[bpforever1]

I taught the same student again this morning. She seemed more receptive. Hopefully, she did not write management about any miscommunication again! I don't think so. I believe, I did a good job today. I am feeling fine too. I walked outside and went up 20 flight of stairs. I am going to have a positive attitude. I am doing well!!

[bpforever1]

The manager asked me about the student again. I said it went well. I have not heard from him since. I should get feedback soon though. I am not too worried about it because I am doing the best I can. I feel great! I walked outside and went up 20 flight of stairs. I also am eating healthy. I sleep well. I feel fine!! Life is not bad. The weather is muggy here though. It is slightly uncomfortable but have the fan on.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm tired but doing ok.

[bpforever1]

I seem to be doing a good job. The assistant manager said people like me, They said good things about me. Well, after receiving a complaint, accolades and encouragement are nice to hear!! I feel fine. My computer had a glitch and all my microsoft apps stopped working. I was going insane!! But, I figured it out and reset my computer. It did the trick!! I am doing well again!! Life is not so bad. I am grateful for my blessings and the fact that although bad things happen to me, I overcome them and carry on with not much problems. I am happy that my students like me though!! It is like a popularity contest too! I am going to be ok and look forward to working these days.

[SlumberKitty]

Today I am anxious. I just took some xanax though. So it should calm down.

[bpforever1]

I'm doing ok. Another new student gave me a good review!! I'm doing fine, I guess. I was really stressed out yesterday because my computer crashed and almost lost all of my data and other apps. It was difficult trying to figure out what to do. I slept on my break time. I was so tired! I will exercise tomorrow again. I went to bed at 1 am last night after doing clerical work. I was exhausted all day today. But, after sleeping during my break, I feel fine. I took my medication and am doing well!! I am grateful for this job but don't like the popularity contest conditions. I'm thinking about going back to school and getting a real job afterwards. This job is ok but the hours are not good and there are no benefits. It is not a good situation!!

[Breaking Dawn]

I am doing much better this morning. And I'm grateful for that.

[WastingAsparagus]

I'm doing okay today. Haven't done a ton of work today, but just have been lazy around the house all day. It's fine. I have been extremely busy as of late. I don't feel that busy but I've been able to do a lot lately. I think it's good to keep my mind occupied during these times and usually. I feel like I've learned something about myself during these tough times, which is that I need to keep my mind occupied. That on top of some med changes lately and I've been doing pretty well. I've also been writing a ton, which is good as well.

[bpforever1]

I'm doing ok. I went outside to walk and went up 20 flight of stairs. I was thinking about volunteering for a suicide hotline when I have the time. I have to get training of course though. I want to look into other jobs with benefits. I have a science degree and want to use it for something useful. I don't want to do psychology but counseling sounds decent to me. I can help people and educate them as well. I like helping people and talking to them. Teaching is fine but I know my job is a dead end job. It is nice to have a job and will do it for a year or two. However, I am thinking I can't continue this way until I retire. I can't even retire!!! lol, I don't make enough. I want to so some thing in counseling and science. I thought about nursing also. But, it is not a good fit for me. I have done medical work and realized I don't like the lifestyle. I will look into science and counseling. I'm sure there is some thing I can do still. I feel great but after the complaints from a student, it really opened my eyes and made me think about my future. I don't like this popularity contest aspect of my company. Sometimes, it is just a personality conflict. But, the company sided with the customer, not me. I felt hurt and know the bottom line is profit for the company, not me as a person. I am doing an overall good job they say. But, I don't appreciate being thought of as a cog in a wheel- just a gadget or a tool. I am not mad but am happy to have insight into my current job situation. Sometimes, things happen for a reason!! I will search for the answers to my situation.

[Breaking Dawn]

Hi, everybody! I suspect we need each other because we are kind of weird. But it's possible all of us are just plain ol' special & feel the Universal love & understanding that we all need

[bpforever1]

I'm going to focus on my current job. I thought about returning to school but it costs money. I will just do with what I have and see if there are other jobs out there which I can do eventually. I am tired. I need to sleep.

[WastingAsparagus]

Eh, not doing so hot today... Just feel kind of weird due to med changes in the past week. I don't trust my doctor. It seems like he wants to go a certain direction, but doesn't really know what's best for me. Hm. I hate when that happens. It's so weird because there are so many variables out there that can affect people in different ways. But I just know when something's wrong.

[bpforever1]

My manager said I would be receiving more students. I have to meet with the head teacher to prepare. I am tired!! I don't want more students!! I hope the company hires more decent teachers. I don't need to work that hard to earn money. The money is nice but my sanity is more important. I just wanted to work 20 hours a week. It looks like they are going to pile the students on me. I don't understand the reason because there are other teachers available. I am not the only teacher! I feel flattered though but am wondering if the company is being cheap and not hiring too many teachers. I don't know. Thus, I will meet with the head teacher and see what happens. I am really exhausted though. I can't refuse students and am hoping they hire more teachers. I feel stuck. I hope I survive! What a life!

[bpforever1]

My brother is so stupid that it makes me sad. I told him about the manager wanting to give me more students. And, then he said didn't you tell them you have a mental illness? He is dumb as a rock and has empathy of a rock. No, dummy, I did not tell them. I feel as if that he is my brother, then I can't help but being a dummy too. I wish I can receive some advice or support. May be, I will ask in another forum. I feel ok now but tired. I just don't know how it would be if I got more students.

[WastingAsparagus]

Originally Posted by bpforever1

My manager said I would be receiving more students. I have to meet with the head teacher to prepare. I am tired!! I don't want more students!! I hope the company hires more decent teachers. I don't need to work that hard to earn money. The money is nice but my sanity is more important. I just wanted to work 20 hours a week. It looks like they are going to pile the students on me. I don't understand the reason because there are other teachers available. I am not the only teacher! I feel flattered though but am wondering if the company is being cheap and not hiring too many teachers. I don't know. Thus, I will meet with the head teacher and see what happens. I am really exhausted though. I can't refuse students and am hoping they hire more teachers. I feel stuck. I hope I survive! What a life!

Just a suggestion, but can you tell the manager or whomever you talk to there that you don't want to work more than 20 hours? You don't need to tell them about mental illness or anything like that. Just be firm about it. That's my advice. It's tough to put your foot down sometimes but it's good to treat yourself like that. I mean in terms of sanity.

[bpforever1]

Thank you so much, wasting asparagus! I will do this then. I am trying to delay meeting my head teacher because of this. I really don't want to work more than 20 hours a week. Your idea is good!

[bpforever1]

I took my work schedule and erased some hours which I was available. I hope they don't ask me to change it. I was waking up at 4:40 am to do my 6 am classes. I basically don't want to do this anymore. I do have one 6 am class but it is not that bad. I will tweak my schedule some more to prevent them from giving me classes too early in the morning. I don't want to wake up to some ornery student who is hellbent on making my day miserable. I had enough of those type of students.


Otherwise, I'm doing well today. Life is not bad!!

[bpforever1]

I'm doing well. I went shopping for food then cleaned my apartment. Now, I am washing my clothes. I also had one student to teach. I feel fine!

[Breaking Dawn]

I am so schizoaffective! But I'm ok. Thank God!

[bpforever1]

I'm tired again!! I fell asleep after my morning shift. At least, I have time to sleep. I will be ok.