Roll Call 131

ofthevalley · Aug 11, 2018 at 01:21 PM

Woohoo. Got my aeorewards statement and I “earned” a free pair of jeans! I’m buying them for myself my son has enough. I’m actually going to buy a size that fits right and it’s going to be brand new! I usually buy my jeans at the thrift store. They are way too expensive. But these will be new! And I’m choosing the $90 pair lol.

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 11, 2018 at 02:46 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Im just wondering where sp is.

Was out troll hunting.....

newtus · Aug 11, 2018 at 02:48 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Was out troll hunting.....

Haha

how was that?

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 11, 2018 at 02:52 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Haha

how was that?

Fun, couple of pics on Facebook....then we went for Mexican for lunch

newtus · Aug 11, 2018 at 03:08 PM

Im bored

Desoxyn · Aug 11, 2018 at 03:09 PM

I was walking across the road and someone in a truck kept driving but I kept walking then he beeped and I gave him the middle finger :/

Now I work..

junkDNA · Aug 11, 2018 at 03:17 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Im just wondering where sp is.

she said she was going to go see the trolls again.

cogladaid · Aug 11, 2018 at 03:21 PM

I’m watching a three hour epic movie starring Yul Brenner and William Shatner. Not much else happening.

newtus · Aug 11, 2018 at 03:21 PM

I never watch tv and i watched Applachian Outlawz for maybe 2 hours.

Aug 11, 2018 at 03:55 PM

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Originally Posted by Loial

I’m just reading about that guy who stole a plane for presumably joy riding in Seattle then crashed it and died. It’s crazy. Especially the conversations he was having with ATC. Like saying he was going to do barrel rolls and “call it a day” or wondering whether he’d get a job at the airlines if he landed successfully. Apparently he also said he thought he could land it because he had “played some video games”.

The guy seeme mentally ill to me.

newtus · Aug 11, 2018 at 03:58 PM

Throwing up.

I had 1 beer and some ramen today.

Idk why im sick. My stomach just started hurting a tiny bit and i felt nauseous.

newtus · Aug 11, 2018 at 03:59 PM

Maybe the tea i drank was old or something idk.

Seems to be no reason i should be throwing up

Aug 11, 2018 at 04:06 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Where is everyone

Oh i enjoyed 3 tall beers starting at 2pm. It's almost 5 and I'm just hanging out at the cafe drinking an Ice green tea with a scone. When I go home I'll have some left over pizza. In faust, i finally got to act 3 of part 2. I wish I could zoom faster through this. I have a lot of books to get to now that my books have arrived!

I'm going to start to listen to my old lectures the following 2 weeks as I wor the rush from 9am to 8pm.

To prepare for my work rush, i went to GNC and replenished my Protein powder and vitamins, and I paid my phone bill. Then I will go grocery shopping for snacks, beer, diet sprite, gatorade, and some dinner stuff to save money.

On a sad note, i can tell that my roommate entered my room and mpved my trash can to get into my closet. She was probably hoping to get to my work tools for some end, but they are in my car. I'll have to see what she was looking for. I've went into her room to get to her bathroom to use her toilet scrubber before, i ended up breaking it though lol. She was happy that I did that so her neice and nephew could use my bathroom, which is in the fall, closer to the spare bedroom. I just feel kind of mortified because I haven't had the will to clean my room in some time.

Also, my ex girlfriend went on a trip with a guy and declared, "I realized that there are still good guys out there, i finally met one!" That was kind of a slap in the face to me I felt. My sister, friend, and Neice friended her on facebook so they'll see that. :-/ I remember me trying to break up with her telling her, "We're both good people, we're just not compatible." And she would go crazy on me, yelling, going through phone, my computer, and... She is the most high maintenance woman i know, very insecure, and wants control of everything, even her love's thoughts.

Dating her was like having a blender mince the mind.

newtus · Aug 11, 2018 at 04:26 PM

I feel dizzy and nauseous again

Findingreason · Aug 11, 2018 at 04:31 PM

Good evening/afternoon everyone, how are things going?

I'm okay I guess. My other partner visited today, which was nice.

She went home about 30 minutes ago. Otherwise my partner from US has been getting things squared away for the coming months.

There was some bad news though that came in the form of email from a doctor at TAYS regarding my treatment.

Possible trigger:

My gender reassignment surgery is postponed indefinitely due to my SZ Dx. She said it isn't a complete bar from it, but that I'd need to be stable for an unspecified number of years before it would be even considered.

