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Old 06-19-2018, 11:49 AM #1
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I donít know if I have schizophrenia. There are some criteria that I donít have, but I do hear voices and I have very strange beliefs. Over the past decade I started feeling like my reality is not so real. I literally think Iím stuck in a lucid dream. Going to sleep at night is just me dreaming inside a dream.

Every once in while I see this scene of laying down in a hospital bed inside a somewhat dark room. I feels like my "real" eyes have barely opened a bit. I feel like this is the "real" world. There are a lot others like me lying in a bed. Iím guessing about 50. Thereís a door, usually opened that goes into a lighted hallway. Uggg this gives me such chills thinking about it. Itís very frightening and I donít know whatís happening or what to do. How can I wake up from this? I think thereís something wrong with all of us in the room. I want to open my "real" eyes all the way and get up but don't know how to do it.

The only way I could break free from this belief is to find a science experiment to give me enough proof that this reality is real and not a lucid dream but I canít think of an experiment.

The reason I believe this is some type of lucid dream is that Iíve seen far too many things that just donít make sense. Like for example if Iím pacing back and forth outside then quite often Iíll notice changes in the ground during each pass. Usually itís a leaf that wasnít there or one that moved. How could leaves appear, disappear and move around so often on the ground, but yet if I stare at the ground for a long time thereís never a change. You might think Iím just hallucinating. Yes that would definitely take some serious hallucinations, but I have a lot of photographic evidence of what is commonly called high strangeness. Like for example one time I heard ďspiritsĒ tell me to start taking photos with my phone. I took about a dozen photos outside and inside the house. In every photo there is at least one very large and bright round object that is sweeping across, as if itís a glowing ball of light that was moving very fast. I canít think of any rational way to explain that much less a dozen times in a row. In another photo thereís a violet glowing light illuminating the entire left side of the photo. Another time a ďspiritĒ said I could ask a question. So I started my voice recorder app and asked a question. I heard nothing with my ears, but when playing the recording I clearly hear a voice saying before I asked the question ďWhatís the question?Ē Then I hear me asking the question. After that I clearly hear a voice answering the question. Thatís crazy! Iíve always attracted high strangeness. One time while at my parents house (they were at the store) for no reason I made the well known 5 knock pattern, on the bookshelf, paused and was then going to do the following 2 knocks, but to my shock someone in the attic made the final two knocks. I tried it again, and it repeated the final two knocks. I heard my parents driving up, so I ran to the door yelling for them to come here. My dad comes running in the house. I tell him listen!! I knocked on the wall and listened. We heard the knocks reply in the attic, but they were soft. I quickly asked him if he heard that. He said yes. My mom entered the house. I knocked again but the return knocks were very faint. My Dad and I checked the attic, but nobody was there.

Some people might think Iím just being played with by bad spirits. That could explain most of the experiences. I guess itís possible theyíre bad spirits, but that doesnít explain just how weird reality can be, not only for me but for a lot of people who also attract high strangeness like myself. Trust me, Iíve spent far too many years going down that path thinking they were bad spirits or demons. I knew a lot of christians. They talked me through all kinds of prayers. They prayed for me time after time. There was a period in my life kneeled by my bed and prayed to Jesus and God for months, but the high strangeness didnít leave. I also wore crosses around my neck and other stuff.

Anyhow thatís a short intro to my strange belief. If thereís someone out there, a person of knowledge who can help me, then please reply or perhaps better yet send me a private message. Anyone!
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The Central Intelligence Reading Room has some intel about lucid dreams. Maybe something there will help you?

