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childofchaos831 · Jul 16, 2019 at 03:19 AM

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Seeing my therapist later

Are you looking forward to seeing them?

Blue_Bird · Jul 16, 2019 at 03:21 AM

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Originally Posted by Erti

Eh IDK anymore. I've not felt good in a long time. I want a new pdoc and a new case manager. Just gotta know who to get rid of first.

I hope thing get better for you and you can see a new doctor/case manager

Blue_Bird · Jul 16, 2019 at 03:22 AM

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Originally Posted by childofchaos831

Are you looking forward to seeing them?

Yeah I am, I have a great therapist. I need to discuss the ED setback

Erti · Jul 16, 2019 at 03:27 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I hope thing get better for you and you can see a new doctor/case manager

Thanks... It's just not been my year.

childofchaos831 · Jul 16, 2019 at 03:54 AM

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Yeah I am, I have a great therapist. I need to discuss the ED setback

I hope it goes well

childofchaos831 · Jul 16, 2019 at 05:43 AM

5:45 am and no sleep... Looks like it's going to be a long day for me...

ofthevalley · Jul 16, 2019 at 06:05 AM

Morning! So sick of not sleeping and being tired

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Busy day today. Jumping in the shower, getting the kids up, bringing my daughter to camp, bank, work, pick daughter up, meet the car dealership guy, maybe buy a car(?), go see my guys wife (he f’ing bailed on her yesterday...packed a bag and left), work a bit more, go to the store, cook dinner, die of exhaustion.

So sad for my guy and his wife. Ugh. He’s acting like a child. I felt terrible. She’s been calling me quite a bit but didn’t say anything. So finally I grabbed $ and told her I’d be by. I figured she wanted to smoke. I got there and she burst into tears. Broke my heart.

Hoping they’ve made up but I told her I’d come by today for a smoke and some laughs.

Ugh...old people drama!

Blue_Bird · Jul 16, 2019 at 11:04 AM

Appointment went well

Blue_Bird · Jul 16, 2019 at 12:22 PM

I hate agitation. Like wanting to punch walls and stuff because of being so agitated and not know what to do with it. I'm trying to cope though

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 16, 2019 at 12:31 PM

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I hate agitation. Like wanting to punch walls and stuff because of being so agitated and not know what to do with it. I'm trying to cope though

Can you go for a brisk walk or something?

Blue_Bird · Jul 16, 2019 at 12:36 PM

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Can you go for a brisk walk or something?

I'm actually cleaning right now and it's helping. Mopping, etc

falcon09 · Jul 16, 2019 at 01:24 PM

I'm having some anxiety today. Forgot to take my lithium and klonopin until 1pm so maybe that's why

childofchaos831 · Jul 16, 2019 at 01:26 PM

I forgot my morning meds this morning...

Erti · Jul 16, 2019 at 01:35 PM

Talked to my Pdoc just now...

She increased my cogentin to 2mg twice a day. Hope it helps but at this rate I'll just keep having to increase my cogentin and it stop working all together at the highest dosage and I don't know what I'd do then.

So I told her about my paranoia... she asked me if I wanted to increase my saphris... told her that I didn't because of the dystonia symptoms on THIS dosage that I was having. I told her I'll just try to stick it out until then and try the injections when I see her. If all else fails.... I can call her back again or go to the hospital. I feel very discouraged right now.

Blue_Bird · Jul 16, 2019 at 01:41 PM

Making those delicious seasoned/herb potatoes again, got them ready to go in the oven

Desoxyn · Jul 16, 2019 at 01:53 PM

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I forgot my morning meds this morning...

I can't forget to take my meds cuz one of them is a stimulant so I won't wake up until I take them lol..

SlumberKitty · Jul 16, 2019 at 02:04 PM

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I can't forget to take my meds cuz one of them is a stimulant so I won't wake up until I take them lol..

Occasionally when I forget to take the Vyvanse, I start feeling all sick and then I realize oh yeah, I haven't taken it. No wonder I'm all tired and feeling sick. Then I take it and it's great. But I've forgotten a few times and my Dad had to bring them to my work. Luckily I only live like 5 minutes from work.

Blue_Bird · Jul 16, 2019 at 02:43 PM

Have to have maintenance over tomorrow. Hate that, always causes anxiety

childofchaos831 · Jul 16, 2019 at 03:29 PM

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Have to have maintenance over tomorrow. Hate that, always causes anxiety

What broke?

Angelique67 · Jul 16, 2019 at 03:46 PM

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I'm super tired and I feel kind of crappy. My stomach hurts and my eyes feel dark and I'm not hearing God much today. I'm feeling lame and losery. I feel like nothing matters and everything matters That nothing can calm me and yet nothing can excite me. I want to lay on my bed under my weighted blanket and zone out into oblivion. I don't want to feel this way when I wake up tomorrow. I feel like what's the point. My friend's dog was acting weird and I told my friend maybe she had an angel in her room and that's why the dog didn't want to go in there. I don't think she believed me but I believe things like that. I think dogs and cats can sense it. I'm too dull. I'm too life sucked out of me. It's like the AP has taken over my brain and instead left me a shell of a person.

Possible trigger:

and I want to cut my arm and insert a battery into my arm, one of the circle ones so my heart will keep beating.

What a messed up day today is. I feel really ******

Please don't self harm. And please never use batteries like that. I have watches that had those kind of batteries and they kept wearing out. So it wouldn't work anyway.

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childofchaos831 Elder Member Since Nov 2016 Location: Texas Posts: 5,037 7 15 hugs given	Jul 16, 2019 at 05:43 AM #926 5:45 am and no sleep... Looks like it's going to be a long day for me... __________________ Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,740 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Jul 16, 2019 at 12:22 PM #929 I hate agitation. Like wanting to punch walls and stuff because of being so agitated and not know what to do with it. I'm trying to cope though __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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falcon09 Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2015 Location: United States Posts: 3,018 9 1,866 hugs given	Jul 16, 2019 at 01:24 PM #932 I'm having some anxiety today. Forgot to take my lithium and klonopin until 1pm so maybe that's why
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childofchaos831 Elder Member Since Nov 2016 Location: Texas Posts: 5,037 7 15 hugs given	Jul 16, 2019 at 01:26 PM #933 I forgot my morning meds this morning... __________________ Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,740 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Jul 16, 2019 at 01:41 PM #935 Making those delicious seasoned/herb potatoes again, got them ready to go in the oven __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,740 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Jul 16, 2019 at 02:43 PM #938 Have to have maintenance over tomorrow. Hate that, always causes anxiety __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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