In the meantime I am contacting advocacy organizations in Finland that advocate for transgender people. Also seeing what ever happened with the NCP's (National Coalition Party) event in June regarding transgender healthcare laws. It could change everything. I hope that the NCP comes through. They're the tipping point in either direction in the country regarding care for transgender people.

I feel like life is always against me. To fight for my well being and mental health. Got barred from proper treatment for symptoms cause of BPD, then got the proper treatment for my voices, delusional thinking, hallucinations. I'm so much better since getting proper help and a good medication combination and proper therapy. But now that presents a massive bar towards my health regarding my body dysphoria. It's just....life is always a fight for me. It always has been and I suspect it always will be.

Erti · Aug 11, 2018 at 05:16 PM

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Originally Posted by Findingreason

Good evening/afternoon everyone, how are things going?

I'm okay I guess. My other partner visited today, which was nice.

She went home about 30 minutes ago. Otherwise my partner from US has been getting things squared away for the coming months.

There was some bad news though that came in the form of email from a doctor at TAYS regarding my treatment.

Possible trigger:

My gender reassignment surgery is postponed indefinitely due to my SZ Dx. She said it isn't a complete bar from it, but that I'd need to be stable for an unspecified number of years before it would be even considered.

In the meantime I am contacting advocacy organizations in Finland that advocate for transgender people. Also seeing what ever happened with the NCP's (National Coalition Party) event in June regarding transgender healthcare laws. It could change everything. I hope that the NCP comes through. They're the tipping point in either direction in the country regarding care for transgender people.

I feel like life is always against me. To fight for my well being and mental health. Got barred from proper treatment for symptoms cause of BPD, then got the proper treatment for my voices, delusional thinking, hallucinations. I'm so much better since getting proper help and a good medication combination and proper therapy. But now that presents a massive bar towards my health regarding my body dysphoria. It's just....life is always a fight for me. It always has been and I suspect it always will be.

What does schizophrenia have to do with wanting gender reassignment surgery? I call bs on that. Totally ********

newtus · Aug 11, 2018 at 05:19 PM

I think im ok now. I ate some toast.

My sister is concerned i could be diabetic

Findingreason · Aug 11, 2018 at 05:20 PM

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Originally Posted by Erti

What does schizophrenia have to do with wanting gender reassignment surgery? I call bs on that. Totally ********

IKR? They say they want several years stability, and trying to ask for that is like holding a jumping pole 10 feet up and expecting you to clear it easily. Not just SZ but everything else, my whole life has been rife with mental illness. It's a chronic problem for me. And for me to be barred from something that's not even my fault, but a symptom of my brain's chemistry? That's downright gatekeeping and discriminatory in my mind.

Erti · Aug 11, 2018 at 05:37 PM

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Originally Posted by Findingreason

IKR? They say they want several years stability, and trying to ask for that is like holding a jumping pole 10 feet up and expecting you to clear it easily. Not just SZ but everything else, my whole life has been rife with mental illness. It's a chronic problem for me. And for me to be barred from something that's not even my fault, but a symptom of my brain's chemistry? That's downright gatekeeping and discriminatory in my mind.

I would totally switch bodies with you if it was ever possible. I don't care about having a male or female body.

newtus · Aug 11, 2018 at 06:07 PM

How is everyone tonight? What are yall up to?

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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Aug 11, 2018 at 03:08 PM #45 Im bored __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,986 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Aug 11, 2018 at 03:09 PM #46 I was walking across the road and someone in a truck kept driving but I kept walking then he beeped and I gave him the middle finger :/ Now I work..

cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Aug 11, 2018 at 03:21 PM #48 I’m watching a three hour epic movie starring Yul Brenner and William Shatner. Not much else happening.

newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Aug 11, 2018 at 03:21 PM #49 I never watch tv and i watched Applachian Outlawz for maybe 2 hours. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Aug 11, 2018 at 03:58 PM #51 Throwing up. I had 1 beer and some ramen today. Idk why im sick. My stomach just started hurting a tiny bit and i felt nauseous. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Aug 11, 2018 at 03:59 PM #52 Maybe the tea i drank was old or something idk. Seems to be no reason i should be throwing up __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Aug 11, 2018 at 04:26 PM #54 I feel dizzy and nauseous again __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Aug 11, 2018 at 05:19 PM #57 I think im ok now. I ate some toast. My sister is concerned i could be diabetic __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Aug 11, 2018 at 06:07 PM #60 How is everyone tonight? What are yall up to? __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII