Not New, Just Inactive. Back here but upset.

I know this is not the best way to introduce myself but I cannot sleep over this. I am so furious!!!

I just left another support forum for schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder because I've been trying to voice my concerns with the moderators and none of them speak to me. I feel like the mods in that place are unempathetic and they just don't give a **** about anyone there who is having a bad day unless they are in the "clique" and that they lie about keeping everything private but really are talking about people behind their backs. And anyone that they do give a damn about gets special treatment while anyone else outside of that gets all the reprimands. And I wasn't the only one feeling that way. I seen several others have that happen to and one voiced their concern with me and then I was not allowed to speak to that member any longer.

I actually wanted to leave that place sooner because I felt like the moderators there were too upset to mod that place and didn't want to take a break but when I announced that I was leaving, my thread was shut down, and deleted. Then I was sent a private message by all the moderators asking me why I wanted to leave and that I shouldn't say things like that because it triggers other members of the forum.

So like what the hell? Are other members there allowed to be triggered and get support but I'm not?

So sorry for the lengthy post. I'm just unable to sleep right now because I can't take my mind off of that and calm down. I've been trying to think about more positive things and listen to this white noise on youtube but I'm still awake.

And I was ultimately banned from there after I thought that everything was okay between me and the moderators. But then I go to a new page and I was banned. So I was upset and I wanted to let it roll of my shoulders but then I was like "why?" and I made a new account to message the moderators to find out why the hell I was banned. And none of them would speak to me. The moderator that spoke to me on that incident was the only one who did while the other one banned me and then took off without even giving me a notice. I wasn't warned or anything. Just BAN.

So phew. Maybe just screaming into the ether here will help me.

If you are curious on why I left this forum here on psychcentral, it was because I didn't feel like this place was active enough at the time and I was feeling pretty lonely so I went elsewhere.

And I believe other members from the forum that I just came from have told me about this place and said that it's pretty good here so hi

Welcome back to Psych Central. Sorry you had such a negative experience with that other forum.

Thank you. I'm sorry for the long *** post.

Don't even worry about it Obviously you needed to get that off your chest. I just hope it helped.

Thank you It did help.