[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I found a new therapist. She messaged me on her day off. I thought that was nice. That's much better than not responding. She says she responds 5 days a week, twice a day. That's her goal. She works M - F. So I feel good about that. I think this will work out.

That sounds good. I hope this new therapist works out!

[Breaking Dawn]

Today has felt more like a weekend day for some reason, so a bit disorienting. Probably due to not enough sleep & maybe stress. Otherwise I'm doing pretty good. I've accomplished some small goals while I was afraid I wouldn't.

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Today has felt more like a weekend day for some reason, so a bit disorienting. Probably due to not enough sleep & maybe stress. Otherwise I'm doing pretty good. I've accomplished some small goals while I was afraid I wouldn't.

Yeah for accomplishing small goals! That's awesome! Sorry the day has been a bit discombobulating! HUGS Kit

[Deilla]

I did Okay today. I slept a lot cause I was sad, bored and lonely. But I feel better now. I'm playing my game, which always helps. What's nice about the game is I can spend time crafting in-game items and listen to the game music. It totally relaxes me.

[WastingAsparagus]

I don't even think I have schizoaffective anymore. I have some form of something else. I don't even know. Medicated me is fine. I don't know what my real self is like though.

I wish I could demolish any need for myself to take medication. Why is it, anyway, that these substances discovered by scientists help us with our illnesses anyway? This may sound insane, and if it does, just ignore it, but I feel like it's just uncanny that a substance would destroy our symptoms. The thing is, I feel like I'm 100% correct when I have the desire to go off my meds.

Then they teach us self acceptance and things like that. Why should I accept my medicated self? I wish I could accept my situation. The reality is just that I cannot though.

[childofchaos831]

My diagnosis got changed from schizoaffective depression to Borderline Personality Disorder and PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. The psychosis is apparently part of the PTSD... it can cause some hallucination type symptomology.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm almost certain there's absolutely nothing wrong with me up to three or four percent of the time.

[childofchaos831]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

I'm almost certain there's absolutely nothing wrong with me up to three or four percent of the time.

Omg, same. Maybe closer to 6 or 7 percent.

[Deilla]

I took the day off and played games all day. It was nice but now I'm tired. For some reason I am a little sad. I guess maybe I need sleep.

[MALmic26]

Saw a

Possible trigger:

severed head

in my bed last night... I was laying beside it and I didn’t know until I turned. The hair was blonde. I saw faces in the clouds this afternoon while on my walk. The faces on the bathroom floor won’t go away.. I’m tired of Schizoaffective Disorder...

[Deilla]

I hate that I try to have a good day and feel good but then something happens to take me out of my bubble. I won't go into detail. But now I need to do something to soothe myself.

[WastingAsparagus]

I had a bad day yesterday but a good one today. 1/2 I guess. Ha.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I hate that I try to have a good day and feel good but then something happens to take me out of my bubble. I won't go into detail. But now I need to do something to soothe myself.

Hugs, Deilla!!!

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

I had a bad day yesterday but a good one today. 1/2 I guess. Ha.

Yay for today!!!

[Deilla]

I pretty much felt lonely all day. But I did try to distract myself with activities. I guess now I just need to go to bed. Not sure what else I can do.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I pretty much felt lonely all day. But I did try to distract myself with activities. I guess now I just need to go to bed. Not sure what else I can do.

Sometimes, when I feel like that, I watch youtube videos of puppies or panda or cheetah cubs and I feel better, connected to the animals, maybe.

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Sometimes, when I feel like that, I watch youtube videos of puppies or panda or cheetah cubs and I feel better, connected to the animals, maybe.

That's a good approach. I know sometimes when I cuddle with my pets, I feel like I have great companionship. And that helps.

I feel a little better this morning. I'm ordering breakfast. I feel like some good comfort food will help me. I'm a little restless. I could use some more sleep too. I might try to do a meditation later this morning.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Deilla

That's a good approach. I know sometimes when I cuddle with my pets, I feel like I have great companionship. And that helps.

I feel a little better this morning. I'm ordering breakfast. I feel like some good comfort food will help me. I'm a little restless. I could use some more sleep too. I might try to do a meditation later this morning.

Meditation really helps me a lot. I do it when I run and ride my bike and stuff.

[SlumberKitty]

Hearing some voices, maybe a man and a woman or maybe two men like from a tv but no tv is on. I can't quite make out what they are saying, I sense they are talking about me, maybe spying on me. But I also know that this could just be in my head. I talk to Pdoc on Wednesday.

[Breaking Dawn]

Well, the thing is, I (& probably others here, too) need a voice whisperer. Someone who can calm them (the voices) & help them (& us) sleep.