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Default Jan 13, 2019 at 11:52 PM
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So I heard this one voice for like two years and was convinced he was Jesus, but one day he told me his name was Phil. I pick up fick off the ground and am convinced it is uranium but I throw it away and try not to worry about it. I have this other voice that has been going on but I’m too afraid to say who I think he is. I can do normal stuff and stuff, at least I think I do. I’m too terrified to drive except I drive just fine, I’m just paranoid I’ll get in a crash until I actually get behind the wheel. No one seems to notice I’m any different because I don’t say what I think or believe since I’m so paranoid; at most they’d think I’m joking which actually helps me learn to be a little comedic sometimes. I had a substance abuse issue that I guess I can say I conquered, at least up til now. I constantly have a live chaotic connection to this one particular voice, though I hear many. Hallucinations of the visual sort are rare but today they were common. I have freaking spasms that are so annoying but I always forget to tell the doctor, but I’d hate to have to take more medicine that doesn’t work. So, voices. They hardly ever command me to do anything, and when they do, sometimes I do it and other times I don’t. I lost all my friends but not my family. Only because time went by and we never contacted each other any more and we got older. So I guess I have schizophrenia. Like it’s hard for me to believe until I remember I’m actively hearing voices practically all the time, mostly voices of real people I’ve met along the way. Anyone relate? I wasn’t born with it, probably my substance abuse caused it or contributed to it. I’d love to hear the absence of voices again but am prepared to live with them. I have only told some of my family I have schizophrenia, and no friends. Hope this can help someone some and not just me. Yes I have been taken to the emergency room for an episode, and I had to make sure they knew I wasn’t the pharaoh when they carried me on a stretcher. Sure, I’m normal-seeming on the outside 98% of the time, but that’s not 100%, there have been screw-ups. Maybe no one will read this or maybe it will become a popular thread, but it’s all true, every word.
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Hello Schizo2: Thank you for sharing your experiences here on PC. I see this is your first post. So... welcome to Psych Central. I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

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