Roll Call 139

your eyes make you look asian and seriously... asian girls are the hottest

I'm neither of my parents favorite. however, i was favored by my grandmother and my uncle tim who had recently passed away. Both are passed away so i'm nobodies favorite.

I've never heard that before haha weird since I'm Italian and Irish

my sisters italian... but she doesn't look asian. she beautiful tho. my ex had dark brown eyes. he's Puerto Rican and his eyes are so dark you cant tell if he has pupils. I"m like my mom. i prefer the darker colors but still love the striking blue eyes of some people. i see beauty in all eye colors.

i'm irish, british, french, and german. of course i get the lighter features ha.

me right now. tried to get a good picture of my eyes but my camera sucks

You definitely have green eyes, they're very pretty

thanks

I guess it's time to start on this assignment then put my Christmas tree up

someone thiought I was Brazilian
I get that all the time, though Brazilian, dominican, ,mexican

ive never been mistaken for my race. i'm a white girl.

most people can tell i am at least half black,
very rarely do people get my ethnicty right though

newtus is half black half mexican. when i first saw a picture of her i thought she was black completely if not have some white in her but nope... mexican

2/3rds of the assignment done

i have suspensions that i may have asd. how important is it to know as an adult?

Got the tree up

usually we don't put up a tree until after december 1st. Christmas too early makes me bitter.

I have never put it up before Thanksgiving before but I just felt like it would make me happy

My mom said that I did punding when I was a baby because I wouldn't eat. I would chew my food and then line them up on the baby table in a straight line but that's because I choked on a quarter and it hurt to swallow food for 2 years after that.

But my mom insists that I have ASD because I'm "So intelligent". I told her to never say that again because I understand social cues better than most "Normal" people such as sarcasm, etc.. She thinks she can treat me differently like a little kid when she talks about it and that pisses me off. She just sees me as "special" to her. Both my mom and dad said that I'm their favourite (I'm the middle child) although my dad says he loves my little sister more a little more than me because she's his little girl lol..

I hate drawing attention to myself. I like being ignored so I can figure things out for myself.

I have yet to come out as queer but then that's all people will think about like my gay brother. People use that label for an excuse in everything he does.

I hate labels so much. I found it hard enough to accept a diagnosis of schizophrenia and now my mom is saying ASD. If she says that once more, I might as well believe her and stop my invega injection so I can do psychedelics.

And yes, if you have ASD as an adult, it just depends on how severe it is. I mean, everyone is on the spectrum of any mental disorder. We're all tripping naturally on our hallucinating brains and everyone is literally crazy. People smoke cigarettes that they know it has a high chance that it will give them cancer but they can quit.. people have strong interests in one thing and make a career out of it (For me it happens to be drugs! Yay!) but so many things... Some people go to school for something they hate, some people don't find what truly makes them happy until they are 50 years old, finding a better passion and waste their time on previous things...

Most importantly, people change. I wasn't the same as I was when I was a kid (Extremely good at math) because my brain has switched from left brain to right brain.. I'm worse at math and better at creative writing..

I seem to have anxiety now when I didn't before. Everything is a puzzle and it's all made up of symptoms created by the DSM-5 or 6 or whatever these old white men agreed on.

Labels everywhere! We can't hide from them! Liberal, conservative, religious labels leading to death of the label holder.

Labels are insanity really...

Everything. Love, hate and finding meaning in EVERYTHING is the universe trying to explain itself. It will go on forever. Forever has an ending. Which is the beginning.

Am I insane for thinking this? Not in the near future.. In the near future, everyone will be thinking this way.. then the aliens will be done watching us advance and eventually come to visit..

Thinking outside the box is what real sanity is. But to the outsiders, that means the opposite..

I created my own religion. It would have been much more advanced without meds.

But what does everything all mean? Because I get my injection tomorrow? Idk.. idk..

I hope cigarettes don't kill me