[Copia]

Hey. Vsauce. Michael here.

Since September last year, I've got memory problems, delusions & alltogether everything that comes with dpdr. Iiiiiii have anxiety. Baad anxiety. And ADHD. And depression as wellllll. I was suicidal now I'm not.

I have a question. I always thought that I am just perfectionist. But it started getting very bad. Worse. I became scared if germs, my fears have doubled and became worse. I keep wondering; why cant I control my breathing for example? I keep getting those thoughts of hurting animals/people. And I feel like I am just about to do it so I walk away. But I don't want to do itt. My mom is about to buy a puppy. We went to look at it. She gave it to me to hold it. That's when my depersonalization hit in again. Then I got these thoughts about those puppies. I genuinely wanted to brutally smash their small heads. I did not really want to its not like I'm a psychopath. I am good person. And I love dogs. I'm not even sociopath. Maybe antisocial. I stayed like on weed till the rest of the day. Is this


OCD?

Or something else?

[Skeezyks]

We here on PC cannot offer mental health diagnoses. Plus I'm not a mental health professional. So I can't tell you whether or not what you're experiencing could be diagnosable as being OCD. For this you would need to see a mental health professional... perhaps a psychologist or a psychiatrist.

However, based on what you wrote, my personal non-professional opinion would be that this does sound like OCD to me. I've struggled with some of these sorts of intrusive thoughts over the years too. And I know how difficult they can be. So if you're not having the opportunity to talk with someone about what you're experiencing, I would encourage you to make arrangements to see someone. Continuing to have these sorts of disturbing thoughts troubling you is a prescription for ongoing unhappiness I fear.

I believe I've replied to at least one of your previous posts. And I usually link members to articles from PC's archives. So if I've already provided you with a link to the article below, please forgive me. However here's a link to an article that talks about OCD & intrusive thoughts:

A Closer Look at Intrusive Thoughts | Overcoming OCD

[SlumberKitty]

IDK what is causing those thoughts. Sometimes I have random thoughts like that too and I do have OCD which at times is worse than other times. It might be OCD but it wouldn't hurt checking in with a professional to make sure. HUGS Kit