had some really revealing spiritual experiences. For me, the clearest experience was a series of energetically threatening experiences. It's is hard to describe, but I had to face up to something huge. It took a long time, but after a solid week, when each night there would be an overwhelming, heavy, awful presence with me all night, I faced up to it. I had to go through some stages, and then I faced it and I was judged. All the creepy negative stuff that I had been trying to get away from before that seemed so tiny and laughable after that, and I stopped worrying about darkness and light so much. I have lucid dreams where I go to my front door at night to lock it, and the key keeps turning in it but never locks and I choose to go out now, and face up to whatever is out there. I don't know if this is anything like channeling.
The presence is definitely not a light or high vibration energy though. It is huge, dense and bull-like, and the only way I can describe the vibration is round, and like it surrounds and expands away at the same time.
I also don't feel Reiki after this, but I trust it completely.
I haven't heard the word oversoul before. Do you think it has to be light?
I feel most grounded after I have been swimming (probably just because of the heavy feeling) but I also feel more energised and connected to my potential. I haven't spoken about this, and I feel unsure of why I want to write it here. It was just a big flip for me in how I felt the spirit, and it feels safe, even though it is like dark water. Do you know of anything like this?
Thanks for sharing!!!

I cannot say what that was that you experienced, but it sounds like lower level vibration energies or entities. These are darker presences that can weigh us down and which feel heavy and dense. The opposite of this is higher vibrating energies and entities or beings, which lift us up and which help us to feel lighter, more encouraged, more positive and better overall. The denser energies can weigh us down.

The oversoul is our higher self, which is connected to source energy, so to speak. That is where our greatest wisdom exists.

A spirit may feel safe, but that doesn't mean it's of the light. Some glue onto us and stay because they're afraid. Often they are attracted to the same energies we are vibrating ourselves. So if we're afraid, we may attract a spirit or entity that is in fear.

It's great you faced this energy and were bold enough and courageous enough to do it! If I understood you correctly.

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Default Oct 04, 2020 at 12:57 PM
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Damien means “powerful man of the people” and “to tame” (from Greek “daman” = powerful + “demos” = people or “damazein” = to tame/subdue).

Karras means the darkness

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Damien means “powerful man of the people” and “to tame” (from Greek “daman” = powerful + “demos” = people or “damazein” = to tame/subdue).

Karras means the darkness

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So, do you mean get a priest?

I was able to close my channel and calm everything down, thankfully. Thank goodness, because it was becoming disturbing to me.

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I am returning to this thread.

Recently I was hospitalized for the dark evil voices I've heard.

I was channeling a LOT just before I had to be hospitalized and just before the voices escalated to a very scary and unmanageable level.

The police came to my house because the psych nurse called them as soon as I told her I was hearing the most evil kind of voices.

I've since come out of the hospital (after ten days of treatment), I am on increased and additional medications to help calm them, but the meds do not solve it nor do they really calm what is happening to me.

I had an exorcism by a priest who came to my home last weekend.

As he was praying over me, my body moved and jerked and growling sounds came out of me. My husband said my eyes rolled to the back of my head as the sounds came out of me. My husband has previously witnessed hissing sounds come out of my body when he held a crucifix to my head.

After the exorcism, I felt far better for about a full day before the energies and voices returned. For that one day, I did not experience voices or any bodily movements.

Since the weekend, I have (once again) had different voices speaking through my body, and I know they are not my own voice. I have to cast them out using rosary beads with a cross that the priest gave me, and with holy oil and holy water that the priest also gave me.

He told me at the time that my problem is both a spiritual one and a psychological one.

While in the hospital, I was NOT diagnosed as schizophrenic. The psych nurse had no real diagnosis for me, and put down bipolar disorder to simply give me any kind of diagnosis because she had to. She even said I do not fit either diagnosis.

So my father is trying to find me a psychiatrist who can properly diagnose me.

When I was hospitalized the last time, seven years ago, they diagnosed the dark voices and possession I experienced as "psychosis". This time, it felt exactly the same.

In my experience, it feels mostly spiritual and partially psychological. The bodily jerks and the hissing and growling sounds tell me this is mostly spiritual.

Of course no one here can diagnose, and that's not what I am seeking from this post.

I am scared - very scared. I am worried about my well being and about my ability to function.

I am NOT channeling anymore. That is DONE. After what I've experienced, I've determined that it opened a door to a world I don't want to know about OR experience ever again.

I had thought though that I was talking also to benevolent beings, for most of the time I was channeling. However, channeling clearly is a very dangerous activity that should NOT be taken lightly.

