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Desoxyn · Apr 01, 2019 at 11:34 PM

I googled this and it comes from people posting on r/depression

But they say they don't even know if they're depressed just lazy. And it all people that are my age (20-30)..

Why? Is this depression? How can an antidepressant possibly help with this hell?

These people have been doing this for years. I've been doing this for a decade but it gets worse and worse as time goes on.

Desoxyn · Apr 01, 2019 at 11:38 PM

I'm so lazy that I am in fact a vegetable

I feel so sad

I hope my 30's are better. I have 7 more years of this hell. I dont think I can make it.

Desoxyn · Apr 01, 2019 at 11:48 PM

"I listen to music, but that's really just for white noise, to at least keep what little of my sanity I have left. I am not artistically talented in any way so I'd never get anywhere with learning an instrument. It's frustrating. I just feel like I'm incapable of enjoying things. Everything just feels like a hassle. But nothing makes me sad or angry either really. Majority of the time I'm just apathetic towards everything."

This is what people are writing on reddit. I don't get how I can be depressed and not even realize it..

Blue_Bird · Apr 02, 2019 at 03:09 AM

Going grocery shopping later, and getting multivitamins as well

12AM · Apr 02, 2019 at 08:09 AM

Morning/afternoon. Only got like a couple hours of sleep last night. Kept waking up from nightmares. Had panic attack and anxious all day. Took my meds early tonight hopefully I will be able to sleep soon. Have a good day everyone ❤️

12AM · Apr 02, 2019 at 08:17 AM

I think I’ve been a little hypo too. Mind keeps racing since last night and I feel the urge to keep talking. I might have PMS as well, almost that time of the month. Last month PMS gave me depression. This month it gave me hypo mania. Being a woman is fun.

newtus · Apr 02, 2019 at 08:58 AM

Ugh bf poured coffee grounds in the sink and its clogged plus theres beard hair everywhere

This is why its hard for me to clean

Findingreason · Apr 02, 2019 at 09:23 AM

Hey everyone. How are things going?

Things are a little better today. Not 100% by any means, but better than they were.

Possible trigger:

Not feeling suicidal anymore, it was pretty bad last night but I refrained posting here about it cause its against community guidelines.

I went to band for 3 hours and did nothing except an impromptu acoustic jam with a couple band mates. It didn't go too well cause I wasn't vocally warmed up and my voice was cracking periodically.

The day time always seems to go better than the night time lately. Thankfully the sun sets after 8pm now.

Possible trigger:

It's cause the events of the trauma happened at night.

I also realized something...I may....I may actually like guys. I have found a number of them attractive before but I denied the **** out of it in a rooted fear of being abused or assaulted. And the guy I knew before was a horrific example of that. I feel a strong fear that if I date ANY guy I will get assaulted, and have felt that way for a long time. But it was subtle in my mind because I just brushed it all under the couch for so long...

What's everyone up to today?

cogladaid · Apr 02, 2019 at 09:27 AM

So I saw my doctor and explained how I was feeling and that my mother was worried and wanted me to come in and chat. He tells me that I’m a day early he has a meeting with the shrink about me tomorrow.

He said he’ll call me tomorrow after he talks to her. Not much to do for me today though. Might just up my Latuda or might add something like lithium. Who knows. I almost feel like I wasted my time (not the doctor’s fault) but he said it was good I came in so he has more info for the shrink.

Let’s see what happens tomorrow.

Findingreason · Apr 02, 2019 at 09:48 AM

Was tired but now wired. Had coffee lolol.

SlumberKitty · Apr 02, 2019 at 11:17 AM

hi everybody! I've been sick with a cold. I took Friday off of work and spent Friday, Saturday, and Sunday watching TV and sleeping. Then Monday I worked half a day until my boss made me go home. I have a cough and a sinus headache from hades, but no fever. I feel kind of crappy though. But I don't wanna miss too much work because I need the pay. Tired of being sick. It sucks. Missed you guys though. HUGS kit.

SlumberKitty · Apr 02, 2019 at 11:20 AM

Lost a few pounds. Weighed myself this weekend. I've been exercising. I was pleased to see some movement on the scale.

Blue_Bird · Apr 02, 2019 at 11:36 AM

Took a nice nap

Blue_Bird · Apr 02, 2019 at 12:18 PM

I'm so exhausted

newtus · Apr 02, 2019 at 12:24 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I'm so exhausted

The nap didnt help?

