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falcon09 · May 20, 2018 at 03:00 AM

Nightmare, can't go back to sleep. Voices in the dark

ofthevalley · May 20, 2018 at 07:19 AM

Good morning. Slept like ****. At like 2 in the morning my daughter let out a blood curdling scream. I jumped out of bed and ran upstairs and she was fast asleep. I woke her up and she had no clue why. Scared the **** out of me and I slept fitfully the rest of the night.
Going out to breakfast with gram then I’m going grocery shopping. I really don’t want to do either. I just want to stay holed up at home with the family.
Hope everyone has a good day.

junkDNA · May 20, 2018 at 07:49 AM

don't give up

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newtus · May 20, 2018 at 08:06 AM

Morning

Having cold brew coffee

Im kinda angry

the bf was snoring and i got up cuz i was angry. Then he rolls over and takes over the only pillow and blanket.

Then he acts like its my fault im up and vaping

ofthevalley · May 20, 2018 at 08:29 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Morning

Having cold brew coffee

Im kinda angry

the bf was snoring and i got up cuz i was angry. Then he rolls over and takes over the only pillow and blanket.

Then he acts like its my fault im up and vaping

My husband snores like a freight train. Used to piss me off so much I wanted to smother him with a pillow. I eventually got used to it.
Did you have fun?

newtus · May 20, 2018 at 08:32 AM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

My husband snores like a freight train. Used to piss me off so much I wanted to smother him with a pillow. I eventually got used to it.
Did you have fun?

Yes i did! We didnt stay long. But we had burgers at the festival. Listened to music. I danced with what i called a blow up doll. It was a guy in an inflatable suit. I twerked in front of the crowd. The bf didnt think i would do it. I wish he had gotten it on video!!!!!

Findingreason · May 20, 2018 at 09:25 AM

Good morning/afternoon everyone. How are things going today?

I'm okay. Last day in Lahti. Going to Helsinki tomorrow for the afternoon and then back north. I like trips out and about but it's always nice to go back home. Then when I get home I'll be figuring out where my workstation will go in the apartment, seeing as there is definitely a chance that my new partner could be moving in with us. We'll see what happens.

What's everyone up to?

falcon09 · May 20, 2018 at 09:30 AM

Going to a families friends house and fishing/grilling in a few hours. Should be fun

Sometimes psychotic · May 20, 2018 at 09:32 AM

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Going to a families friends house and fishing/grilling in a few hours. Should be fun

I had a dream about fishing last night....some of the popular girls from high school were representing Texas for some reason......it was an all female fishing tournament in teams of three.

12AM · May 20, 2018 at 09:35 AM

Hi everyone. Hope you’re all doing fine.

I don’t feel fine lately, I am guessing it’s the Concerta. At first it worked wonder, I had energy to do stuff and my focus got better. I found myself able to read about politics again for example. But then I feel anxious and paranoid, anxious about what if my love ones die, what if I die, what if this what if that what if this this that. Been feeling like something is watching me too. Following me around that I don’t feel safe if I’m alone upstairs though family is just downstairs watching TV. I felt earthquakes few times and ran to tell my family to leave the house but they said they didn’t feel them and the news didn’t say anything about them.

So I’m torn now between having energy and focus to do things but anxious and paranoid, and feeling positive symptoms free but have an energy level of some rotten spinach. I don’t know which one to choose. I haven’t felt this kind of energy and focus for years, it’s really hard to let go of Concerta.

Hope everyone has a relaxing Sunday.

newtus · May 20, 2018 at 09:44 AM

Morning sex is the best

Nix · May 20, 2018 at 10:23 AM

Hello... hope you guys are enjoying your Sunday. I got in a pretty bad space yesterday. When I start to spiral down I always start getting obsessed with aliens and conspiracy theories and then I just zone out and have trouble functioning or interacting with people. And I started doing that yesterday so my parents came to pick me up and I spent the night at their house. I mostly just slept the whole day. I’ve been having so much trouble with my thoughts that I just gasp and hold my head and can’t focus on doing anything and then my parents get worried and I feel bad for upsetting them. Sigh. But anyway I had a good nights sleep and today I feel a little better so I guess I’m just trying to care for myself a day or an hour at a time or whatever it is I need to do. Really looking forward to the day when I feel stable and normal. Trying to ignore my frustration with my current state and just find moments of beauty or satisfaction wherever they happen to be...

newtus · May 20, 2018 at 10:25 AM

Finally the bf is up. Its raining urghhh

junkDNA · May 20, 2018 at 10:44 AM

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Originally Posted by 12AM

Hi everyone. Hope you’re all doing fine.

I don’t feel fine lately, I am guessing it’s the Concerta. At first it worked wonder, I had energy to do stuff and my focus got better. I found myself able to read about politics again for example. But then I feel anxious and paranoid, anxious about what if my love ones die, what if I die, what if this what if that what if this this that. Been feeling like something is watching me too. Following me around that I don’t feel safe if I’m alone upstairs though family is just downstairs watching TV. I felt earthquakes few times and ran to tell my family to leave the house but they said they didn’t feel them and the news didn’t say anything about them.

So I’m torn now between having energy and focus to do things but anxious and paranoid, and feeling positive symptoms free but have an energy level of some rotten spinach. I don’t know which one to choose. I haven’t felt this kind of energy and focus for years, it’s really hard to let go of Concerta.

Hope everyone has a relaxing Sunday.

I had the same dilemma with adderall.

junkDNA · May 20, 2018 at 10:45 AM

I had a quack pdoc that prescribed me 50mg a day. eventually I became very psychotic and my therapist put a stop to that lol

junkDNA · May 20, 2018 at 10:45 AM

I'm here at Ts place waiting for my appt

12AM · May 20, 2018 at 11:06 AM

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I had a quack pdoc that prescribed me 50mg a day. eventually I became very psychotic and my therapist put a stop to that lol

Fiancé told me to throw the Concerta into the Pacific Ocean 🌊

12AM · May 20, 2018 at 11:08 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Finally the bf is up. Its raining urghhh

It’s been raining a lot here too lately

Sometimes psychotic · May 20, 2018 at 11:14 AM

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Originally Posted by 12AM

Fiancé told me to throw the Concerta into the Pacific Ocean 🌊

I have to admit I generally question the logic of stimulants in psychosis because they basically counteract the AP....I think there are a few rare instances where it works out but generally pdocs won’t even want to try it....it’s all about the dopamine...

Loial · May 20, 2018 at 11:14 AM

Hi 12AM...

Good to see you. Had been wondering how you were.

I’m sorry you are struggling to find a balance with your meds.

I hope everything else is well!

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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	May 20, 2018 at 10:25 AM #53 Finally the bf is up. Its raining urghhh __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

junkDNA Comfy Sedation Member Since Sep 2012 Location: the woods Posts: 19,301 (SuperPoster!) 11 8,149 hugs given	May 20, 2018 at 10:45 AM #55 I had a quack pdoc that prescribed me 50mg a day. eventually I became very psychotic and my therapist put a stop to that lol __________________

junkDNA Comfy Sedation Member Since Sep 2012 Location: the woods Posts: 19,301 (SuperPoster!) 11 8,149 hugs given	May 20, 2018 at 10:45 AM #56 I'm here at Ts place waiting for my appt __________________