I made a vast mistake by venturing in this direction to begin with. VAST MISTAKE. Now I don't know how to close the door completely to get rid of them.

WHY did this even have to happen? I thought initially that it was a gift that I should use to help people. There are channels and mediums who channel higher beings.

But for me, channeling creates all sorts of trouble and it's not worth it.

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I think that is a smart decision and I wonder why you kept going back to it? A thought, if you don't mind, from someone (me) that has never done that (and is generally agnostic), just in case you ever wish to go there again: Why don't you install a knocker, such as you would at a door? If something benvolent wants to speak with you, you can open the door a bit, if something not so nice wants to enter, you keep it shut. If you can, install the knocker in a way that discourages non-benvolent things from using it.
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I returned to it because I thought I was being called upon by a higher power. And thanks for your suggestions!

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Pleasure. If a higher power or truly a highest power wants your attention, then there is no door that can stop it, right? A knocker would be helpful though I guess. But I do believe it would be bearable, no? The hindus have a period in their vedas where prophets no longer received direct messages, but instead memories that I should be much less brutal.
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I've since come out of the hospital (after ten days of treatment), I am on increased and additional medications to help calm them, but the meds do not solve it nor do they really calm what is happening to me.

.....

He told me at the time that my problem is both a spiritual one and a psychological one.

.....

In my experience, it feels mostly spiritual and partially psychological. The bodily jerks and the hissing and growling sounds tell me this is mostly spiritual.

......

I am scared - very scared. I am worried about my well being and about my ability to function.

I am NOT channeling anymore. That is DONE. After what I've experienced, I've determined that it opened a door to a world I don't want to know about OR experience ever again.

I had thought though that I was talking also to benevolent beings, for most of the time I was channeling. However, channeling clearly is a very dangerous activity that should NOT be taken lightly.

I made a vast mistake by venturing in this direction to begin with. VAST MISTAKE. Now I don't know how to close the door completely to get rid of them.

WHY did this even have to happen? I thought initially that it was a gift that I should use to help people. There are channels and mediums who channel higher beings.

But for me, channeling creates all sorts of trouble and it's not worth it.
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I will continue to pray for you. If you have read my posts on this forum (Sanctuary for Spiritual Support) and on the social group forum (At Jesus' Feet), I hope some of these more recent posts convey that there is only one person who can help us overcome these dark powers you speak of.

I never channeled but I do believe that in addition to angels of light, there are spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Sometimes these wicked spirits pose as angels of light. Wicked spirits only want to steal, kill and destroy, IMO this is why channeling can be so dangerous.

I agree that many of our psychological issues are spiritual or can be overcome through one person. Yes, some of our issues remain with us for the rest of our lives because IMO there are laws of the universe still at work and our actions do have consequences but we can overcome the confusion and fear that plague our minds by looking to the one who created the universe, It doesn't always happen overnight but IMO we can be changed and healed. I once did not always follow my heart and what I knew in my heart was right because I was fearful and codependent (we can be more easily gaslighted when are plagued by this type of thinking), but now I see the actions of others more clearly (not that I understand their hearts in every way, only God truly understands our hearts).

So I do agree that your insight that you are in a spiritual battle is correct and I will continue to pray for you. It is dangerous to think we can fight these spiritual battles but we can ask God to fight them for us.
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I will continue to pray for you. If you have read my posts on this forum (Sanctuary for Spiritual Support) and on the social group forum (At Jesus' Feet), I hope some of these more recent posts convey that there is only one person who can help us overcome these dark powers you speak of.

I never channeled but I do believe that in addition to angels of light, there are spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Sometimes these wicked spirits pose as angels of light. Wicked spirits only want to steal, kill and destroy, IMO this is why channeling can be so dangerous.

I agree that many of our psychological issues are spiritual or can be overcome through one person. Yes, some of our issues remain with us for the rest of our lives because IMO there are laws of the universe still at work and our actions do have consequences but we can overcome the confusion and fear that plague our minds by looking to the one who created the universe, It doesn't always happen overnight but IMO we can be changed and healed. I once did not always follow my heart and what I knew in my heart was right because I was fearful and codependent (we can be more easily gaslighted when are plagued by this type of thinking), but now I see the actions of others more clearly (not that I understand their hearts in every way, only God truly understands our hearts).

So I do agree that your insight that you are in a spiritual battle is correct and I will continue to pray for you. It is dangerous to think we can fight these spiritual battles but we can ask God to fight them for us.
Thank you @TunedOut.

They did pretend to be Angels of Light. They fooled me and now I'm dealing with some pretty major issues as a result.

