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ofthevalley · Jun 03, 2018 at 05:18 AM

Slept until 6 today. Progress. Drinking coffee with milk. It’s kind of gross.
Grocery shopping today. I wonder what kind of deliciousness my daughter will make.
I have a screaming headache. Ouch.

Erti · Jun 03, 2018 at 05:24 AM

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Slept until 6 today. Progress. Drinking coffee with milk. It’s kind of gross.
Grocery shopping today. I wonder what kind of deliciousness my daughter will make.
I have a screaming headache. Ouch.

Wooh 6am... My uncle said he'd take me out to lunch today lets hope he keeps his word.

Findingreason · Jun 03, 2018 at 05:36 AM

I've always acted against voices and visual hallucinations. Watched this video again:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=syjEN3peCJw

Wondering if I show them compassion and think critically about it if they are communicating something to me about myself. I'm just afraid even in my own living space about talking to them. I want to know more. I want to develop a meaningful connection to try and not be so...disrespectful to them? They are part of myself. Like for instance seeing someone coming way too close to me yesterday and not being real could resemble my fears of being attacked. Seeing demons being related to my fear and belief in them when I was a teen that never full went away. So yeah. Idk and I worry about talking to them and others here judging me in my apartment. My wife has told me before to not worry and be open about them. Idk...

On a side note I did take my meds this morning.

junkDNA · Jun 03, 2018 at 07:14 AM

my t and I talk about the voices and their motivations. we've even considered approaching them with compassion and understanding. I find it hard tho because they are abusive nearly all the time

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Originally Posted by Findingreason

I've always acted against voices and visual hallucinations. Watched this video again:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=syjEN3peCJw

Wondering if I show them compassion and think critically about it if they are communicating something to me about myself. I'm just afraid even in my own living space about talking to them. I want to know more. I want to develop a meaningful connection to try and not be so...disrespectful to them? They are part of myself. Like for instance seeing someone coming way too close to me yesterday and not being real could resemble my fears of being attacked. Seeing demons being related to my fear and belief in them when I was a teen that never full went away. So yeah. Idk and I worry about talking to them and others here judging me in my apartment. My wife has told me before to not worry and be open about them. Idk...

On a side note I did take my meds this morning.

junkDNA · Jun 03, 2018 at 07:15 AM

good morning

my shift was 9.5 hours last night. the store was a total wreck. there was so much stuff thrown everywhere. I wish ppl would be more considerate. we also had like 6 carts of go-backs by the end of the night

today I see my therapist at 12 then I'm going to LensCrafters to have an eye exam and get new glasses

my newer pair broke a month or so ago so I've been wearing my back up pair. now those have broke too

newtus · Jun 03, 2018 at 07:26 AM

Morning

Having coffee

junkDNA · Jun 03, 2018 at 07:39 AM

slowly getting my house clean n organized

so far I've done living room kitchen and just did my bedroom

also almost caught up on all my laundry

newtus · Jun 03, 2018 at 07:45 AM

Took my med

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 03, 2018 at 07:49 AM

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Originally Posted by Findingreason

I've always acted against voices and visual hallucinations. Watched this video again:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=syjEN3peCJw

Wondering if I show them compassion and think critically about it if they are communicating something to me about myself. I'm just afraid even in my own living space about talking to them. I want to know more. I want to develop a meaningful connection to try and not be so...disrespectful to them? They are part of myself. Like for instance seeing someone coming way too close to me yesterday and not being real could resemble my fears of being attacked. Seeing demons being related to my fear and belief in them when I was a teen that never full went away. So yeah. Idk and I worry about talking to them and others here judging me in my apartment. My wife has told me before to not worry and be open about them. Idk...

On a side note I did take my meds this morning.

I think it changes the nature of the voice to be open.....when I had no insight the voices were mostly helpful albeit tricky like they wanted me to run outside naked etc....you can respectfully disagree. It was after I started gaining insight into the fact I was sick that I started getting more devils etc.....I think that my negative attitude caused that....seeing them as helpful voices or guiding spirits can help.

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 03, 2018 at 07:56 AM

Going to see rampage today with the bf...we are going to the cheapie movies...both me and the bf are out of work now, so are trying to save money. We are also going to corner bakery for lunch. Fast casual is our new gourmet. Rampage should be a fun movie...I just love the rock....