Anomalous Cognition in Lucid Dreams
https://www.cia.gov/library/readingr...00140001-2.pdf
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Hey stahr
Strangeness is all around us, many people just arenít perceptive to it.
I, and maybe you too, have been actively searching for it, especially since my teens when something unexplainable happened to me.
I love the strange, even though itís scary sometimes, it has the taste of truth on its lips, and thatís exciting.
It can make you feel crazy though...
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Wow is that an actual CIA website? I'm too afraid to go there haha. I've had zillions of lucid dreams. Like many people I used to call them astral projections but eventually learned it's not what I thought, and then I learned that even this reality here isn't what I thought lol. But I'm surprised lucid dreaming / astral projection isn't as popular as it should be. Probably because of fear. People fear the unknown and what's foreign to them and their culture. In that reality you can be a superhero. Talk to Albert Einstein, Jesus, Buddha, ETs, fairies, Bigfoots, anyone. You can fly to other galaxies, other realms. You can also be just as physical as this reality here. One time while running I fell and scraped my knee. Yes it hurt like hell! In a dream. Although usually it's difficult to run in my "dreams" because I just feel like a balloon, but sometimes it happens where I'll be heavy. It's definitely a learned skilled. I'd say that at least 1/3rd the time while in a lucid dream I've been at least as conscious, aware, and cognitive as I am now. Sometimes even more.

ReptileInYourHead, yes the strange is awesome. It boggles my mind why so few people haven't realized what's happening. I love watching videos of people going to the forest because it's a lot easier for people to manifest high strangeness. Fear can be a powerful tool. If you want to see Bigfoot, then it merely takes time. Go to the forest a lot searching for the bigfoot. It will happen. People will manifest it. Werewolves, witches, whatever one believes in. The more you believe in it the better the chances of manifesting it. Even on photos and video. Ghost hunting is the same thing. A lot of people who've been ghost hunting know very well that it's something that builds up over time, and they also know that certain people are like a catalyst. There's nothing worse than bring a bunch of doubting skeptical scientists to a ghost hunt. LOL. If you want to see ghosts, like really vivid and clear, then bring people who've been ghost hunting for a long time who have seen plenty of ghosts.

A good example of Bigfoots is Barbara Shupe's channel on youtube. Barb is in her mid-life, perhaps in the 60s. I've been watching her videos taken in the Washington forest for years and can tell you she definitely gives me a strong sense of honesty and sincerity. She's with a group of people, typically in mid to elderly of age, who go Bigfoot hunting almost every day. They've had countless encounters with Bigfoots, some on footage. The following video footage is the most interesting one I've ever seen because it helps understand the nature of reality. Barb and a group of people saw a Bigfoot relatively close in front of them. They describe the Bigfoot, black fur, said the Bigfoot quickly ran away. The interesting part is that while viewing the video the Bigfoot appears just like the alien in the move Predator. You know, that semi cloaking look. Some youtubers have posted close up analysis of the video. It's amazing and definitely a significant disturbance in the video. I would highly recommend truth seekers watch all of Barb & Gabby videos. That group of people are more on the spiritual side-- Meditating, spirits, etc. So it's no surprise that the kind of Bigfoots they've manifested are the more spiritual Bigfoots.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TE-ijkfY9po

Barbara Shupe channel. She has a lot of videos. Most of them don't have anything special in them except it's nice seeing the Washington rainforest, Gabby (her dog), and her friends. Some of her videos are just amazing where at least one person will describe what they just saw. Some of the experiences are out of this world amazing. Far more than just Bigfoot sightings. I wish someone would make a youtube playlist of just her videos of encounters.
https://www.youtube.com/user/Barbshupe1964/videos

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Correction. I meant to say Barb looks like she's in her 50s. Sorry Barb, if you ever read this.
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Ive noticed the appearing/disappearing ground stuff. I used to have cigs removed from the box (in my pocket). Id always end up with 12 but i only smoked 2.

I think evil spirits and demons do these things and if youve heard of mandela effect. Time/dimensions are acting wierd. Plus the machine is stupid so.
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Exactly! Welcome to real lucid dream existence. A reality where you create your dreams ... or nightmares. Evidently I haven't caught on to the dream part but sure have mastered the nightmares.
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