Blue_Bird · Apr 02, 2019 at 12:28 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by newtus

The nap didnt help?

It was nice but I'm still exhausted.
it's just the long term effects from all the time of

Possible trigger:

starving myself

.

It will probably take awhile for my body to get back to normal and have energy again

newtus · Apr 02, 2019 at 12:30 PM

Im having such bad luck with these therapists.

Ever since i missed my last appt, they havent answered their phones or called me back. Despite calling numerous times and leaving a message.

Not sure if they are not wanting to take me on because im through a rehabilitations place and not private or what. Idk.

Desoxyn · Apr 02, 2019 at 12:30 PM

Good morning. I feel blah..

Switched to adderall. I'll take one in the morning and see if it helps.

If it's the same as vyvanse then I'll switch back to vyvanse cuz the vyvanse is free.

Blue_Bird · Apr 02, 2019 at 12:33 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

hi everybody! I've been sick with a cold. I took Friday off of work and spent Friday, Saturday, and Sunday watching TV and sleeping. Then Monday I worked half a day until my boss made me go home. I have a cough and a sinus headache from hades, but no fever. I feel kind of crappy though. But I don't wanna miss too much work because I need the pay. Tired of being sick. It sucks. Missed you guys though. HUGS kit.

Hope you feel better Kit, I was wondering where you were

falcon09 · Apr 02, 2019 at 01:16 PM

been feeling horrible these past few days. Paranoid, hearing voices that other people can't,
barely sleeping.

called my docs office and got an appointment for today, I leave in an hour.

really worried he's gonna send me inpatient, but tbh I kinda need it.

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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,986 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Apr 01, 2019 at 11:38 PM #882 I'm so lazy that I am in fact a vegetable I feel so sad I hope my 30's are better. I have 7 more years of this hell. I dont think I can make it.
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,742 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Apr 02, 2019 at 03:09 AM #884 Going grocery shopping later, and getting multivitamins as well __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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12AM Seeker of Life Member Since Oct 2015 Location: Silver Town of Argyra Posts: 4,786 8 5,508 hugs given	Apr 02, 2019 at 08:09 AM #885 Morning/afternoon. Only got like a couple hours of sleep last night. Kept waking up from nightmares. Had panic attack and anxious all day. Took my meds early tonight hopefully I will be able to sleep soon. Have a good day everyone ❤️ __________________ One day I’ll leave my 6 flowers and millions of butterflies 🌹🦋
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12AM Seeker of Life Member Since Oct 2015 Location: Silver Town of Argyra Posts: 4,786 8 5,508 hugs given	Apr 02, 2019 at 08:17 AM #886 I think I’ve been a little hypo too. Mind keeps racing since last night and I feel the urge to keep talking. I might have PMS as well, almost that time of the month. Last month PMS gave me depression. This month it gave me hypo mania. Being a woman is fun. __________________ One day I’ll leave my 6 flowers and millions of butterflies 🌹🦋
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Apr 02, 2019 at 08:58 AM #887 Ugh bf poured coffee grounds in the sink and its clogged plus theres beard hair everywhere This is why its hard for me to clean __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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Findingreason Resident Queer Girl Chat Moderator Member Since Dec 2016 Location: Finland Posts: 3,190 7 4,864 hugs given	Apr 02, 2019 at 09:48 AM #890 Was tired but now wired. Had coffee lolol.
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Apr 02, 2019 at 11:20 AM #892 Lost a few pounds. Weighed myself this weekend. I've been exercising. I was pleased to see some movement on the scale. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,742 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Apr 02, 2019 at 11:36 AM #893 Took a nice nap __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,742 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Apr 02, 2019 at 12:18 PM #894 I'm so exhausted __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,986 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Apr 02, 2019 at 12:30 PM #898 Good morning. I feel blah.. Switched to adderall. I'll take one in the morning and see if it helps. If it's the same as vyvanse then I'll switch back to vyvanse cuz the vyvanse is free.
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falcon09 Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2015 Location: United States Posts: 3,018 9 1,867 hugs given	Apr 02, 2019 at 01:16 PM #900 been feeling horrible these past few days. Paranoid, hearing voices that other people can't, barely sleeping. called my docs office and got an appointment for today, I leave in an hour. really worried he's gonna send me inpatient, but tbh I kinda need it.
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