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#741
Had my injection yesterday so hopefully my symptoms won't be as bad today, so far just a touch of paranoid thinking but nothing to write home about. Woke up early again.
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#742
I was feeling overwhelmed & sad, but a small while ago I discovered something that lifted my spirits.
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#743
Today is stressful. I have to call my doctor's office cause they messed up my script, and I have to go by my leasing office to sign paperwork. I don't want to leave my house today. I don't even want to get dressed. So I'm not happy.
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#744
Anyone been in a virtual IOP? What's it like? My insurance has cleared me to be in one but I still have to do an intake call to see if I fit the program requirements. I'm nervous. It's like 45 days! 5 days a week, 3 hours a day.
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#746
My paranoia kicked into high gear during PHP today, along with voices. It's a bit better now, but I'm kinda freaked out about going back tomorrow. I really, really don't want to go.
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I slept very little last night. I just kept waking up. It was horrible. And then I woke up with a migraine. I took some meds and was able to sleep until 11 am. I don't feel well emotionally today. I just increased my Zoloft. It will be a while before that helps. I'm just so sad lately.
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#750
Another crappy day. I'm going to quit PHP and I just realized I have therapy (an appointment I never scheduled or agreed to in anyway and didn't know about until yesterday) in half an hour. Excuse the whining, but I don't wanna.
Edit: Didn't go well. I told her how I really felt and she's going to have the crisis line call me over the weekend and I have another appointment with her on Tuesday. __________________ Live life for nothing but that sweet sweet melody. Last edited by MuddyBoots; Aug 27, 2021 at 04:48 PM.. |
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#751
IOP won't take me because of the hallucinations. They will only do it if I am there in person. But they are 2 hours away. That doesn't work for me. So they gave me two other places as a possible. I called one....waiting on a call back. I emailed the other. So far no response from either. What a mess.
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#752
I'm really down and depressed today.
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#753
Sorry about the IOP, Kit. Do you think that is causing or at least contributing a bit to feeling really down?
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#754
I was feeling on top of the world. And then some fake fear crept up in mind. It had me on all fours like a beast. It was very much like it was the end of the world. And somehow the regulars of life seemed to come in again. So, now I am in the swing of things again.
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#755
Extremely hard lately but feelng better & planning with hope.
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#756
I'm feeling like a failure today. I'm regretting life choices.
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#759
Sounds like things were intense for a bit. It's great that things have gone back to the norm
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#760
I'm struggling intensely with sui thoughts/planning. I started packing in case PHP sends me IP tomorrow. It's just we have to rate our coping on a scale of 1-5 1 being handling life stressors fine and 5 being can't cope/need hospital I never know the difference between 4 (seriously overwhelmed, severe state) and 5 (you are going inpatient). I don't want to ever circle a five but I'm scared of myself and I don't think IP would help.
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