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#601
Drinking a cider because I don't feel comfortable with my existence. I want to talk to people about the future and stuff and I want to have fun but I'm so bored and have to sleep the whole day and work all night.
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#602
The cider helped me feel more "fun". It surrounds and covers the dead inside =]
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#603
I wish I had friends again. I'm fcukin lonely..
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#604
I wanna get high and a little * up...
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#605
Hey!
Long day. Spent 6 hours sitting in a court room and an hour and a half driving back and forth to get money. I only got about 2 hours sleep last night. I’m tired but my stomach hurts so I’m unlikely to sleep. Stressed about my friend. 3rd DUI arrest. Totally and completely ruined his life. His own fault. Just sad. He’s like my chosen family. |
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#606
It sucks when they put u on a new med that pharmacies dont keep in stock.on the regular, it happens a lot with my invega
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#607
I feel really ****** about myself. I'm in pain.
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#608
So I broke down and bought a subscription on Funimation to watch the English dub of the reboot of Fruits Basket. So far I like it. However, I don't care much for Momiji's voices/accent. Sounds very fake and annoying.
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#609
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#610
I quit my job cuz I cant stand the guy training me. He's an asshole.
I never told them about my mental health at all. My coworker asked me how do I survive on part time and I just said that I live with my mom so it was easy to cover it up. This was the email I wrote to the manager that hired me; "Hi, I had to walk out at around 6am. This guy pj thinks he's a genius calling everyone stupid and talks down to me. He's been doing this for 8 years and thinks it's the most complex thing ever even though its repetitive and easy. If it was someone else, I would be happy to do this job but I can't take one more second being around this guy always making really perverted comments to guests and stuff like that. I'm not going to try again. I already think I'm worthless and have no idea what I'm going to do with my life now that I've failed by bringing my mental health into this. Sorry and good luck finding someone that can tolerate his bs." |
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#611
The guy before me quit on the first day. I lasted 3 days until I decided that I'd just get more suicidal thoughts being around him any more.
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#612
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#613
I just feel completely worthless. I've failed. I don't even see the point of existing. Like what am I doing here? What am I doing every day? It's not worth it.
Edti: When people talk to me, I hate the way I talk back. I usually don't care to react about what people say because of anhedonia so I just act. All I do is act. I hate myself. I wish I was someone else. My step dad caused me to act this way. I didn't stand up for myself. I just acted. It's like I have some type of severe identity crisis. Last edited by Desoxyn; Jun 25, 2019 at 06:49 AM.. |
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#614
I feel ya. I've been fighting on not swallowing my **** ton supply of propranolol. I don't know anymore. I feel numb one moment and extreme sadness the next. When I'm numb I'm like "at least I'm not sad right now" and when I'm sad I think of many reasons to kill or not kill myself. It's emotional time for me. really hard time for me here lately. I get ya.
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#615
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#616
I could have just said "Stop and let me work and don't say anything" because he was impatient about things that he didn't even need to be impatient about. I could have said a lot of things. But in the end, I don't have confidence to even talk, I don't care. I don't care about anything. I could handle my coworker if I cared enough. But I don't.
That's anhedonia killing me slowly. |
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Metaphysic
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#617
Apathy.....
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#618
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Things can get better. |
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Erti, Sometimes psychotic
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#619
Humans mouths were designed to take psychosis pills
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newtus
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#620
Slept for part of the day
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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