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ofthevalley · Jun 25, 2019 at 03:09 PM

Retail therapy ❤️

sadveiledbride · Jun 25, 2019 at 03:13 PM

Not much going on here today. My psychosis is getting worse with time. I need to get on meds. I should bring it up at my next pdoc appt.

newtus · Jun 25, 2019 at 03:25 PM

I feel so alone and depressed.

Fiance got upset with me again over finances. We just have too much debt and not enough income. That's what me and sp made it out to, after I explained everything.

I'm either gonna have to get a job AND do school or just get a job. I've been applying anyway to places already.

I was under the impression everything was ok between us. But apparently it wasn't. Finances wise. Him snipping at me 2 days ago was just the start of it. When I told him when he came home why he wasn't being nice in the morning, he said the finances are too much for him. Hes been taking on most of the finances. I told him plainly I only get a little over 1k. It's a set amount each month, and he makes 1200 sometimes up to 1600 a month working if he does overtime. I asked him where am I supposed to get the money from. He also said I'm not even asking my parents for money, but I dont for a reason. He dropped on me that hes been asking his mom every week for money. Apparently he hasn't been open with me about that. I asked him if he could be more open and it seemed like he got upset.

I'm very confused and scared. For one, he doesnt tell me anything about what's going on with him except that "hes fine". And he doesnt seem to want to take time to talk to me about what's going on with me. So it's a lose lose situation for me. Idk what I'm supposed to do.

When I asked him what he wants me to figure out to do about the situation, he just says "theres nothing you can do". So???? I'm so confused. I have no idea what's going on or what I need to do. I cant read his mind! He acts like i should be able to. "You should've noticed this was happened". Noticed what???

Idk...

Blue_Bird · Jun 25, 2019 at 04:36 PM

Drew an animal crossing character earlier, like how it came out

falcon09 · Jun 25, 2019 at 05:25 PM

I'm gonna ask my doc to titrate me off lithium and onto lamictal. I have thyroid problems and lithium will only make that worse.

My vraylar is ready to pickup from the pharmacy, gonna go as soon as my grandpa gets home from work.

Tamster · Jun 25, 2019 at 05:50 PM

Hi guys!!
I had an appointment today at the lady bits doctor and had what i can only call an internal ultrasound. They didn't tell me until i got there that it was that type of ultrasound but really i guess how do you prepare someone for that?
But this afternoon i feel great.
I hope everyones day has been sunny and warm.
bye, tams

falcon09 · Jun 25, 2019 at 05:51 PM

I'm starting to doubt the bipolar part of my schizoaffective bipolar diagnosis.

Partial hospital is about 50% bipolar people and they have all these stories of things they've done while manic and I can't relate at all.

I've only had one "hypomanic" episode where I was really irritated and energetic and agitated. But I was also psychotic, so maybe that can be attributed to that? I don't know.

I guess because I haven't had severe manic episodes I don't feel like I "deserve" to call myself bipolar.

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 25, 2019 at 06:15 PM

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Originally Posted by falcon09

I'm starting to doubt the bipolar part of my schizoaffective bipolar diagnosis.

Partial hospital is about 50% bipolar people and they have all these stories of things they've done while manic and I can't relate at all.

I've only had one "hypomanic" episode where I was really irritated and energetic and agitated. But I was also psychotic, so maybe that can be attributed to that? I don't know.

I guess because I haven't had severe manic episodes I don't feel like I "deserve" to call myself bipolar.

I’m bipolar and I only had one manic episode, no crazy stories outside of psychosis itself......let the docs worry about your dx it’s not useful except for medication anyways,,.....

Blue_Bird · Jun 25, 2019 at 06:20 PM

I have schizoffective bipolar but haven't had manic episodes in a long time, it happened more frequently in my late teens/early 20's. it just takes like one manic or hypomanic episode for he bipolar part to be added, wouldn't worry about it as long as the meds are helping

Blue_Bird · Jun 25, 2019 at 06:24 PM

I'm going to try and wake up early tomorrow so I can go out to breakfast

newtus · Jun 25, 2019 at 06:50 PM

When I was first on the schizophrenia spectrum I was schizoaffective depressive type. Now I'm schizoaffective bipolar type. That may be true anyway. But I dont see myself as manic. Mostly depressed.

