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Default Mar 17, 2019 at 07:29 AM
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yeah... it's cold as **** in this house and my mom is wanting me to turn off the heat. ffffuuuuu
I turned off the heat the other day because it was 55 degrees outside then I woke up this morning freezing because it's about 25 degrees out now

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I turned off the heat the other day because it was 55 degrees outside then I woke up this morning freezing because it's about 25 degrees out now
it's 22 degrees here so not much colder than y'all.
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Default Mar 17, 2019 at 07:33 AM
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I reached out to one random person on a drug chat

1) taper off xanax
2) stop talking to tinychat people
3) if you know that a delusion is a delusion then thats good
4) its not important to have a girlfriend, focus on yourself first
5) ignore the social pressures

That helped a bit.

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Omg it's almost 6am wtf..

I endured 3 hours of trolling. But why would someone troll someone with schizophrenia? I don't believe it was trolling. These soldiers believed in what they were saying. **** them.

I sense an instability in mental health coming soon. I still want to stop the injection and I feel weak. This must be a delusion.

I'm sorry if I'm taking up all the space here on roll call but I need ... I don't know what I need. People laughed when I don't know what I want.

I said I'm asexual because of the meds and then they said "You're not a woman, transgender" etc. HOW ARE PEOPLE SO STUPID AND UNEDUCATED.

I'M SICK OF PEOPLE AND PEOPLE CONTROLLING ME AND THINKING THAT THEY ARE SMARTER THAN ME. I AM LOSING IQ POINTS BECAUSE OF THE IGNORANCE IN SOCIETY. Adults are so stupid.
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Omg it's almost 6am wtf..

I endured 3 hours of trolling. But why would someone troll someone with schizophrenia? I don't believe it was trolling. These soldiers believed in what they were saying. **** them.

I sense an instability in mental health coming soon. I still want to stop the injection and I feel weak. This must be a delusion.

I'm sorry if I'm taking up all the space here on roll call but I need ... I don't know what I need. People laughed when I don't know what I want.

I said I'm asexual because of the meds and then they said "You're not a woman, transgender" etc. HOW ARE PEOPLE SO STUPID AND UNEDUCATED.

I'M SICK OF PEOPLE AND PEOPLE CONTROLLING ME AND THINKING THAT THEY ARE SMARTER THAN ME. I AM LOSING IQ POINTS BECAUSE OF THE IGNORANCE IN SOCIETY. Adults are so stupid.
people suck point blank. some people are bored with their lives and get up saying "i'm going to **** up someones day today for my amusement."
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Omg it's almost 6am wtf..

I endured 3 hours of trolling. But why would someone troll someone with schizophrenia? I don't believe it was trolling. These soldiers believed in what they were saying. **** them.

I sense an instability in mental health coming soon. I still want to stop the injection and I feel weak. This must be a delusion.

I'm sorry if I'm taking up all the space here on roll call but I need ... I don't know what I need. People laughed when I don't know what I want.

I said I'm asexual because of the meds and then they said "You're not a woman, transgender" etc. HOW ARE PEOPLE SO STUPID AND UNEDUCATED.

I'M SICK OF PEOPLE AND PEOPLE CONTROLLING ME AND THINKING THAT THEY ARE SMARTER THAN ME. I AM LOSING IQ POINTS BECAUSE OF THE IGNORANCE IN SOCIETY. Adults are so stupid.

I've had someone on a site maybe 10 years ago send me a bunch of messages telling me to
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they knew I was dealing with mental health issues. As for why someone would troll someone with Schizophrenia, there are tons of assholes and terrible people that do that all the time, because that's what they do, doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you or that they're right. People who say things like that are the ****ed up ones, not anyone who struggles with mental illness. It's easy to feel like they're right when you're struggling, it just adds fuel to the fire. No one needs to hear those kinds of things, especially someone who is already hurting mentally.

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Default Mar 17, 2019 at 07:58 AM
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Omg it's almost 6am wtf..


I endured 3 hours of trolling. But why would someone troll someone with schizophrenia? I don't believe it was trolling. These soldiers believed in what they were saying. **** them.


I sense an instability in mental health coming soon. I still want to stop the injection and I feel weak. This must be a delusion.


I'm sorry if I'm taking up all the space here on roll call but I need ... I don't know what I need. People laughed when I don't know what I want.


