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Default Oct 03, 2019 at 12:53 PM
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I've just admitted the possibility that I may have had/still sometimes have psychotic symptoms caused by trauma. It's very difficult to process the fact that I am more mentally ill than I thought. Yes I knew I had CPTSD, but realising I may be sometimes psychotic is something very different. How did you process it? How do you learn to live with that realisation?

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Default Oct 04, 2019 at 08:52 AM
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I got a special therapy, cbt for psychosis that helped me process it.

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Thank you. What I meant was not really how do you treat psychosis. It was rather a question of your identity and self confidence. How does one cope with the fact he's mentally ill and can't trust his own experience. Admitting psychosis is very difficult for my self esteem.

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Thank you. What I meant was not really how do you treat psychosis. It was rather a question of your identity and self confidence. How does one cope with the fact he's mentally ill and can't trust his own experience. Admitting psychosis is very difficult for my self esteem.
It’s really variable....but we assigned percentages to all realities. Even the consensus reality might not be real. It’s more complex but that was one aspect.

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I'm still working on dealing with the fact I'm sicker then I feel. My dx isn't a surprise I knew it for years. At this point I'm trying to learn to live with my symptoms.

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This is some stuff I've come to terms with (I think), though some days it's better than others. Some days I expect myself to be a 100% when I am clearly not 100%. But it's a learning process. I don't expect myself to feel my best every day anymore. I want to feel my best every day, but that is not consistent with reality.
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Thank you. What I meant was not really how do you treat psychosis. It was rather a question of your identity and self confidence. How does one cope with the fact he's mentally ill and can't trust his own experience. Admitting psychosis is very difficult for my self esteem.
Dear seeker33,
I think I know what you mean. The psychosis is just a symptom of a chronic illness which is labelled a mental illness. Personally, I'm OK with it, in part, because I'm a nurse and have taken care of people like me. They're just sick. And boy do I get it now. Recently I had to deal with a person in my apartment building who was prejudiced and fearful of people who have a mental illness. He was trying to get me evicted because he was afraid of me......I'm 5'6" and weigh 125lbs. I am an excellent tenant whereas he get complaints of noise made against him. Anyway he has no case but how annoying, unfair and anxiety provoking is that! Yes my self esteem is intact but I can't help but feel miffed that this person can even be heard and believed.
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Default May 23, 2020 at 06:59 PM
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Accepting it comes from unable to deny it. I've lived it know it happens, it's real i lose my mind at times. Self esteem has taken a shot. I struggle with weight that's a self esteem issue, now mental health which typically scares people. I hate it but it is what it is. I take my meds live my life attend my therapy. All is well as it can be.

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Default May 23, 2020 at 10:52 PM
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I felt devastated, stupid and various other things when I admitted to myself I had been psychotic and delustion.

Which come to think of it, doesn't sound good.

However, I also thought about geing hopeful about getting help. Since I realized I had been unwell, I felt confident that I could talk about it with care providers. It was the first positivity.

Now, I still feel inadequate experience the symptoms, but I would think about how lucky I was to acknowledge the unwellness, and proud to be strong enough to get treatment. I felt like I must actually be a strong person after all, and I had positive feelings around that.

But, everyone is different and what I describe I certainly don't claim will help you.

I do feel for you though, they were hard days for me when I first accepted it.

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Default May 25, 2020 at 06:39 AM
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It's taken years, my teens and all of my 20s, but the most helpful thing I've learned to cope with my altered experience is to recognize it when it's happening. It doesn't work always, but my self-awareness is improving through meditation and supportive people around me. That said, this strategy only really allows me to function on a basic level, keeping myself and my environment clean, feeding myself and my animals etc. So my self-esteem and sense of identity is still very wrapped up in what I'm not able to do unfortunately.
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