[MuddyBoots]

Had my injection yesterday so hopefully my symptoms won't be as bad today, so far just a touch of paranoid thinking but nothing to write home about. Woke up early again.

[Breaking Dawn]

I was feeling overwhelmed & sad, but a small while ago I discovered something that lifted my spirits.

[Deilla]

Today is stressful. I have to call my doctor's office cause they messed up my script, and I have to go by my leasing office to sign paperwork. I don't want to leave my house today. I don't even want to get dressed. So I'm not happy.

[SlumberKitty]

Anyone been in a virtual IOP? What's it like? My insurance has cleared me to be in one but I still have to do an intake call to see if I fit the program requirements. I'm nervous. It's like 45 days! 5 days a week, 3 hours a day.

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Anyone been in a virtual IOP? What's it like? My insurance has cleared me to be in one but I still have to do an intake call to see if I fit the program requirements. I'm nervous. It's like 45 days! 5 days a week, 3 hours a day.

I was about this time last year. It was through zoom, they emailed you a link that led to Zoom and you enter a meeting where you see all the faces through their webcams and the counselors are there too. You just kinda shoot the **** for a bit until everyone's logged in then what we did with so many people was split into separate "rooms" and then we all said our names and did group as normal just virtually (which did make a lot of people more distracted/less interactive than during in-person groups just to warn you if you notice that happening in your group). It wasn't as good as in person, but it was certainly better than not getting any treatment at all.

Hope your IOP helps you out, you sure deserve it.

[MuddyBoots]

My paranoia kicked into high gear during PHP today, along with voices. It's a bit better now, but I'm kinda freaked out about going back tomorrow. I really, really don't want to go.

Possible trigger:

I've been having a lot of suicidal thoughts that have surpassed the "passive" and "fleeting" stages the past couple days, but I really don't want to go back inpatient so I haven't told anyone yet.

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Sapien

I was about this time last year. It was through zoom, they emailed you a link that led to Zoom and you enter a meeting where you see all the faces through their webcams and the counselors are there too. You just kinda shoot the **** for a bit until everyone's logged in then what we did with so many people was split into separate "rooms" and then we all said our names and did group as normal just virtually (which did make a lot of people more distracted/less interactive than during in-person groups just to warn you if you notice that happening in your group). It wasn't as good as in person, but it was certainly better than not getting any treatment at all.

Hope your IOP helps you out, you sure deserve it.

Thanks for this!

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Sapien

My paranoia kicked into high gear during PHP today, along with voices. It's a bit better now, but I'm kinda freaked out about going back tomorrow. I really, really don't want to go.

Possible trigger:

I've been having a lot of suicidal thoughts that have surpassed the "passive" and "fleeting" stages the past couple days, but I really don't want to go back inpatient so I haven't told anyone yet.

HUGS hugs HUGS Kit

[Deilla]

I slept very little last night. I just kept waking up. It was horrible. And then I woke up with a migraine. I took some meds and was able to sleep until 11 am. I don't feel well emotionally today. I just increased my Zoloft. It will be a while before that helps. I'm just so sad lately.

[MuddyBoots]

Another crappy day. I'm going to quit PHP and I just realized I have therapy (an appointment I never scheduled or agreed to in anyway and didn't know about until yesterday) in half an hour. Excuse the whining, but I don't wanna.

Edit: Didn't go well. I told her how I really felt and she's going to have the crisis line call me over the weekend and I have another appointment with her on Tuesday.

[SlumberKitty]

IOP won't take me because of the hallucinations. They will only do it if I am there in person. But they are 2 hours away. That doesn't work for me. So they gave me two other places as a possible. I called one....waiting on a call back. I emailed the other. So far no response from either. What a mess.

[SlumberKitty]

I'm really down and depressed today.

[MuddyBoots]

Sorry about the IOP, Kit. Do you think that is causing or at least contributing a bit to feeling really down?
Hope you feel better

[Brego]

I was feeling on top of the world. And then some fake fear crept up in mind. It had me on all fours like a beast. It was very much like it was the end of the world. And somehow the regulars of life seemed to come in again. So, now I am in the swing of things again.

[Breaking Dawn]

Extremely hard lately but feelng better & planning with hope.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling like a failure today. I'm regretting life choices.

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I'm feeling like a failure today. I'm regretting life choices.

You're not a failure. You're doing your best

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Extremely hard lately but feelng better & planning with hope.

Sorry it's still hard, but glad you're feeling better

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by Brego

I was feeling on top of the world. And then some fake fear crept up in mind. It had me on all fours like a beast. It was very much like it was the end of the world. And somehow the regulars of life seemed to come in again. So, now I am in the swing of things again.

Sounds like things were intense for a bit. It's great that things have gone back to the norm

[MuddyBoots]

I'm struggling intensely with sui thoughts/planning. I started packing in case PHP sends me IP tomorrow. It's just we have to rate our coping on a scale of 1-5 1 being handling life stressors fine and 5 being can't cope/need hospital I never know the difference between 4 (seriously overwhelmed, severe state) and 5 (you are going inpatient). I don't want to ever circle a five but I'm scared of myself and I don't think IP would help.