I said I'm asexual because of the meds and then they said "You're not a woman, transgender" etc. HOW ARE PEOPLE SO STUPID AND UNEDUCATED.


I'M SICK OF PEOPLE AND PEOPLE CONTROLLING ME AND THINKING THAT THEY ARE SMARTER THAN ME. I AM LOSING IQ POINTS BECAUSE OF THE IGNORANCE IN SOCIETY. Adults are so stupid.


Unfortunately there are a lot of ****** people that get their rocks off attacking others.
Stay away from them if you can. They are not your friends, they do not know more...they are assholes.

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cleaned the kitchen

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Morning! Happy Sunday.
Everyone is going back to real life tomorrow. I’m going to miss hubby. It’s been nice having him home despite the circumstances.
Kinda wish I had something to do today. I’m restless but really have nothing to do. Well I do have laundry...there is always laundry.
Surgery Thursday. My kids are stressing out about it. Tried to explain that I wouldn’t even be all the way knocked out because it’s an in and out procedure but they aren’t listening. They are like canceling weekend plans in case I need them Roll Call 144. They are so sweet.

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He says for one that hes not gonna pay for it. And i dont think he wants me to pay for it either cuz the expense. Plus i think he thinks its stupid.

It just really sucks. We have so much to talk about and its just he doesnt wanna sit down and talk about it. It hurts me so much. I have to beg him to talk to me a lot and he huffs and puffs about laying down on the bed and talking.

It really hurts me.
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Thank you Angelique

I hope u are feeling better today

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Im tempted to start drinking. But its just now 9am.

I just want to go away.

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Im tempted to start drinking. But its just now 9am.

I just want to go away.


Meh...I started smoking at 8!

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Im tempted to start drinking. But its just now 9am.

I just want to go away.
That sounds like a good idea. Texas must be full of day trip locations. Why not go to a tourist attraction town and just spend a couple of hours window shopping and taking a break from stress? If I had a car and my freedom, that's what I would do. Roll Call 144
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I've been awake for 24 hours and all my muscles hurt but i have to study noooooo i will take a short lay down tiredness think before I start the day again.

I usually get over things that people say to me in 2 hours and it's been 2 hours so I feel better now..

I went back on camera and talked nonsense to them and their stupid decision to go to war and talk about killing people for fun..
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I sent the bf a long message. He never replied to me.

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Im torn up

Bf is always mad at me these days. And it leaves me fighting back at him. He says everything was great when we moved here for the first few months. Saying that i paid half of the bills, took care of the apt, etc. now apparently i dont anymore.

Which isnt true partially

The first few months we didnt have a lot of bills. Our electric has gone up. We added streaming tv. We added a mattress payment. We added the apple watch payment. (My mistake on that. Im stupid)

I cleaned yes a lot in the beginning. It was easy. Barely anything was dirty when we first moved. Now we have a new dog. The pet hair is everywhere. Etc we cant afford certain things.

Then i got severely depressed for 2 months. I stopped cleaning or even taking care of myself. Hes angry at me for it. Saying he has to do everything himself. And then it makes ME angry. Cuz i was depressed as hell and he just yelled at me for it the whole 2 months. “Why arent u doing this/that?” “Im sick of coming home to this shythole”. Now im depressed again.

Im gonna do better but i fckin hate being berated and critisized!!!
Newtus for your sake and the sake of the relationship if your depression is that bad it needs treatment. You need to get a med adjustment and/or therapy when that happens. If you won’t do it for you then do it for him. Now if you’re trying your hardest to get better and it’s not working that’s different. That’s when you explain that its beyond your control and hope for acceptance.

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Newtus for your sake and the sake of the relationship if your depression is that bad it needs treatment. You need to get a med adjustment and/or therapy when that happens. If you won’t do it for you then do it for him. Now if you’re trying your hardest to get better and it’s not working that’s different. That’s when you explain that its beyond your control and hope for acceptance.


I see. Well i started therapy last thursday. I see my pdoc at the end of this month. We will see what she says. I will do it for him cuz ive given up hope on me. I really have been trying tho a lot. Taking all these supplemental pills for depression. Ive made myself get up and clean. Etc

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I swear that damn groundhog needs to be fired. Early Spring my ***.
It is SO cold again today. I’m over it. We’ve been running the wood stove since October.
I just want to open the windows and doors and breathe!

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