[Harradda]

hi all new here

[dimlyFourOwls]

Originally Posted by Harradda

hi all new here

Hi Harrada. I'm new, too.

Today: Not major depressive, but anhedonia present. Can't do anything I like. Restless, but fewer spikes of paranoia/psychological pain.

[Shadow wings]

Hello all. Just popping in. I've not been around much, I tend to just pop in here and there. Hope everyone is having a good day.

[Shakespeare3699]

Hi there, I'm newly diagnosed schizoaffective depressive type, my past diagnosis was just schizophrenia. Just got out of the hospital for the last week, lost my job because of my mental health making it so I could not work effectively. Now I'm moving 2000 miles back home to live with family.

[dimlyFourOwls]

Originally Posted by Shakespeare3699

Hi there, I'm newly diagnosed schizoaffective depressive type, my past diagnosis was just schizophrenia. Just got out of the hospital for the last week, lost my job because of my mental health making it so I could not work effectively. Now I'm moving 2000 miles back home to live with family.

That's rough. How was your stay in the hospital? Misery or they took care of you well?

[dimlyFourOwls]

Still restless, as usual. Can't settle down in the comfort of my own home. No sense of comfort to be found. It's all around me and I can't absorb any of it. Have to drink decaf every half an hour just for reprieve.

Have been depressed but not majorly yesterday and today.

Decreased buspar from 30 mg to 20 mg, and decreased risperdal from 5 mg to 4 mg. Phone appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow. I don't see much hope in anything. I have to go back to work in three weeks and I have no idea how I'll be capable of handling it. I can't focus on tedious or difficult tasks whatsoever, my motivation is shot, and I just have to get up and pace around every fifteen minutes because I can't settle down.

On the plus, the spikes of paranoia/mental pain are less. They're still there, though, and I also see this as bad news. We have to decrease my antipsychotic because the restlessness side effects are too much, but technically I still have psychosis and am not ready to come off them.

Everything's a mess and there's no way out.

[Shakespeare3699]

Originally Posted by dimlyFourOwls

That's rough. How was your stay in the hospital? Misery or they took care of you well?

Actually the hospital I stayed at was really nice. I don't think I have any complaints about any of the staff, they were all very nice a supportive and helpful during one of my worst psychotic times.

[Blue_Bird]

Doing a lot better, also got a assigned a counselor finally so that's a relief. It's been over 2 months since I've seen one, hard not having much support

[dimlyFourOwls]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Doing a lot better, also got a assigned a counselor finally so that's a relief. It's been over 2 months since I've seen one, hard not having much support

Good for you, Blue_Bird.

[kimical]

they switched me from schizophrenia to schizoaffective again

[dimlyFourOwls]

Originally Posted by kimical

they switched me from schizophrenia to schizoaffective again

That's odd. My psychiatric experience has been that no one really seems inclined or even cares to change my diagnosis to what is appropriate. Never mind that my depression went away years ago (possibly drug-induced). (Note: diagnosed SA depressive). I do think I have a mood disorder component but it's not major depressive so I'm boggled by the diagnosis--I don't remember all that happened to me around the time I was diagnosed so maybe it was appropriate at the time but possibly not anymore.

[dimlyFourOwls]

Slowly recovering, but I caved and had several teaspoons of kratom today to relieve anxiety and psychosis caused by it (it worked...). I was supposed to be slowly tapering off the stuff.

At least my tolerance is almost gone?

Getting "tactile" hallucinations still--or did they go away and come back? I'd have to check my journal (I keep a not-**** journal of my symptoms, mom's recommendation/urging to keep track of thing). I say "tactile" because I don't feel anything on my skin, but I feel forces and energy and the disgust of like I am being inappropriately touched when I walk by anyone else, even family members. Like I am being raped basically, but maybe less intense, but much more frequent. And little spikes of mental pain, sharp.

It's better now with the kratom but I can't rely on it after the withdrawal I went through.

Delusions? yes. I feel that my family is harassing me with negative energy, and people yelling at me when logically my brain says the conversation is not directed towards me. But the gut reaction is that I am being yelled at and abused on a regular basis.

I wish I could just rant about my symptoms to my psychiatrist but he acts like he doesn't really care, just wants things neat and tidy. I have a phone consultation with him this Friday, then an appointment next week, and I go back to work in a week and a half. Wish me luck. I think I can handle it. I have been mentally preparing.

[twistypringle98]

I've been experiencing delusions, but nothing out of the ordinary. These tactile hallucinations that I was having ended up going away. I also calmed down in my moods finally and don't really feel depressed. I felt manic a while back which I wasn't used to. I don't think I've been manic before that and I'm glad that stopped.

Anyway, I hope that everyone experiencing this disorder gets the comfort they need and support they deserve.

[kimical]

They’re switching me from abilify to Vraylar so let’s all hope this is a good thing!

[beanie baby]

My head hurts. Im not as depressed as the past few days. But I had a bunch of annoying voices in my head today.

[kimical]

Originally Posted by beanie baby

My head hurts. Im not as depressed as the past few days. But I had a bunch of annoying voices in my head today.

I’ve been dealing with voices too. The other day I heard a loud scream and dishes breaking but no one was there. That and combined with the constant negative yelling I hear when I’m stressed out

[beanie baby]

Depressed. Lonely. Less voices.

Hope you feel better, Kimical.

[avlady]

help all goes well for everyone here im also having anxiety issues but seem to b handeling them better since increase of Depcote for seizures.

[kimical]

Originally Posted by avlady

help all goes well for everyone here im also having anxiety issues but seem to b handeling them better since increase of Depcote for seizures.

I used to be on depakote for mood but it caused me lethargy and weight gain, how does it work for seizures?

[kimical]

I'm on luvox for ocd again.