I didnt know where to post it

OliverB · Nov 08, 2019 at 11:28 AM

Stress is bringing voices again, and bugs, those bugs under my skin. I am calm. I was overwhelmed, I took a benzo and now I am calm. I am seeing an attorney in an hour. My head is full of stuff, I am organizing it to do not look crazy.
I dont think I am crazy (I wish the thing inside me stopped screaming). Lolz.

I do not act on anything, just feel it.

I remember my last psychiateist saying "You are perfectly ok". Yah, I dont act weirdo even if I am weirdo.
I have PTSD and some sort of neurodivergence, neurodivergence that could be diagnosed as schyzotypal, psychosis nos, or whatever the psychatrist wants to diagnose me with.

I am overwhelmed again. Too many feelings:

Hype and tired while wanting to cry and end everything, no! Its funny, its funny inside. Some laugh. I am tired. Its fun. I am sorry.

Sometimes psychotic · Nov 08, 2019 at 11:34 AM

So you’ve written bye bye meds in your signature....for me meds were the only thing that worked long term for voices....singing worked short term as did any sort of complex mental manipulation like picturing 3D images moving like radar screens or coins spinning.

OliverB · Nov 08, 2019 at 02:03 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

So you’ve written bye bye meds in your signature....for me meds were the only thing that worked long term for voices....singing worked short term as did any sort of complex mental manipulation like picturing 3D images moving like radar screens or coins spinning.

I am non functional if I take AP. I have tried abilify, risperidone, haloperidol, seroquel, ziprasidone, olanzapine, another old one I dont rember, amisulpride... All of them made me less able to cope. I cannot take SSRI and SNRI since they make me manic. I tried TCA but the worked just for a while. I was given lamotrigine and valporate at some point, It was horrible. Gabapentin only worked short term.

I guess I just have therapy left.

Angelique67 · Nov 08, 2019 at 07:42 PM

Sorry you're feeling so bad, OliverB. Lately, this week, I've begun feeling or having bad negative symptoms. Like feeling like I'll never be able to get out of bed again. When I have positive symptoms I look like it. Everything shows on me. Hugs to you.

Thread Tools
Show Printable Version Email this Page
Display Modes
Linear Mode Switch to Hybrid Mode Switch to Threaded Mode

Menu

My Support Forums - Mental Health Support Groups

Get emotional support and friendship from others like you!

I didnt know where to post it

My Support Forums

Sometimes psychotic Legendary Wise Elder Member Since May 2013 Location: Chicago Posts: 26,409 (SuperPoster!) 10 22.8k hugs given	Nov 08, 2019 at 11:34 AM #2 So you’ve written bye bye meds in your signature....for me meds were the only thing that worked long term for voices....singing worked short term as did any sort of complex mental manipulation like picturing 3D images moving like radar screens or coins spinning. __________________ Hugs!
	Reply With Quote

Angelique67 Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2014 Location: USA Posts: 22,112 (SuperPoster!) 9	Nov 08, 2019 at 07:42 PM #4 Sorry you're feeling so bad, OliverB. Lately, this week, I've begun feeling or having bad negative symptoms. Like feeling like I'll never be able to get out of bed again. When I have positive symptoms I look like it. Everything shows on me. Hugs to you.
	Reply With Quote