Question.

Hi there,

I put my thread in this catorgory but I know this is not the case but I know people will automatically say it is a psychosis problem. But I put it here so I can get advice from other people who are in the same situation as me & has ways to prove I am not psychotic.

So for the last few months I have felt & believed very strongly that I am not the normal person. I feel like I have special powers & I can make things happen & also I can’t be harmed as I am unique. Some examples- whilst preparing for our car MOT my husband showed me a video of a car with illegal & legal tyres & he told me what happens when you do a emergency stop with the tyres & I believe myself that if I had illegal tyres I wouldn’t have an accident & I would stop just as well as a car with legal tyres I believe I am special & different & that illegal tyres won’t cause me a accident like it would to a regular person.

I have powers which means I can think of something & I have the powers to make it happen- all my past hospital appts have been pointless & my husband said at my last appointment this will be the same & I said in my head that today will be different appt will be different & I said in my head the appt will be a positive & helpful appt for the first time & my powers made it come true. So if someone says something if I think the opposite to what they said then the (opposite) happens if I agree with that someone then the opposite doesn’t happen.

You see pictures of the weather being bad & then trees falling down on houses, cars & killing people. I know cos I can feel it in my bones that is how much I am sure it is the truth, that is a large tree landed on me, it wouldn’t kill me, I wouldn’t be hurt. Why you ask? Cos I am special. I wasn’t born a real human, I was a baby who was born with special powers & a protective body that I wouldn’t die. The amount of times my consultant has said with my severe physical health that they don’t know how I am still alive with my condition & how I get through bad infections, I know it’s cos I am not the normal baby/human. I was born differently & put into this world as a special & one of person who is not a whole human but something else! I not sure what but I am not the usual normal human.

I am not the normal human.

I went to the seaside this week & on the journey there I had a video in my head of something dreadful happening & then the day after i saw on the news about a car driving into the a restaurant. My super powers made this happen.

Anything I think, my special powers make it happen. If someone said something to me & I thought the opposite then the opposite would happen but if I agreed with that person it would come true.

So in my life, I have some control over my powers so if I want something to happen then I think the opposite to what I want & then it happens, if I think what I want to happen then it doesn’t happen.

So my point of my point is I haven’t told anyone cos I know they will automatically think I am having another psychotic episode & I am 100% not. This is really happening, this is really true, I can feel it 100% in my bones, I know 100% I am not a regular person & I was born with special powers, a bit like Matilda the movie. So cos I am so worried that if I tell someone they are gonna say your are psychotic & that is not the case, I haven’t told anyone. I have a really good therapist & we have a brilliant relationship & I want to tell her this cos I don’t want to hide it anymore but I am worried she is gonna say it’s not real, you might think it’s real but it isn’t blah blah & then say I am psychotic & then increase my meds or tell a psychiatrist or whatever. But I can’t emphasise how truth this is & is really happening & it is not psychosis at all. But cos I have had a psychotic episode in my life they’re gonna say I am psychotic again.

So I wanted to ask how can I tell my therapist about my special powers without her thinking I am psychotic? How can I get her to believe me when I tell her I am not psychotic & that I am just half human, half something else & I was born with special powers & protective body so I won’t ever be harmed in situations that a regular person would?

Any advice please?

Try to read about Grandiose Delusion and see whether you can relate or not

Watch the movie:
The Men Who Stare At Goats

Hi, I just looked this up & I can swear on my life I am not psychotic or having delusions. This is the absolute truth on what is happening what I wrote above.

Can I ask what the film is about please?