They are most wicked. It frightens me.

Thank you for your continued prayers.

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I don't know why this occurred. I started hearing "voices" after an attempt in 2008. Initially, these voices were all dark. Then, later I thought I was talking to God's Angels, who gave me joyous smiles and positive words and affirmations.

I don't know why I started to hear voices, but I interpreted it to mean I was to use this gift to help others. I interpreted it to mean that I could hear both the dark and the light, which has been my experience to date. And not just auditory - I experienced the dark and the light physically too.

Now I wonder if my brain chemistry had also changed, back in 2008, and if that's how this all happened.

I am closing this part of my life off. After 13 years, I have to. But I do not understand the WHY.

I mean, now I have to be on some pretty strong medications to drown out the voices. And I still experience the physical part of channeling -- I have to cast out the dark by means of prayers. I had an exorcism done on me last weekend, and sounds came out of my mouth as they exited. My husband has done an exorcism on me too, and they growl and hiss when confronted and faced by JC.

This is sooooo far beyond my comprehension. I just wish I knew why this had to happen.

Now I have to deal with it, physically, mentally and emotionally and it takes away from my quality of life.

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I am very sorry you feel this way and very much encourage you to never try this again <3
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I am very sorry you feel this way and very much encourage you to never try this again <3
@AliceKate, thank you. For certain I am never trying this again.

Right now, I am working hard at eliminating what I've let in. What a mistake I made.

I would never encourage anyone to try or to do what I have done. This is no joke.

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Wow... yesterday I felt SO much better. I felt like myself again. Then while sleeping something returned and now I am dealing with it all over again this morning. I am exorcising whatever it is from the dark again. This is truly a nightmare.

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I seem to be resolving this. I am on a spiritual forum, and someone there was of HUGE help and may have even saved my life!!!

If anyone ever questions whether dark or evil exists in the spirit realm, don't...... it DOES most certainly exist, and I have had a direct encounter, which scared the bejeezus out of me. I will never ever ever ever channel again. EVER.

I have been meandering spiritually for 13 years now.... now it's time to shut it down and remain in my own faith, which is Christianity.

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I had an exorcism earlier this week with a VERY experienced exorcist. A LOT came out, including demons and spirits. He spoke to each of them and had them identify themselves by name, age and function. They each spoke through me and identified themselves. We worked on this for one full hour, and I feel sooooooooo much better, though some still persist. He told me we would need another session to work on the rest, so I've scheduled one. He is a reverend and truly knows what he is doing. Some demons said their function was to create mental illness in me. Some were related to abuse I had experienced in my life. One demon's function was to cause my eating disorder, which is what the demon said to the reverend. Others were there to create "alters", or other identities in me, which causes mental illness.

This post may be a bit shocking and hard to believe to some.... but this is what happened. Perhaps it will be eye opening to others on here.

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I am still praying for you Have Hope. What you have said is not hard for me to believe and though I do not consider myself an expert, I believe there IS a way to overcome it.
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I am still praying for you Have Hope. What you have said is not hard for me to believe and though I do not consider myself an expert, I believe there IS a way to overcome it.
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I am now listening to a pastor nearly every morning and am praying nearly every morning before work starts. It is truly helping me to get by right now. The pastor's words resonate with me deeply - his words are of mental and emotional strength and positivity - his words are very comforting and nurturing for me. I am now giving God all my battles to fight. Let go and let God, as they say.

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Could it have been a Kundalini awakening? I suddenly became very psychic after some months of meditation over a decade ago now, and while I didn't experience anything near as scary or demonic as you, it was pretty frightening for a while and I experienced a lot of sleep paralysis. It sounds like you opened up to more energy that you could handle and most of it was very negative. It sounds like you've worked hard on ways to manage this and reclaim your power which is amazing!
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Could it have been a Kundalini awakening? I suddenly became very psychic after some months of meditation over a decade ago now, and while I didn't experience anything near as scary or demonic as you, it was pretty frightening for a while and I experienced a lot of sleep paralysis. It sounds like you opened up to more energy that you could handle and most of it was very negative. It sounds like you've worked hard on ways to manage this and reclaim your power which is amazing!
I think I had a Kundalini awakening 10 years ago, yes. It's not what has happened recently, which was the direct result of channeling angels and spirts, which also allowed in dark spirits, dark angels and dark entities. The good and the bad does exist in the spirit realm, and I can attest to that through my experiences.

I, too, have experienced demonic visits during my sleep which caused horrific nightmares and paralysis. It is terrifying.

And thanks.. the exorcisms resolved it! I have reclaimed my power again, which feels amazing!

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