Roll Call 143

Angelique67 · Feb 09, 2019 at 12:53 PM

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Originally Posted by Loial

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I think my anxiety last night was heightened due to alcohol withdrawal... I was still feeling a bit off anxiety wise this morning and have ended up having some beer to curb that. It disappeared instantly. I’m going to see my GP on Monday and see about getting professional help. I think I might need medication to help. Oh well.

I used to suffer so much from hangovers when I was a binge drinker. I'd have up to two or three days of the worst anxiety I've ever had. So, I understand.. I don't think I ever used "hair of the dog" though. I felt too destroyed by the drink to have more. I hope you'll feel better asap.

newtus · Feb 09, 2019 at 12:56 PM

Omg my mom put money in my account

Im scared to call her or answer her now.

dancinglady · Feb 09, 2019 at 01:31 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

I don't have any idea what I'm going to do, try to get out, or just stay here? My friend thinks I should stay. I want to get out and live somewhere without stairs, or with a good elevator. Oh damn, the nurse just brought my meds but took away the juice she was going to give me. I feel like crap. But if I live somewhere that I can get out of, I could take a walk or bike ride every day and hopefully not have anymore psychotic breaks.

This post won't let me edit.

What does your guardian say? Will the court allow you to change residences?
What does your doctor think?
I hope the best for you. You have lived there for 2 years now right. I think the longer you stay the harder it will be to leave.

Angelique67 · Feb 09, 2019 at 01:55 PM

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Originally Posted by dancinglady

What does your guardian say? Will the court allow you to change residences?

What does your doctor think?

I hope the best for you. You have lived there for 2 years now right. I think the longer you stay the harder it will be to leave.

I don't know any of those answers. I don't know what to do.

Loial · Feb 09, 2019 at 02:01 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

I used to suffer so much from hangovers when I was a binge drinker. I'd have up to two or three days of the worst anxiety I've ever had. So, I understand.. I don't think I ever used "hair of the dog" though. I felt too destroyed by the drink to have more. I hope you'll feel better asap.

Thanks

I’m not prone to hangovers these days. Certainly not in the traditional sense I was used to.

It’s more the combined effect and withdrawals creeping up. It’s increased gradually over the months.

I think I’m just in a delicate place right now, having come off olanzapine and dealing with large alcohol consumption. It’s becoming too much.

Fuzzybear · Feb 09, 2019 at 02:45 PM

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Originally Posted by Erti

what's up?

Thanks Erti

It was a rough night

Erti · Feb 09, 2019 at 02:53 PM

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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Thanks Erti

It was a rough night

you and me both. at least we're here for each other. if you need to talk feel free to pm me anytime.

Feb 09, 2019 at 03:17 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Omg my mom put money in my account

Im scared to call her or answer her now.

Just text her, "I appreciate you helping me out. It means a lot." And leave it at that.

ofthevalley · Feb 09, 2019 at 03:28 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Omg my mom put money in my account

Im scared to call her or answer her now.

Must be the day for it.

I just made deposits to my nephews accounts.
FWIW I won’t even tell them it was me. I do it because I want them to be okay. No thanks required.

ofthevalley · Feb 09, 2019 at 03:29 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

I don't know any of those answers. I don't know what to do.

This is a pretty big decision so I understand why you’re confused.

Feb 09, 2019 at 03:30 PM

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Originally Posted by Loial

Thanks

I’m not prone to hangovers these days. Certainly not in the traditional sense I was used to.

It’s more the combined effect and withdrawals creeping up. It’s increased gradually over the months.

I think I’m just in a delicate place right now, having come off olanzapine and dealing with large alcohol consumption. It’s becoming too much.

Are you drinking to self-medicate? I drink to relieve my flat affect so that I can actually feel something. Is it specifically to stop anxiety or is it compounded for some other reason? How much on average do you drink?
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What helps me is that I stay completely away from Liquor because it's such a slippery slop. Double shots take 3 second to drink while a beer will take me ten minutes. in the past 3 1/2 hours I have drank 4 beers. Since nothing is Euphoric or pleasant, I tend to drink to feel merely pleasant. Euphoria hasn't been felt longer than I my memory can recall.

I totally get it though. I would drink 2 beers a month until this wicked illness arised.

Angelique67 · Feb 09, 2019 at 06:11 PM

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Originally Posted by Loial

Thanks

I’m not prone to hangovers these days. Certainly not in the traditional sense I was used to.

It’s more the combined effect and withdrawals creeping up. It’s increased gradually over the months.

