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Sometimes psychotic · Mar 03, 2019 at 10:20 PM

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I'm wondering if I may have been possessed or something controlling me at one time during the past 2 weeks. Maybe why that's why I heard a demon or the devil talking to me and my relationship with God over the past several months pretty much disappeared, that would explain a lot......

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That's what it was. Destroying my life from the inside out and I didn't realize it

Idk a lot of people don’t believe in possession....what about psychosis? Why do you think it’s posession over psychosis?

Blue_Bird · Mar 03, 2019 at 10:28 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Idk a lot of people don’t believe in possession....what about psychosis? Why do you think it’s posession over psychosis?

I don't know... I don't generally believe in possession... but I have never heard a demon talking to me before and it was very distinctly different than the things I normally hear.. and It just seems like that would be connected if you put everything together. Over a period of like 5 months stop going to church, stop praying and not even feeling connected to God when I did pray, going from being a straight A student and loving school to barely showing up for class, then dropping a class, then hardly be able to focus to do the work and grades dropping... all the other problems, being agitated/irritable...

and my thoughts have been horrible too, I had been thinking of things I don't normally think of and I didn't feel any joy for a long time, I felt like the walking dead..

I'm not saying that everything that happened isn't my fault because it is, I'm not putting blame on something else but it could definitely be related to all the changes over time

Sometimes psychotic · Mar 03, 2019 at 10:32 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I don't know... I don't generally believe in possession... but I have never heard a demon talking to me before and it was very distinctly different than the things I normally hear.. and It just seems like that would be connected if you put everything together. Over a period of like 5 months stop going to church, stop praying and not even feeling connected to God when I did pray, going from being a straight A student and loving school to barely showing up for class, then dropping a class, then hardly be able to focus to do the work and grades dropping... all the other problems, being agitated/irritable...

and my thoughts have been horrible too, I had been thinking of things I don't normally think of and I didn't feel any joy for a long time, I felt like the walking dead..

I'm not saying that everything that happened isn't my fault because it is, I'm not putting blame on something else but it could definitely be related to all the changes over time

Maybe you should discuss this possibility with your pastor.....while the church I believe ocassionally deals with possession I don’t think it’s even a remotely common occurance. Let me ask you how long ago did you have to quit your AP?

Blue_Bird · Mar 03, 2019 at 10:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Maybe you should discuss this possibility with your pastor.....while the church I believe ocassionally deals with possession I don’t think it’s even a remotely common occurance. Let me ask you how long ago did you have to quit your AP?

Last January, it's been a little over a year

Blue_Bird · Mar 03, 2019 at 10:37 PM

She's a creeper, she likes to perch there and stare down at me

Sometimes psychotic · Mar 03, 2019 at 10:39 PM

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Last January, it's been a little over a year

So when people quit an AP it can take as long as a year for them to resume having issues but like 98% of people do. Normally it takes less time for the psychosis to kick in. One of the things with psychosis is you begin to see patterns everywhere....things often make sense so clearly in delusions. These patterns often don’t coincide with what the rest of us see. I don’t really know where possessions fit in your religion so I recommend you consult the church regarding the validity.

Desoxyn · Mar 04, 2019 at 01:08 AM

I think I will make good friends with the good rulers of the world when my time is ready and I stop my injection and be like Alex Jones and make God jealous.

Not able to focus and stressed out about studying and I haven't been having any panic attacks for a while so I took a benzo to see if it will help me chill out and study.

falcon09 · Mar 04, 2019 at 04:31 AM

330am and I cant sleep

Blue_Bird · Mar 04, 2019 at 08:43 AM

I feel really good today

How is everyone?

ofthevalley · Mar 04, 2019 at 08:58 AM

Morning! Snow day!!! Yay.
Nothing much going on today. Just working for a bit. Gotta run to the bank and to see my guy but other than that I’m home bound.
I can’t believe it’s Monday again already lol. Ugh this weekend flew by.
I hurt my neck a couple days ago and it’s still stiff and achey today. Makes looking at my phone painful.

Blue_Bird · Mar 04, 2019 at 09:08 AM

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Morning! Snow day!!! Yay.
Nothing much going on today. Just working for a bit. Gotta run to the bank and to see my guy but other than that I’m home bound.
I can’t believe it’s Monday again already lol. Ugh this weekend flew by.
I hurt my neck a couple days ago and it’s still stiff and achey today. Makes looking at my phone painful.

It snowed here last night and looks like a winter wonderland. All the snow was melting away during the week but it's back

Hope you're neck feels better soon

ofthevalley · Mar 04, 2019 at 09:27 AM

My husbands tent didn’t survive the super heavy snow, sleet and rain.
It’s normally as tall as the wooden structure. I hope not too much of his stuff got ruined.
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Angelique67 · Mar 04, 2019 at 10:14 AM

I really miss being at home. I love my memories of getting up at 3:00 or 4:00 am and having strong coffee. And my first vape of the day.

