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newtus · Sep 23, 2019 at 04:40 PM

So I had to pay out of pocket for my medication or keep having withdrawal symptoms waiting for the pre-authorization to go through. I wouldnt have gotten it today btw if I did.

I went to walmart pharmacy and they said I would have to pay 400 dollars for geodon out of pocket. I looked at fiance and started crying. I didnt know what to do. I was scared.

I almost walked away and didnt get it but I asked if they can apply goodrx. They said yes and itll be 52 dollars.

So I waited 15 min. Then they said they can only give me a 3 day supply because they dont have enough. So I got worried. But then they said I can get the 3 day supply at no charge today, and to pick up the rest in 3 days for 52 dollars.

I just wanted to cry. Because I was so scared and I couldn't even drive myself cuz my head was hazy.

Erti · Sep 23, 2019 at 04:48 PM

Just not been feeling well. Thinking everyone has a secret agenda and not only that I've tried self harming with dull knifes but no luck for what the demons want.

SlumberKitty · Sep 23, 2019 at 04:54 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

So I had to pay out of pocket for my medication or keep having withdrawal symptoms waiting for the pre-authorization to go through. I wouldnt have gotten it today btw if I did.

I went to walmart pharmacy and they said I would have to pay 400 dollars for geodon out of pocket. I looked at fiance and started crying. I didnt know what to do. I was scared.

I almost walked away and didnt get it but I asked if they can apply goodrx. They said yes and itll be 52 dollars.

So I waited 15 min. Then they said they can only give me a 3 day supply because they dont have enough. So I got worried. But then they said I can get the 3 day supply at no charge today, and to pick up the rest in 3 days for 52 dollars.

I just wanted to cry. Because I was so scared and I couldn't even drive myself cuz my head was hazy.

I'm glad you got your medicine @newtus! and I'm glad you got the price down to $52 which is still expensive but at least it's doable. HUGS I hope you start feeling better soon.

Kit

SlumberKitty · Sep 23, 2019 at 04:54 PM

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Originally Posted by Erti

Just not been feeling well. Thinking everyone has a secret agenda and not only that I've tried self harming with dull knifes but no luck for what the demons want.

I'm so sorry you are struggling @Erti! I'm sorry the demons are bothering you! HUGS Kit

newtus · Sep 23, 2019 at 05:00 PM

Thanks kitty!

newtus · Sep 23, 2019 at 05:01 PM

I got 3 calls today. Important calls.

1. My medication
2. My mri
3. Counseling appt

Sometimes psychotic · Sep 23, 2019 at 05:08 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

So I had to pay out of pocket for my medication or keep having withdrawal symptoms waiting for the pre-authorization to go through. I wouldnt have gotten it today btw if I did.

I went to walmart pharmacy and they said I would have to pay 400 dollars for geodon out of pocket. I looked at fiance and started crying. I didnt know what to do. I was scared.

I almost walked away and didnt get it but I asked if they can apply goodrx. They said yes and itll be 52 dollars.

So I waited 15 min. Then they said they can only give me a 3 day supply because they dont have enough. So I got worried. But then they said I can get the 3 day supply at no charge today, and to pick up the rest in 3 days for 52 dollars.

I just wanted to cry. Because I was so scared and I couldn't even drive myself cuz my head was hazy.

It always amazes me how much generic APs cost when other meds are like pennies. Sorry you went through this but glad you got the meds.

Sometimes psychotic · Sep 23, 2019 at 05:10 PM

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Originally Posted by Erti

Just not been feeling well. Thinking everyone has a secret agenda and not only that I've tried self harming with dull knifes but no luck for what the demons want.

Erti I know the meds aren’t great for you but are you a little better at least taking them regularly? At least I think you mentioned missing some. My only agenda is that everyone be as well as they can be.

Erti · Sep 23, 2019 at 05:13 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Erti I know the meds aren’t great for you but are you a little better at least taking them regularly? At least I think you mentioned missing some. My only agenda is that everyone be as well as they can be.

I’m on the abilify injection. I’ve had the injection about 2 weeks ago. Abilify doesn’t do much for me but it’s better than stuffing my face and getting fat on some other stupid AP.

Erti · Sep 23, 2019 at 05:16 PM

I’m pissed and angry and I want to harm people like they’ve harm. This isn’t like me. But I also want to harm myself because it’s for the greater good.

Sometimes psychotic · Sep 23, 2019 at 05:17 PM

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Originally Posted by Erti

I’m on the abilify injection. I’ve had the injection about 2 weeks ago. Abilify doesn’t do much for me but it’s better than stuffing my face and getting fat on some other stupid AP.

