Roll Call 145

Erti · Mar 28, 2019 at 12:59 PM

been usually sleepy today. maybe that's a good sign?

Findingreason · Mar 28, 2019 at 01:01 PM

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been usually sleepy today. maybe that's a good sign?

How many days have you been off of Paxil? Also perhaps Geodon increase added a little bit of sedation?

Erti · Mar 28, 2019 at 01:04 PM

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How many days have you been off of Paxil? Also perhaps Geodon increase added a little bit of sedation?

i stopped taking it monday. I'm still hearing spirits and gods and stuff telling me to jump out my window and fly. Geodon is suppose to help with that but honestly i think they're real... i've heard them all my life. not this bad tho.

Findingreason · Mar 28, 2019 at 01:04 PM

Hey everyone, how are things going?

I'm sorry I've been so out of the loop on Roll Call. Times have been turbulent. My therapist and I have been meeting twice a week the last couple weeks, with a two hour session Monday and another 2 hour session next Monday.

Possible trigger:

My traumas have been torturing me really badly. It's really tough times. Thankfully I am pretty mentally sound during this time. Therapist said cause I am stable and my mind is clear it may be why these things are bubbling to the surface.

Had a 45 minute talk on the phone with my mom, then calling my sister later today when she is available.

What's everyone up to?

Findingreason · Mar 28, 2019 at 01:05 PM

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i stopped taking it monday. I'm still hearing spirits and gods and stuff telling me to jump out my window and fly. Geodon is suppose to help with that but honestly i think they're real... i've heard them all my life. not this bad tho.

Well at the very least maybe the mania/hypomania is ending though? I'm sorry the symptoms with the spirits are bad.

Erti · Mar 28, 2019 at 01:07 PM

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Well at the very least maybe the mania/hypomania is ending though? I'm sorry the symptoms with the spirits are bad.

maybe... we'll see how tonight goes.

cogladaid · Mar 28, 2019 at 01:07 PM

Spring makes me crazy. I get energy in spring.

I was a little delusional yesterday. Have been dealing with intrusive thoughts lately as well. But today I feel really good. I feel spring in the air. Gives me energy.

Erti · Mar 28, 2019 at 01:13 PM

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Originally Posted by Findingreason

Hey everyone, how are things going?

I'm sorry I've been so out of the loop on Roll Call. Times have been turbulent. My therapist and I have been meeting twice a week the last couple weeks, with a two hour session Monday and another 2 hour session next Monday.

Possible trigger:

My traumas have been torturing me really badly. It's really tough times. Thankfully I am pretty mentally sound during this time. Therapist said cause I am stable and my mind is clear it may be why these things are bubbling to the surface.

Had a 45 minute talk on the phone with my mom, then calling my sister later today when she is available.

What's everyone up to?

Yeah, but think about the ptsd diagnosis and continue with counseling. if you're feeling like you're going to hurt yourself or others it's a good idea to think about the hospital. it's good that you're talking to your mom... maybe she and your sister can help. have you talk to your sister about the flashbacks? maybe she won't tell everyone like your mother will.

Blue_Bird · Mar 28, 2019 at 01:16 PM

Having a nice day. I studied Italian, cleaned, started a crossword puzzle, learned how to set up the Arkham Horror card game, and have been reading. I might draw later

Findingreason · Mar 28, 2019 at 01:30 PM

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Yeah, but think about the ptsd diagnosis and continue with counseling. if you're feeling like you're going to hurt yourself or others it's a good idea to think about the hospital. it's good that you're talking to your mom... maybe she and your sister can help. have you talk to your sister about the flashbacks? maybe she won't tell everyone like your mother will.

I am safe for right now. Not feeling like I am a harm to myself or others. But nope, not yet. She is trustworthy though. She keeps to her word and keeps secrets. I may talk to her about it.

Erti · Mar 28, 2019 at 01:54 PM

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I am safe for right now. Not feeling like I am a harm to myself or others. But nope, not yet. She is trustworthy though. She keeps to her word and keeps secrets. I may talk to her about it.

It's good that you have a family member that is trustworthy. It feels nice you have family that validates your feelings and stuff. There's only so much we can do for you online.. also talk to your wife too. she seems understanding. talk to your therapist too. get it out... keep a journal...

did you ever go to Rape & Sexual Abuse Survivor Message Board, Online Support & Chat Room ? it have information for sexual assault survivors and information for LGBT survivors. There's also a forum you can join... i'm also on there... I have the same name on it as on here. it's takes time to join because you need to be accepted before you join. it's safe and certain part of the board is privet so no one can look you up.