I think I’m just in a delicate place right now, having come off olanzapine and dealing with large alcohol consumption. It’s becoming too much.

There's nothing wrong with needing help. Or asking for help. Have you told your pdoc about it? Or your regular doc?

Angelique67 · Feb 09, 2019 at 06:17 PM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

This is a pretty big decision so I understand why you’re confused.

Yes. If it were my decision and responsibility I'd do my best to leave. But it's not only up to me, my friend has been paying for my support all the years up until I landed here. I can't just take that for granted.

Loial · Feb 10, 2019 at 08:40 AM

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Originally Posted by Day Tripper

Are you drinking to self-medicate? I drink to relieve my flat affect so that I can actually feel something. Is it specifically to stop anxiety or is it compounded for some other reason? How much on average do you drink?
Trigger quotes added because drinking is not recommended:

Possible trigger:

What helps me is that I stay completely away from Liquor because it's such a slippery slop. Double shots take 3 second to drink while a beer will take me ten minutes. in the past 3 1/2 hours I have drank 4 beers. Since nothing is Euphoric or pleasant, I tend to drink to feel merely pleasant. Euphoria hasn't been felt longer than I my memory can recall.

I totally get it though. I would drink 2 beers a month until this wicked illness arised.

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It’s a complex issue. I started problem drinking after chickenfoot died. And at college I’d often buy a 4 pack of beer after class. I guess I was self medicating in some regards initially over the death and then to relieve anxiety. Now... I just drink because it’s routine and I feel I need it to enjoy myself. The truth is though after a week off I can get into a good routine and manage without but then I always slip up fancying “just a few beers”. Withdrawal is now becoming an issue so for the moment I’m keeping drinking to stave that off until I see my GP.

I drink a lot. Eight 440ml cans a beer a day. Occasionally even 12. I maybe drink for a week or so then have a couple of days off and start again. I don’t usually drink spirits although I have very occasionally. Those are the only times I’ve been sick or blacked out.

I made a thread in the addiction sub forum if you’re interested.

Loial · Feb 10, 2019 at 08:42 AM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

There's nothing wrong with needing help. Or asking for help. Have you told your pdoc about it? Or your regular doc?

My pdoc is aware I’ve had problems. He offered me a referral but I said I wanted to get on top of it by myself. I’ve not really said much about it to him recently but will when I next see him.

I’m going to call my GP on Monday and should get an appointment the same day. That’ll start the ball rolling.

Loial · Feb 10, 2019 at 08:47 AM

Morning/Afternoon,

Been quiet around here overnight! Hope everyone has been having fun.

I’m okay. Just a usual day for me. I’m currently watching Blow. It’s a film about George Jung who was a drug trafficker. Seen it before but not for a few years. It’s good.

ofthevalley · Feb 10, 2019 at 09:10 AM

You are awesome loial. You got this!

Angelique67 · Feb 10, 2019 at 09:53 AM

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Originally Posted by Loial

My pdoc is aware I’ve had problems. He offered me a referral but I said I wanted to get on top of it by myself. I’ve not really said much about it to him recently but will when I next see him.

I’m going to call my GP on Monday and should get an appointment the same day. That’ll start the ball rolling.

That sounds like a good plan. Maybe you can get a referral again.

Angelique67 · Feb 10, 2019 at 09:58 AM

My friend is visiting today. We'll probably go to our brunch cafe. They serve mainly egg dishes. They have quit using plastic straws so I'm thinking of bringing my own but I'm afraid they'll be pissed off. What a stupid thing to worry about.

ofthevalley · Feb 10, 2019 at 10:06 AM

Morning! Drinking coffee.
Bringing my daughter to the mall today. I’m going to run to Target and Yankee while I’m there. Still looking for an oil diffuser. Then I’m going to run to the soap lady for my husband. He’s in love with the goats milk soap.
Other than that just hanging out. Scotty’s coming by for a while.
I’ve decided to pick knitting back up. I haven’t knit since my mom died. Reminds me of her. I’m going to knit myself a wool blanket. I’m currently on the search for the perfect yarn. I’m going to be a jerk and find the colorway I want and have one of my mom friends replicate it. Since it’s wool it will be pricey for the yarn...id rather give that $ to someone I know who needs it.

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Angelique67 Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2014 Location: USA Posts: 22,115 (SuperPoster!) 9	Feb 10, 2019 at 09:58 AM #459 My friend is visiting today. We'll probably go to our brunch cafe. They serve mainly egg dishes. They have quit using plastic straws so I'm thinking of bringing my own but I'm afraid they'll be pissed off. What a stupid thing to worry about.