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Default Jul 05, 2018 at 07:47 PM
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I would rather do anything than have nothing to do.
Same. But what I'm talking about is different. When my coworker and I finish our work, we listen to music, play video games and wait for calls on the radio to fix something. We can't go home but at least we don't have to pretend we're doing something. I listen to podcasts when I'm alone after doing my job and I do it efficiently while taking my time. When everyone else in other positions at the same job finish their work, they go home.

Machines are making work faster but people are still working the same amount of hours.

A way that my step dad psychologically messed with me was by making me do meaningless tasks all day for him. He stole things from work to make extra pennies. Told me to not flush the toilets to make extra money on water. It was madness. I don't know why I obeyed some foreign "family member" intruder. I was told to not think how I want to think. Now I have a strong conviction about pretending to be busy.

A job I had in the past was the same thing and I've had enough. But my new job is more logical and not complete insanity.

I think I'm ok mentally. The world is out of touch with reality. That's what I think. Or it could be the meds talking. Idk.
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It's beating 24bpm less now. I think I had a morning anxiety attack or something. I was freaking out..
That's really low man. average is 60-100 for men. Mine probably averages 80bpm. I think you should get a physical and get your heart checked out brother. I'm worried about you.
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starting to get worn out working full time but oh well gotta be an adult
I feel you. My boss likes to take advantage of us and have us work 10 hour days. He just needs to hire more people, not run his employees into the ground. I can't miss anymore days either. Me and him got loud, it was weird because his mother was there. It was in front of everybody.

I'm dreading next week, because we're going to have to work in 90f weather. I will drive myself to the job site though, im not working 10 hour days in 90f weather. **** that.
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Default Jul 05, 2018 at 08:34 PM
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The worst jobs are when you have to pretend that you're doing something when you finish all of your work.

That's complete absolute hell for me.
Can you listen to headphones so your mind stays active? I never have that problem of not to find anything to do but I understand it must feel like the clock doesn't move at all.
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That's really low man. average is 60-100 for men. Mine probably averages 80bpm. I think you should get a physical and get your heart checked out brother. I'm worried about you.
No it was 126bpm then 102bpm so 24bpm less than 126bpm lol

But still kind of weird..

Maybe it's something but maybe I have anxiety without insight to what the anxiety is about. That's what an anxiety attack is. A panic attack means you know what is triggering it.

That's my understanding of it.

My heart beat right now is 90bpm and has been like that all day except this morning.
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Can you listen to headphones so your mind stays active? I never have that problem of not to find anything to do but I understand it must feel like the clock doesn't move at all.
Yeah but not in my old jobs. I had to listen to the same 40 terrible songs playing on the radio for like 4 years. It drove me completely nuts.

And no one else was bothered by it. In fact they even sang along wtf lol
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Yeah but not in my old jobs. I had to listen to the same 40 terrible songs playing on the radio for like 4 years. It drove me completely nuts.

And no one else was bothered by it. In fact they even sang along wtf lol
My entire painting career started when ipods became a thing. I bought one and I would put audiobooks, Lectures, and music music music on them. Now there are podcasts too. Its amazing now.
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Having one drink of rum and coke while I play guitar while my mom and sister and her friend go to the lake.

I only like one or two drinks a week or so now after my spiritual enlightenment.

I think spirituality is the best for addiction. No nihilism, misanthrope or pessimist philosophy will help with it.

DT is God of philosophy he knows.

But I think it's cool that they let you have a few beers at work @ Trip
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I hope my mom doesn't have an electromagnetic heart attack on the way to the lake.
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Everyones gone to sleep so I leave the TV on to feel.. less alone? Idk.. That's what people do for their pets when they leave the house..
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Good morning. Got up at 6. Feeling pretty good. Have to jump in the shower. My legs are prickly and it’s making me crazy.
Working 1/2 day today. Hopefully my check comes in. I need to buy a couple things.
Other than that nothing going on today. It’s supposed to rain and hopefully cool things off.
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Morning/Afternoon,

Just back from today’s run... 25mins without stopping! 😊 Just 3 more weeks left of C25K.

Will be getting lunch in a little bit and then watching the football when it’s on.

Hope everyone is ok!

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I can’t find my bathing suit. I know I saw it somewhere but I can’t remember where. I really don’t want to buy another one. The one I have is awesome. Holds the girls up.

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Good morning/afternoon everyone. How are things going today?


I'm doing okay. A little tired. Had my counseling appointment with my new counselor at the psychosis polyclinic. I like her. She is working on helping me to better work with voices and other stuff that's happened this last week and in months past. She doesn't see meds and stamping out symptoms as the end all and be all. I really appreciate that from her and hope to learn better ways to work with them. She is coming to have an appointment with me next Friday at my apartment.


Then went to Kela to deal with my sick leave situation. Got that taken care of.


What's everyone up to?
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dyeing the underside of my hair today

letting the bleach set right now

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Done with work. My son is working on his bike in a very bad mood. My daughter is still sleeping. I’m bored out of my mind. I really hope my check comes in. Smoking helps to pass the time. It’s usually here by now but the mailman is late.

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Morning

Had coffee and cereal for breakfast

Not doing anything today

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