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Blue_Bird · Jan 06, 2019 at 06:14 PM

Random post but sometimes life is too stimulating for me. Anyone know what I mean? Sometimes things are just too complex and I have to take a step back and simplify. It's not that I'm not intelligent or anything it's just I get revved up so easily sometimes I just need to sit down with some tea and look through pictures and art. just anything simple. joke books. etc. Sometimes it's like.. my brain overheats or something and feels like it will explode and needs a rest

Blue_Bird · Jan 06, 2019 at 06:15 PM

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Originally Posted by falcon09

Feeling very off. Detached from reality, like the world is a dream. Also noticing some delusional thoughts - like I'm being monitored by the FBI, my thoughts are being tracked, etc - but I'm able to notice they're a delusion and not real.

I'm taking my meds like I'm supposed to yet I'm very worried about relapse.

Does this sound like the beginning of one?

Your meds were just increased right? It's good that you can recognize that they're delusional thoughts

falcon09 · Jan 06, 2019 at 06:17 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

You're meds were just increased right? It's good that you can recognize that they're delusional thoughts

Yeah just increased to 160mg.

It feels like my brain is fighting against itself. Part of my brain saying that my delusions are real, part of my brain saying they're fake.

falcon09 · Jan 06, 2019 at 06:18 PM

Also I'm watching psych hospital documentaries which is not the best idea when I'm not psychiatrically stable lol

ofthevalley · Jan 06, 2019 at 06:29 PM

Finally took my decorations off the tree. I have to pack them away still but at least the tree can go out. I was super lazy about it this year. Just didn’t want the holidays to end.
I’m kind of having a difficult time. I feel incredibly useless. Like I need to do something worthwhile with my life.
I used to volunteer at the women’s shelter but my anxiety is too high for that now.
Then there’s the shelter...which I love. But I just can’t follow through on the commitment they need.
For so long I was just mom...constantly needed. Now they are self sufficient and don’t need to be coddled anymore. It’s a strange, humbling, kind of unsettling feeling. Like if I disappeared tomorrow it really wouldn’t be a big deal. Everyone and everything would just continue on without me. As it should obviously but...well you know what I mean. My family would miss me but the rest of the world would remain untouched. In the grand scheme of things I guess were pretty insignificant.
I remember wondering why the world outside of my bubble didn’t stop when my parents died.

newtus · Jan 06, 2019 at 06:42 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Random post but sometimes life is too stimulating for me. Anyone know what I mean? Sometimes things are just too complex and I have to take a step back and simplify. It's not that I'm not intelligent or anything it's just I get revved up so easily sometimes I just need to sit down with some tea and look through pictures and art. just anything simple. joke books. etc. Sometimes it's like.. my brain overheats or something and feels like it will explode and needs a rest

I know what u mean. Its like that a lot for me now after my major episode happened back 4 years ago.

newtus · Jan 06, 2019 at 06:43 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Random post but sometimes life is too stimulating for me. Anyone know what I mean? Sometimes things are just too complex and I have to take a step back and simplify. It's not that I'm not intelligent or anything it's just I get revved up so easily sometimes I just need to sit down with some tea and look through pictures and art. just anything simple. joke books. etc. Sometimes it's like.. my brain overheats or something and feels like it will explode and needs a rest

I work now. But need like 2-3 days off between a long string of working. Thank goodness i work on my own schedule or idk what id do.

falcon09 · Jan 06, 2019 at 07:14 PM

My thoughts are slowing down after I took my meds.

cogladaid · Jan 06, 2019 at 08:41 PM

Merry Christmas Eve! Ate a lot of seafood at the boil place. Delicious! Also had a strawberry milkshake earlier today mwahahha.

Desoxyn · Jan 06, 2019 at 10:04 PM

Slept all night and all day..

Edit: My mood is low. But I feel grounded.

ofthevalley · Jan 07, 2019 at 06:31 AM

Happy Monday ugh

Slept okay...could have used a couple more hours.
Working for a few hours today then I have my acupuncture appt. of course I haven’t thrown up in 3 days so I don’t know how I’ll know if it’s working lol

junkDNA · Jan 07, 2019 at 06:53 AM

I see my therapist todayyy

Blue_Bird · Jan 07, 2019 at 07:27 AM

Good morning

junkDNA · Jan 07, 2019 at 09:01 AM

my therapist just came in the store... we said hi

falcon09 · Jan 07, 2019 at 09:10 AM

Good morning

newtus · Jan 07, 2019 at 09:53 AM

Morning

Had coffee

Awake now

Going to see my pdoc today

Loial · Jan 07, 2019 at 10:51 AM

Morning/Afternoon,

My day has been good so far. Didn’t get up until midday but that’s ok. I’ll aim to get up earlier tomorrow.

I started a new exercise regime today. It’s high intensity interval training - so like doing an exercise as hard as you can then taking a break and repeating it a few times. My initial plan sort of failed because I put in exercises that were too hard but I substituted them for easier ones and got it done. Pretty intense but feels good.

ofthevalley · Jan 07, 2019 at 11:14 AM

Ummm...holy crap!
I just looked up math tutors for my daughter and it averages $50/hour!
If anyone is smart and looking for a side gig maybe tutoring is where it’s at.

newtus · Jan 07, 2019 at 11:16 AM

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Ummm...holy crap!
I just looked up math tutors for my daughter and it averages $50/hour!
If anyone is smart and looking for a side gig maybe tutoring is where it’s at.

Sp should look into that forreal

ofthevalley · Jan 07, 2019 at 11:21 AM

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Sp should look into that forreal

She could probably get more being near the city and with a higher level of learning.
$50/hr for a 7th grade math tutor.

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falcon09 Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2015 Location: United States Posts: 3,018 9 1,867 hugs given	Jan 06, 2019 at 06:18 PM #964 Also I'm watching psych hospital documentaries which is not the best idea when I'm not psychiatrically stable lol

falcon09 Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2015 Location: United States Posts: 3,018 9 1,867 hugs given	Jan 06, 2019 at 07:14 PM #968 My thoughts are slowing down after I took my meds.

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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,986 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Jan 06, 2019 at 10:04 PM #970 Slept all night and all day.. Edit: My mood is low. But I feel grounded.

ofthevalley Legendary Member Since Feb 2015 Location: USA Posts: 11,326 (SuperPoster!) 9 499 hugs given	Jan 07, 2019 at 06:31 AM #971 Happy Monday ugh Slept okay...could have used a couple more hours. Working for a few hours today then I have my acupuncture appt. of course I haven’t thrown up in 3 days so I don’t know how I’ll know if it’s working lol __________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety

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ofthevalley Legendary Member Since Feb 2015 Location: USA Posts: 11,326 (SuperPoster!) 9 499 hugs given	Jan 07, 2019 at 11:14 AM #978 Ummm...holy crap! I just looked up math tutors for my daughter and it averages $50/hour! If anyone is smart and looking for a side gig maybe tutoring is where it’s at. __________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety