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#721
I tried to quit vaping this weekend. It was terrible. I slept mostly cause I couldn't cope. Nothing I did helped. I resupplied today. Now I'm feeling less stress. But I'm disappointed in myself.
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#722
I think that I am hitting a stable point. Seriously feels like it. I am enjoying this feeling a lot.
Feeling the motivation itself to quit smoking is really good. It feels like it is working up to be that I actually do. I tried meditation. I am just a beginner, so meditation is a little unknown and I don't think I quit got there. However, the images and voices were a little bit like they were calmed down from being so abusive. They were rather sweet actually. And the effect lasted quite a long time. I tried this because a friend wanted to tell me to meditate. It seems helpful to me, so I should keep doing this and become one grand old meditator to solve my problems. I can see myself getting better and better when I really want to try. It was very relieving to hear it all be not so demeaning and angry. |
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#723
I have my third back procedure tomorrow. They will give me a mild sedative. They want me awake for the procedure but I don't want to feel the pain. These procedures hurt. This one will be worse.
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#724
How did the back procedure go, Deilla? Did you notice any relief?
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#725
I'm doing okay. Just anxious/bored today.
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#726
Thursday will be a week since my procedure. I'm not any better. The nurse said to give it a week. I hope I see improvement.
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#727
I was able to watch 2 tv programs that I've been missing for a while, so that was uplifting.
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#728
I called the nurse today. She said it's normal to still be sore. It could last a few more days. I think I did too much yesterday. I really hurt today. I am taking it easy.
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#729
I think I'm finding an activity that I love!
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#730
I feel sad tonight. I've had a lot of disappointing things happen. They're just little things, but it adds up. Maybe it's time for me to go to bed. I get more depressed later in the day.
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#731
I’m feeling good this week so I’ve been taping myself off my antidepressants, unbeknownst to my psychiatrist and therapist. Just so tired of them. They make me sleepy.
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#732
I'm ok right now.
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#733
I think I'm going to start posting here more regularly. It's "official" in my mind my schizoaffective diagnosis now. I was kinda hoping the psychosis I had was from drug use but I've been clean for a while now and the doc at the hospital went over all my psychotic symptoms while I wasn't manic or depressed and it's setting in that they're right.
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#734
Hi, friends. I'm not me right now. Very sad. Crying a lot. But grateful. Trying very hard. God bless you. I wish you happiness & wellness. I'm so glad we have each other. Today feels very different. I don't understand & I don't know what to do. It feels very painful. I've been watching tv for comfort. I've been recalling precious memories. So sad but wonderful. So I feel fortunate to have had those experiences, & I am grateful, but sad.
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#736
I'm having a difficult day too. Things aren't that bad for me, I just don't feel well emotionally.
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#737
Woke up way too early again. Early bird gets the worm, early human gets bored. I'm not very interested in starting PHP today. My thoughts feel very jumbled.
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#738
I've been in a bad mood today. But I just got a shower, which is a huge accomplishment. So I'm feeling better. I think I will go on a drive tomorrow as a reward.
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#739
The paranoia+voices are strong today compared to yesterday. I took a zyprexa prn at about 1:30 this morning. I didn't sleep well.
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#740
I went on my drive today. And I slept well last night. So today is much improved.
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