Findingreason · Mar 28, 2019 at 02:01 PM

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It's good that you have a family member that is trustworthy. It feels nice you have family that validates your feelings and stuff. There's only so much we can do for you online.. also talk to your wife too. she seems understanding. talk to your therapist too. get it out... keep a journal...

did you ever go to Rape & Sexual Abuse Survivor Message Board, Online Support & Chat Room ? it have information for sexual assault survivors and information for LGBT survivors. There's also a forum you can join... i'm also on there... I have the same name on it as on here. it's takes time to join because you need to be accepted before you join. it's safe and certain part of the board is privet so no one can look you up.

Yeah, she may be the only one I can share with right now. Not ready for anyone else...I still don't feel valid though.

I haven't. I can look into it...

Erti · Mar 28, 2019 at 02:10 PM

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Yeah, she may be the only one I can share with right now. Not ready for anyone else...I still don't feel valid though.

I haven't. I can look into it...

it's totally valid feelings. don't let anyone tell you differently. Sometimes people who went through sexual violence don't feel validated because it "wasn't that bad". i'm here to tell you it is that bad. no one should cross your boundaries and no one should make you feel like it wasn't "that bad". you're obviously in distress. It's going to take time. It's hard i know. I even told my therapist i didn't want to work on my PTSD because it's hard to open up out loud about it... even my best friend doesn't know the extent my abuse was and neither did my ex when i was with him. it's difficult... i have nightmares and flashbacks from it... I'm only telling you about my abuse just to tell you i can relate. it's something we both need to work on... i'll open up and we can ride this journey together... with me, you, and our friends at Psych Central. you're not alone.

Findingreason · Mar 28, 2019 at 02:18 PM

Thanks Erti...I appreciate that. I really do. <3 This is hard, very hard not gonna lie. Should we use trigger brackets? this is some pretty tough stuff...

Erti · Mar 28, 2019 at 02:20 PM

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Thanks Erti...I appreciate that. I really do. <3 This is hard, very hard not gonna lie. Should we use trigger brackets? this is some pretty tough stuff...

I think we're fine... we're not going into detail about the abuse.

Erti · Mar 28, 2019 at 02:33 PM

I know this is weird but I think i kinda like feeling hungry.

Erti · Mar 28, 2019 at 02:38 PM

Desoxyn · Mar 28, 2019 at 02:48 PM

Omg I'm so tired i think it's the energy drink.. caffeine makes me sleepy.. and I sleep on the vyvanse.. I am one tired mofo

Erti · Mar 28, 2019 at 05:13 PM

cogladaid · Mar 28, 2019 at 05:16 PM

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I know this is weird but I think i kinda like feeling hungry.

Yeah be careful. Eating disorders suck. Trust me.

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Erti Princess Tutu Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Nowhere Posts: 7,912 12 2,894 hugs given	Mar 28, 2019 at 12:59 PM #641 been usually sleepy today. maybe that's a good sign?
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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Mar 28, 2019 at 01:07 PM #647 Spring makes me crazy. I get energy in spring. I was a little delusional yesterday. Have been dealing with intrusive thoughts lately as well. But today I feel really good. I feel spring in the air. Gives me energy.
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Findingreason Resident Queer Girl Chat Moderator Member Since Dec 2016 Location: Finland Posts: 3,190 7 4,864 hugs given	Mar 28, 2019 at 02:18 PM #654 Thanks Erti...I appreciate that. I really do. <3 This is hard, very hard not gonna lie. Should we use trigger brackets? this is some pretty tough stuff...
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Erti Princess Tutu Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Nowhere Posts: 7,912 12 2,894 hugs given	Mar 28, 2019 at 02:33 PM #656 I know this is weird but I think i kinda like feeling hungry.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,986 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Mar 28, 2019 at 02:48 PM #658 Omg I'm so tired i think it's the energy drink.. caffeine makes me sleepy.. and I sleep on the vyvanse.. I am one tired mofo
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Erti Princess Tutu Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Nowhere Posts: 7,912 12 2,894 hugs given	Mar 28, 2019 at 05:13 PM #659
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