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Default Jun 12, 2019 at 09:27 PM
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Hi everyone. I decided to write weed thoughts and put it in a trigger so you can read it if you want to. This is basically what weed does to me. But is that psychosis? I don't think so.. but maybe..

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Hi everyone. I decided to write weed thoughts and put it in a trigger so you can read it if you want to. This is basically what weed does to me. But is that psychosis? I don't think so.. but maybe..


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Why dont u post those on Twitter and get a following. Theres a huge huge huge following on Twitter for weird and random thoughts.

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Why dont u post those on Twitter and get a following. Theres a huge huge huge following on Twitter for weird and random thoughts.
I think this ties in with my negative symptoms and positive symptoms are the reason that negative symptoms exist. It's just so hard to think about for me. I want to understand everything but there's the general feeling that I know the truth. What is the truth you ask? The paradox. Is schizophrenia when you don't know the truth but you're seeing messages.. or is it high intelligence analytically for a disruption of being likeable or having friends. Why do people that are in weed psychosis always like to talk to me? What do they see in me?

It's very strange Newtus. These things are very strange.. the whole act.. it's all an act.. But I'm on the good side. I'm not evil. I'm Jesus (Jk). But I could think that couldn't I? There's a fine line between the two sides of the paradox.

I just can't understand all of it. I look at the big picture... while drifting into "psychosis" (I don't understand that really. I should ask a psychiatrist).. and people that are highly analytical tend to pay attention to detail.

It's quite beautiful.. all of these connections.. but the world is doomed. We're screwing everything up by not understanding. Understanding is the opposite of apathy.. Yes I research lots.. Spirituality and awakenings are true... Some people use psychedelics to trigger it.. Some of them develop schizophrenia.. Weed same thing.. But only people with "the gene".

I swear what I'm obsessed about it to help me. A desperation. Why do scientists or particularly, psychologists and psychiatrists or any profession study certain things that they are interested in? Why are the interested in it? Family background, childhood upbringing.. It's all crazy stuff..

But yeah I could go on twitter but Idk what to name myself.. Something about psychosis and psychedelics or world peace,..

But something I've always loved is music. I love it so much. I'm hypersensitive to lyrics..
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Default Jun 12, 2019 at 10:00 PM
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I read different websites for magazine submissions for poetry etc.

I came 'round to book publishing and publishers. The biggest publishing list is from writers market. But you have to pay for it.

So back to square one. I will just publish my poems on amazon.

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I read different websites for magazine submissions for poetry etc.

I came 'round to book publishing and publishers. The biggest publishing list is from writers market. But you have to pay for it.

So back to square one. I will just publish my poems on amazon.
I like you. You're very motivated and have dreams. But you also a DOER. I am just a simple dreamer.

I bet if I focus hard enough over time, I can write good songs. I just need to do other things and when something comes into my mind, I can write it down. Something that is meaningful. But idk how people in their early 20's (Most song writers) know so early. Maybe they have a gift. I bet if I was off meds, I'd be a different person. I mean it just takes creativity and other words that describe .. idk maybe it's strong nostalgia and sadness idk a lot of artists are depressed or have bipolar or something..
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Default Jun 12, 2019 at 10:28 PM
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I'm gonna read one of my books for a bit. It will be more interesting while high. I know one podcaster that likes to read when he's high.

That's what I should do for drug recreation is to just read books while eating weed gummies. It's harmless.

I don't have much meaning in my life. I think podcasts, music, family, my future and past and the world is what gives me meaning. Also spirituality, self improvement.. I guess that's a lot of meaning..

I think really tuning into the idea of ignoring anhedonia is the best cure for negative symptoms.. and people must know what they are and not accept that people are lazy and all the things that are wrong with humans. But in a tribe, no one really cares about the lazy person.. they just make fun of him/her but still show love. I think that's kind of a flawed motive or product of evolution.

But then that's saying that people shouldn't do drugs. People that love the law and are sucked into societal reality. So Idk what I want.
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Default Jun 12, 2019 at 10:39 PM
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I have no friends anymore.

Maybe I should go drink coffee with those people tomorrow.
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Slept about 4 hours, wide awake now

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I woke up at 1253am est , its gonna b a long day

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Seems like we are all awake tonight.....

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