[loveitout]

My fiance and I have been together for 3 years. I was aware that he suffered from some kind of disorder early on and felt that I loved him and that would be enough. He has recently been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. After having our baby,who is now 5 months, every issue has been exasperated. He has been voluntarily hospitalized recently and just this afternoon he was 5150'ed. I am so tired and don't think I can do it anymore, he gets so nasty and has severe delusions about everything. When I try to leave he tries to kill himself. I am so lost.

[costello]

Welcome to the forum, loveitout. I hope you find support and assistance here.

Does your fiance have family you can talk to? They may be more familiar with his history and what has been helpful (or unhelpful) in the past.

[loveitout]

Thanks for your response costello. It is a very difficult situation. There is quite a hisory of depression and other disorders. His mother, father, and grandmother all suffer from something as well. They are all very open about it and I have known him for a little over 10yrs. so I have been able to piece together the info thay have given me as well as what I can remember. I go to the doctors with him and be sure to give them my outside perspective becasue he is really good about lying and knows just what to say. I don't know what to do anymore, I am just sooo tired.

[costello]

I don't know what to say. I admire people who can commit to such relationships. I know how hard it is with my son. He takes so much energy, and he gives very little back. I don't know if I would be able to be in a relationship/partnership that's so one sided. In your shoes I probably would have walked away a long time ago.

Having said that I hope my son meets someone like you someday who loves him and is willing to hang it there.

I can identify with the exhaustion. I wish I had answers for you.

Take care.