Relapse?

I dont feel right. I started to decrease my dose of invega about a couple of months ago cause it made me gain soo much weight and raised my prolactin levels. I was just sick of using APs. So i wanted to quit the med and also my psych cause i really really cant get along with her. And i was so sure my psychosis was gone forever. So i quit the med about a couple of weeks ago. I was soo happy for the first time in ages. I started to lose weight, my prolactin levels went down. But a while ago i started not being able to sleep. I would try to sleep although i was so tired, i just couldnt. I also started to hear the voices again and started feeling bugs on my legs and arms. Now it’s a struggle for me to go outside because everything scares me. I dont want to be around people. I don’t want them to look at me cause then they can hurt me. Then they can see inside me. I always have to look back when I’m walking somewhere to see if anyone is coming behind me. And cats aren’t really cats but agents. But i still have to go to work and it’s soo hard to go out of the house. And when i get to work i’m so scared that i jump out of my place every time someone comes behind me or touches me. Sometimes i’m even afraid to go home cause i’m scared of the stuff i’ll do. There are signs that tell me to kill myself and i’m afraid to go home. So yeah i go to my therapist next week and i’m scared she’ll refer me to a psych again cause i really dont want to take meds. But it’s just like it was before i was admitted to the hospital. I just dont know what to do.

There are APs that are weight neutral, maybe you can ask your doctor about them. No one wants to be on meds but sadly that’s what we have to do. I’m sorry your symptoms are coming back

I'm sorry that you're struggling

What techniques is your therapist teaching you to be able to learn to deal with these experiences? It's really difficult, maybe even near impossible, to manage med-free if you don't have some solid coping skills. I mean, it's really difficult at times even with good coping skills...

I hope that you find a new pdoc that you can work with, and find an AP that better suits you side effects wise whilst you work with your therapist on ways to cope with anxiety and other experiences

*Willow*