My replacement vaporizer is coming today or tomorrow. I hope this new snow won't delay it. I'm very sleepy now, maybe I'll take a nap. But I have to go haunt the lobby ( @ofthevalley I love the haunting term, and I'm using it whenever I can lol). To wait for my package.

I should have called my mother yesterday but I didn't. I just drifted through the day like usual. I wonder if I can today.

newtus · Mar 04, 2019 at 11:27 AM

Im so tired all the time

Bf is upset cuz im not doing what im supposed to be doing cuz im sleeping so much.

ofthevalley · Mar 04, 2019 at 12:15 PM

Well crap. Scotty came by to help my son clear the snow. He checked the tent with my son and apparently all the metal framework actually crushed under the weight. That sucks. But secretly I hated it anyway lol.
I have done nothing today. Haven’t even logged into work to see how much I have. I don’t wanna.

cogladaid · Mar 04, 2019 at 12:35 PM

I feel fragile. I feel things breaking through this facade I’ve created with medication. Obsessive thoughts plague me. Impulsiveness is almost there to follow.

There’s a part of me worried I’ll lose control and do something crazy. It’s almost there.

falcon09 · Mar 04, 2019 at 01:10 PM

missed my dose of AP last night, just took my missing dose like ten mins ago.

I was in and out of sleep with lots of psychotic like thoughts and paranoia

Only slept 4 hours, I feel like ****

Angelique67 · Mar 04, 2019 at 03:20 PM

I got my second Voopoo. I hope I'll get a battery charger before it runs down. There should be a week's charge in the batteries at 8 or 9 watts. But the batteries must be completely married.

I'm having lots of paranoid thoughts that I'll be transferred out of here to a residential state psych hospital. I can't share why I think so. I hope it doesn't happen. I'm feeling more and more freaked out and panicked.

Angelique67 · Mar 04, 2019 at 03:22 PM

Unsure, are you ok?

Angelique67 · Mar 04, 2019 at 03:32 PM

They didn't bring my tray today so I missed lunch. I'm getting hungry. I have my breakfast egg and an oatmeal bar.

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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,743 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Mar 03, 2019 at 10:37 PM #225 She's a creeper, she likes to perch there and stare down at me __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,986 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Mar 04, 2019 at 01:08 AM #227 I think I will make good friends with the good rulers of the world when my time is ready and I stop my injection and be like Alex Jones and make God jealous. Not able to focus and stressed out about studying and I haven't been having any panic attacks for a while so I took a benzo to see if it will help me chill out and study.

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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,743 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Mar 04, 2019 at 08:43 AM #229 I feel really good today How is everyone? __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi

ofthevalley Legendary Member Since Feb 2015 Location: USA Posts: 11,326 (SuperPoster!) 9 499 hugs given	Mar 04, 2019 at 09:27 AM #232 My husbands tent didn’t survive the super heavy snow, sleet and rain. It’s normally as tall as the wooden structure. I hope not too much of his stuff got ruined. __________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety

newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Mar 04, 2019 at 11:27 AM #234 Im so tired all the time Bf is upset cuz im not doing what im supposed to be doing cuz im sleeping so much. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

ofthevalley Legendary Member Since Feb 2015 Location: USA Posts: 11,326 (SuperPoster!) 9 499 hugs given	Mar 04, 2019 at 12:15 PM #235 Well crap. Scotty came by to help my son clear the snow. He checked the tent with my son and apparently all the metal framework actually crushed under the weight. That sucks. But secretly I hated it anyway lol. I have done nothing today. Haven’t even logged into work to see how much I have. I don’t wanna. __________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety

cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Mar 04, 2019 at 12:35 PM #236 I feel fragile. I feel things breaking through this facade I’ve created with medication. Obsessive thoughts plague me. Impulsiveness is almost there to follow. There’s a part of me worried I’ll lose control and do something crazy. It’s almost there.

falcon09 Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2015 Location: United States Posts: 3,018 9 1,867 hugs given	Mar 04, 2019 at 01:10 PM #237 missed my dose of AP last night, just took my missing dose like ten mins ago. I was in and out of sleep with lots of psychotic like thoughts and paranoia Only slept 4 hours, I feel like ****

Angelique67 Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2014 Location: USA Posts: 22,115 (SuperPoster!) 9	Mar 04, 2019 at 03:22 PM #239 Unsure, are you ok?

Angelique67 Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2014 Location: USA Posts: 22,115 (SuperPoster!) 9	Mar 04, 2019 at 03:32 PM #240 They didn't bring my tray today so I missed lunch. I'm getting hungry. I have my breakfast egg and an oatmeal bar.