Jun 25, 2019 at 06:52 PM

Newt, I feel you. The reason the love of my life and me parted was because after I paid all the bills I didn't have enough to vacation or spend money on luxuries I couldn't afford. I worked my *** off just to survive and lose everything else. It's the sign of the times though. People get paid way less than they are worth compared to the babyboomer generation. That generation is the only generation that not only received a booming economy but didn't pay it forward to the next generation like it was handed to their generation. They ****ed us with a 7 dollar minimum wage, sent jobs to other nations to make a nickel extra, look to wallstreet to make more for shareholders instead of their laborers. Don't even get me started on their climate change denying. It use to be that federal workers were the middle class, but when Trump denied federal employees their earned money, that SOB, showed that even federal workers were living pay check to paycheck. For a teacher who has a college degree, their income hasn't been given a raise in 10 years! They often start out at 28k, which isn't even survival money. .

Elizabeth Warren (whom I am voting for) and Bernie are asking for a $15 minimum wage, but I'd like to see a maximum wage. No CEO on earth deserves a 15million a year bonus for doing nothing but raising the price of insulin so people can die.

newtus · Jun 25, 2019 at 06:53 PM

Idk if its cuz I been depressed today but not only did I not know the day today, I thought it was September too...

Jun 25, 2019 at 06:56 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

When I was first on the schizophrenia spectrum I was schizoaffective depressive type. Now I'm schizoaffective bipolar type. That may be true anyway. But I dont see myself as manic. Mostly depressed.

I thought the same. I was depressed so they kept me on an atypical antipsychotic (Geodon) and added a SSRI and I went to manic city. I was up and down having rapid cycles, and since I had that reaction to the SSRI my doc said that bipolar people have that reaction to SSRI's so I must have been bipolar the entire time. My sexual appetite was crazy, I felt depression and mania at the same time.

newtus · Jun 25, 2019 at 06:57 PM

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Originally Posted by Day Tripper

Newt, I feel you. The reason the love of my life and me parted was because after I paid all the bills I didn't have enough to vacation or spend money on luxuries I couldn't afford. I worked my *** off just to survive and lose everything else. It's the sign of the times though. People get paid way less than they are worth compared to the babyboomer generation. That generation is the only generation that not only received a booming economy but didn't pay it forward to the next generation like it was handed to their generation. They ****ed us with a 7 dollar minimum wage, sent jobs to other nations to make a nickel extra, look to wallstreet to make more for shareholders instead of their laborers. Don't even get me started on their climate change denying. It use to be that federal workers were the middle class, but when Trump denied federal employees their earned money, that SOB, showed that even federal workers were living pay check to paycheck. For a teacher who has a college degree, their income hasn't been given a raise in 10 years! They often start out at 28k, which isn't even survival money. .

Elizabeth Warren (whom I am voting for) and Bernie are asking for a $15 minimum wage, but I'd like to see a maximum wage. No CEO on earth deserves a 15million a year bonus for doing nothing but raising the price of insulin so people can die.

I agree with all this!

ofthevalley · Jun 25, 2019 at 07:45 PM

Hey!
So excited. I found my water pants at the LL Bean Outlet for 70% off. So $17.99!
Then today I ordered a new suit, a sun guard 1/2 zip top, and Keen Whisper sandals for me and my daughter. Saved $45 in just the sandals by signing up for an acct and email list. Already unsub’ed and got my 20% plus $10 off.

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Can’t find a pic of the pants but they are boring anyway

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I fully intend to be covered head to toe most of the summer.

Tamster · Jun 25, 2019 at 09:27 PM

ofthevalley

KEEN sandals are awesome i have 2 pair and they really hold up and look nice for a long time.
gave my puppy a bath last night he smelled so good you didn't even know he was next to you, no more smell dog!

Desoxyn · Jun 26, 2019 at 05:10 AM

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Erti · Jun 26, 2019 at 05:22 AM

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Desoxyn · Jun 26, 2019 at 06:36 AM

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