Fair enough....

Sometimes psychotic · Sep 23, 2019 at 05:20 PM

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Originally Posted by Erti

I’m pissed and angry and I want to harm people like they’ve harm. This isn’t like me. But I also want to harm myself because it’s for the greater good.

I’m sorry you’ve been hurt so much in this life but hurting yourself isn’t going to help anyone, that’s the psychosis talking unfortunately.

SlumberKitty · Sep 23, 2019 at 05:24 PM

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Originally Posted by Erti

But I also want to harm myself because it’s for the greater good.

I've had a lot of thoughts like that. One of the ones I get a lot is that if I hurt myself then it stop something worse from happening, or something bad happening to someone I care about. IDK if that is OCD or what. I have thoughts like it is the way to atone for being bad and stuff like that.

Erti · Sep 23, 2019 at 05:36 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

I’m sorry you’ve been hurt so much in this life but hurting yourself isn’t going to help anyone, that’s the psychosis talking unfortunately.

Eh im damned for this. It’s my fault I’m damned for this ********. I’m damned for it all. I wanna end myself to end others suffering.

Erti · Sep 23, 2019 at 05:40 PM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

I've had a lot of thoughts like that. One of the ones I get a lot is that if I hurt myself then it stop something worse from happening, or something bad happening to someone I care about. IDK if that is OCD or what. I have thoughts like it is the way to atone for being bad and stuff like that.

Thoughts, feelings, voices, visions, and everything

SlumberKitty · Sep 23, 2019 at 05:58 PM

Darn. I'm getting a migraine. On the plus side, I have my self appraisal just about finished up for work. 4 things I rated myself as good: quality, job knowledge, creativity (do you really want creative accounting?), and judgement (mostly because I'm not in an authority position so I don't have to make tons of decisions) and 7 things I rated myself as very good: productivity, reliability, attendance, independence, initiative, adherence to policy, and interpersonal relationships. (I am waffling on this one as I am normally stuck in my office but I get along okay with my coworkers and in the past three months (the time of the review) I have developed good relationships with one of the owners and two of the coworkers in the NY office.)

SlumberKitty · Sep 23, 2019 at 06:01 PM

Now hopefully I can get a raise. When I got hired I got a little raise and then the General Manager told me he needed three months in order to give me another raise. So I'm like....hmmm. Raise please?

newtus · Sep 23, 2019 at 06:35 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

It always amazes me how much generic APs cost when other meds are like pennies. Sorry you went through this but glad you got the meds.

I normally pay 3 dollars for my generic ziprasidone with my insurance but this 52 dollars was for it market price with goodrx applied.

Sometimes psychotic · Sep 23, 2019 at 06:37 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I normally pay 3 dollars for my generic ziprasidone with my insurance but this 52 dollars was for it market price with goodrx applied.

The problem is the market price is too high....

falcon09 · Sep 23, 2019 at 06:39 PM

What's weird is I pay more for my Haldol than I pay for my Zyprexa.

Zyprexa 20mg, 30 tablets is $0

Haldol 5mg, 30 tablets is $10

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Erti Princess Tutu Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Nowhere Posts: 7,912 12 2,894 hugs given	Sep 23, 2019 at 04:48 PM #22 Just not been feeling well. Thinking everyone has a secret agenda and not only that I've tried self harming with dull knifes but no luck for what the demons want.
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Sep 23, 2019 at 05:00 PM #25 Thanks kitty! __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Sep 23, 2019 at 05:01 PM #26 I got 3 calls today. Important calls. 1. My medication 2. My mri 3. Counseling appt __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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Erti Princess Tutu Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Nowhere Posts: 7,912 12 2,894 hugs given	Sep 23, 2019 at 05:16 PM #30 I’m pissed and angry and I want to harm people like they’ve harm. This isn’t like me. But I also want to harm myself because it’s for the greater good.
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Sep 23, 2019 at 06:01 PM #37 Now hopefully I can get a raise. When I got hired I got a little raise and then the General Manager told me he needed three months in order to give me another raise. So I'm like....hmmm. Raise please? __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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falcon09 Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2015 Location: United States Posts: 3,017 9 1,863 hugs given	Sep 23, 2019 at 06:39 PM #40 What's weird is I pay more for my Haldol than I pay for my Zyprexa. Zyprexa 20mg, 30 tablets is $0 Haldol 5mg, 30 tablets is $10
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