Do I have schizophrenia ?

Since around 6 years I've been getting more and more intrusive thoughts/feelings, I think my mindset also significantly changed along with these thoughts. These thoughts are about processes going on around or in me. I'm doing something, then I will get the thought about it then I can't do it spontaneously anymore, can't get the thought out of my head. Thing is for a long time I wasn't addressing these thoughts and was naturally treating them like they were normal for everyone.
One day I simply decided that this is not normal, and started telling everyone about it. My awareness of this problem is not normal, it's like I'm deluded but can tell that I'm deluded. All the things that I say about my problem are not .. resonating with me. I feel that something is wrong with my consciousness as well, I think that I never thought about myself before, and now that I'm doing it, it's coming out in this third person perspective. I first thought this was sensorimotor OCD but the third person thing bothered me.

My posts are always a mess, but hopefully people will read & understand something. I really need any kind of help right now.

If your not hearing voices that arnt yours then you don't have schizophrenia. If your not being tortured by voices of all kinds of voices claiming there your friends or your family or just random voices calling you a loser and a peice of ****. Or even saying your not good enough or telling you to do something stupid like a crime or to commit suicide. Or trying to get you to do things just because you do not have schizophrenia. But if you do then you need to seek medical attention. And try get on some meds. Because it will never go away it will always be there from when you open your eyes till you close them at night. But through sheer will power and faith you can make it through and meds don't forget those

Nothing you have written suggests schizophrenia or psychosis to me, but you would need to see a psychiatrist to be sure as we can’t fully evaluate you.

It does sound like you are really struggling with a lot of anxiety though. Do you have a therapist and/or psychiatrist you can talk to about this?

Some people, myself included, are more aware of their internal experiences and thought processes an most others seem to be. What you describe sounds like meta-cognition; thinking about thinking. Talking to other people, it sounds like most people don’t do this, or at least are as aware of it as I am. It can be problematic, especially when I get stuck in, what I term, ‘thought spirals’ around and around, but I have also been able to turn this ability to my advantage in terms of practising mindfulness and coping with the things that I experience. I hope that you can find a way through this experience too

Wishing you all the best

*Willow*

Just to clarify, auditory hallucinations are a symptom of schizophrenia, but you don’t need to hear voices to be diagnosed with schizophrenia. Quite a few people with that diagnosis in fact don’t hear voices, either ever or very, very rarely. And hearing voices also doesn’t necessarily mean you have psychosis or schizophrenia either.

I’m really sorry that your voices are so hard to deal with though

*Willow*

yeah, i have schizo effective disorder, no hallucinations but i can become quite delusional and paranoid.