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Default Jul 13, 2019 at 05:00 AM
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So basically I've managed to convince myself that I'm not God and not hallucinating this whole thing including my brain. Or that some people know and are trying to manipulate me as well as the sociopaths in the sky with no empathy knowing that I know that love makes you crazy. Like "love is madness" or "crazy love". The people with empathy. In order to be atheist, I have to be apathetic and lack empathy in situations where people don't want you to be hurt because they are hurt. Psychedelics made me a pantheist but I go in between atheist, theist and pantheist. It's a real struggle to convince myself that I've not gone completely insane. One minute im ok, then something happens and then I'm not ok and have to convince myself the right philosophy. It takes time and who knows, could take forever. That's a possibility. Everything is. I can go meet someone famous and they might be real if the fabric of my universe is put together properly which makes me believe in no God.

I'm just wondering.. I believe that it is possible for the right person (Lets say a psychologist) to convince a psychotic person that they arent jesus or something with the right words and actions. Do you think that that's true?

But theres levels of psychosis. What if a prisoner believed that they can bail themselves out of prison when they're sentenced to life and about to get the death sentence because they are the tooth fairy and stole a billion dollars from a certain bank? Idk.. its still the same thing as believing you're jesus.. which makes me scared.

At a point, I thought to myself, "I don't care if everything is a solipsistic bunch of hallucinations.. they're real to me". And that's what I'd be saying if I were actually hallucinating. Someone would have to tell me that I was hallucinating which I could just believe to be staged hallucinations created by my real hallucinations.

So the point of all of this is that the brain gets stressed and goes into some weird state based on cultural conditioning, what people did to you as a child, etc.. I call myself a genius for snapping myself out of it. It brings me comfort because a genius is both psychotic and sane at the same time. Or idk? Who knows anything really. It's all nonsense. I should take the seroquel again and maybe the injection will kick in or I'm just stressed because of what is happening in my life idk.
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Default Jul 13, 2019 at 05:11 AM
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Basically no one knows what happens after death. That's the real **** up here that would solve everything for everyone. But then life wouldn't be worth it. Created by who ever, or by no one.

So I'll just stop thinking about it. But here's the thing.. NO ONE stops thinking about it. All the scientists, the media absorber speculating why things happen, the optimist, the pessimist, religious people.

I believe everyone goes through some time of thing like this in their lives. Maybe I just snapped mentally with the stress of what has happened to me.
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