Findingreason · Jun 03, 2018 at 08:07 AM

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I think it changes the nature of the voice to be open.....when I had no insight the voices were mostly helpful albeit tricky like they wanted me to run outside naked etc....you can respectfully disagree. It was after I started gaining insight into the fact I was sick that I started getting more devils etc.....I think that my negative attitude caused that....seeing them as helpful voices or guiding spirits can help.

Very true...changing my relation with them from hostility towards them to love and respect for them however tricky they may be could be for the better. I reconciled with a spirit earlier and talked to him, I bumped into him with my hand. He didn't have much to say. But I wasn't so scared. Now I can't feel the watching anymore.

Angelique67 · Jun 03, 2018 at 08:49 AM

It's beautiful out. Bright and cool. I guess I'll be listening to podcasts all day again. I won't run out of them, that's for sure.

I took half a tiz last night to be able to sleep since I'm having a bad attack of insomnia. I still woke up really early and couldn't get back to sleep.

I wish I could go back outside. I haven't had my meds yet.

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 03, 2018 at 08:52 AM

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Very true...changing my relation with them from hostility towards them to love and respect for them however tricky they may be could be for the better. I reconciled with a spirit earlier and talked to him, I bumped into him with my hand. He didn't have much to say. But I wasn't so scared. Now I can't feel the watching anymore.

Yeah I was inspired by your thinking and wrote a blog post about my experiences with set and setting in psychosis.....it’s basically similar to a psychedelic experience where both your mindset and the environment alter the experience. It really helps to surround yourself with positive people and places but also to have a positive outlook on the experience itself. It can be difficult but listening to what the voices want and complying within safety limits can help them mellow out. It’s like a part of your mind hasn’t been listened to in a really long time, maybe since you were a child and had imaginary friends all it wants is to be heard.

Erti · Jun 03, 2018 at 09:20 AM

Yura yura yura, yura yura yureru

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 03, 2018 at 09:22 AM

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Yura yura yura, yura yura yureru

you OK? or is that baby metal?

newtus · Jun 03, 2018 at 09:25 AM

Today is gonna suck

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 03, 2018 at 09:37 AM

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Today is gonna suck

If you think it will suck then it definitely will...what could you do to make it less of a sucky day?

Erti · Jun 03, 2018 at 09:39 AM

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you OK? or is that baby metal?

I'm ok. It's babymetal.

newtus · Jun 03, 2018 at 10:09 AM

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If you think it will suck then it definitely will...what could you do to make it less of a sucky day?

Im not sure. I say its gonna suck cuz im gonna be alone.

I need to do stuff like put stuff on poshmark again, vacuum, etc stuff like that. I just dont want to. Money is the motive tho.

Erti · Jun 03, 2018 at 10:19 AM

I don't sleep... I just dream.

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ofthevalley Legendary Member Since Feb 2015 Location: USA Posts: 11,326 (SuperPoster!) 9 499 hugs given	Jun 03, 2018 at 05:18 AM #61 Slept until 6 today. Progress. Drinking coffee with milk. It’s kind of gross. Grocery shopping today. I wonder what kind of deliciousness my daughter will make. I have a screaming headache. Ouch. __________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety
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Sometimes psychotic Legendary Wise Elder Member Since May 2013 Location: Chicago Posts: 26,409 (SuperPoster!) 10 22.8k hugs given	Jun 03, 2018 at 07:56 AM #70 Going to see rampage today with the bf...we are going to the cheapie movies...both me and the bf are out of work now, so are trying to save money. We are also going to corner bakery for lunch. Fast casual is our new gourmet. Rampage should be a fun movie...I just love the rock.... __________________ Hugs!
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Angelique67 Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2014 Location: USA Posts: 22,115 (SuperPoster!) 9	Jun 03, 2018 at 08:49 AM #72 It's beautiful out. Bright and cool. I guess I'll be listening to podcasts all day again. I won't run out of them, that's for sure. I took half a tiz last night to be able to sleep since I'm having a bad attack of insomnia. I still woke up really early and couldn't get back to sleep. I wish I could go back outside. I haven't had my meds yet.
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Erti Princess Tutu Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Nowhere Posts: 7,912 12 2,894 hugs given	Jun 03, 2018 at 10:19 AM #80 I don't sleep... I just dream.
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