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junkDNA · Jun 27, 2019 at 05:49 AM

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Originally Posted by Erti

We are nothing much insignificant beings trying to find a purpose to a universe that'll just turn to nothingness. We are all nothingness.

Nihilism

ofthevalley · Jun 27, 2019 at 06:01 AM

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Originally Posted by Day Tripper

YouTube isn't streaming the debates very well. It keeps on hanging an loading for me. I guess i'll watch it tomorrow when it's uploaded to youtube and not live. Ohwell, It's probably better that way, I can't stay up late anyway. Maybe listening to it will be an option while at work.

I've been depressed a lot since my mom came into town. I haven't been picking up the phone when my relatives call me. I'm just closing myelf in.

Pumpkin (my cat) is doing well. There is still a little blood in her urine but she's still very sociable. I don't think she eats the dry food at all anymore. I pill her for cancer, and then make a habit of givving her fancy feast wet food right afterwards, so she associates pilling with wet food.

For the last year 8 months I've been ruminating a lot of my mistakes I've made, major mistakes. I have a half hour drive home after work and i keep going back to my psychosis and how bad a person i am. I think part of the problem is that people view my actions a certain way without really understanding what lead up to it all. I know regret and guilt are useless emotions that hold us back, and to just keep moving, but I need a change of scenary desperately.

I’ve been thinking a lot of the things I did when I was psychotic as well. I think because it’s the anniversary of my first break.
It sucks...I just try to remind myself that it really wasn’t me at the time. And what I did I did to survive.
Be gentle with yourself DT. We all make mistakes.

Blue_Bird · Jun 27, 2019 at 07:25 AM

Good morning, went to breakfast then came home and took a shower. It's super hot out

Blue_Bird · Jun 27, 2019 at 07:31 AM

I've been going to sleep and getting up at around the same times the past several days

cogladaid · Jun 27, 2019 at 10:41 AM

I think I’m a little hypomanic. I’ve been hyper and hyper sexual and now I’m trying to think up money making schemes and thinking of getting a second job to make more money. I’m still sleeping good the meds knock me out but I’m just a little off. I’m obsessing again.

newtus · Jun 27, 2019 at 10:53 AM

Morning

Took my meds and had coffee

newtus · Jun 27, 2019 at 11:09 AM

Possible trigger:

my geodon gives me diarrhea every morning. It sucks. I think I'm supposed to eat with it but I don't eat for a few hours after waking up cuz I feel nauseous in the mornings from anxiety a bit

ofthevalley · Jun 27, 2019 at 11:54 AM

I’m planning for a 4th of July party.
We’re having a clam boil /cook out. I’m trying to decide on the menu.
So far I have obviously clam boil ickiness, burgers, dogs, wings, crab cakes, clam cakes, loaded potato salad, grilled pineapple, Hawaiian fruit salad, key lime pie.
What else do I need? Some sort of pasta salad? Ideas?

cogladaid · Jun 27, 2019 at 12:22 PM

I feel crazy. Excitable and all over the place. It’s so frustrating I’m trying to focus on work but all I want to do is google and chat. I need to burn off some of this crazy energy later.

newtus · Jun 27, 2019 at 12:23 PM

I lost a few more ounces. So 3 pounds total. Probably water weight but it still makes me feel good.

Angelique67 · Jun 27, 2019 at 04:13 PM

My friend kind of wants me to meet his other friend. I wish I didn't have to, but they're lifelong pals now and it's weird if I keep avoiding her. They're not involved, just friends. Not friends like he and I are friends. At some point I'd have to meet her kids who are with their father while she is visiting my friend this week. I don't know. As usual things happen the way you wish they wouldn't.

So far I still didn't get my phone to find my headphones. I'm tired of life. I still have horrible back pain and I don't know if it will ever get better.

Blue_Bird · Jun 27, 2019 at 04:22 PM

Feeling very aggravated tonight. Ended up praying then taking one of my prn med.

falcon09 · Jun 27, 2019 at 04:59 PM

Group went well today.

I talked about my lack of self-esteem and practically got showered in compliments. Makes me feel good, although a little awkward.

newtus · Jun 27, 2019 at 05:09 PM

Well my mom texted my sister and I in a group chat and my sister answered immediately. But I texted her 3 days ago and havent heard back. Whatever. This isn't the first time.

She probably is busy tho. But its whatever. ND I guess my mom is going downstate again to see her.

Hm.

Blue_Bird · Jun 27, 2019 at 05:19 PM

Did some progressive muscle relaxation

ofthevalley · Jun 27, 2019 at 06:07 PM

Made yummy dinner...well according to hubby and daughter. I couldn’t eat it cuz I snacked

newtus · Jun 27, 2019 at 06:10 PM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

Made yummy dinner...well according to hubby and daughter. I couldn’t eat it cuz I snacked

God that looks so fckin good.

newtus · Jun 27, 2019 at 06:10 PM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

Made yummy dinner...well according to hubby and daughter. I couldn’t eat it cuz I snacked

Recipe????

ofthevalley · Jun 27, 2019 at 06:41 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Recipe????

Pasta Primavera (Delicious Easy Recipe!) - Cooking Classy

I just mix up the veggies with whatever I have on hand. Always always always triple the garlic.

Jun 27, 2019 at 07:15 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Possible trigger:

my geodon gives me diarrhea every morning. It sucks. I think I'm supposed to eat with it but I don't eat for a few hours after waking up cuz I feel nauseous in the mornings from anxiety a bit

For it to be effective, you're suppose to have 500calories with it. I know it's difficult to eat that much twice a day, because it is an appetite depressant, but you gotta force yourself. I take mine with a meal followed by a protein shake. (literally, just water and whey protein powder).

Also, if you're doing that, I would also take a multivitamin with it, because those should be eaten with a meal too so it can be absorbed.

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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,723 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Jun 27, 2019 at 07:25 AM #703 Good morning, went to breakfast then came home and took a shower. It's super hot out __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jun 27, 2019 at 10:53 AM #706 Morning Took my meds and had coffee __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Jun 27, 2019 at 12:22 PM #709 I feel crazy. Excitable and all over the place. It’s so frustrating I’m trying to focus on work but all I want to do is google and chat. I need to burn off some of this crazy energy later.
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jun 27, 2019 at 12:23 PM #710 I lost a few more ounces. So 3 pounds total. Probably water weight but it still makes me feel good. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,723 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Jun 27, 2019 at 04:22 PM #712 Feeling very aggravated tonight. Ended up praying then taking one of my prn med. __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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falcon09 Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2015 Location: United States Posts: 3,017 9 1,863 hugs given	Jun 27, 2019 at 04:59 PM #713 Group went well today. I talked about my lack of self-esteem and practically got showered in compliments. Makes me feel good, although a little awkward.
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,723 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Jun 27, 2019 at 05:19 PM #715 Did some progressive muscle relaxation __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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ofthevalley Legendary Member Since Feb 2015 Location: USA Posts: 11,326 (SuperPoster!) 9 499 hugs given	Jun 27, 2019 at 06:07 PM #716 Made yummy dinner...well according to hubby and daughter. I couldn’t eat it cuz I snacked __________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety
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