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Sometimes psychotic · Nov 09, 2019 at 04:54 PM

Oh yeah I’m also going to make sloppy joe sliders this week in the crockpot...saw them I think on pioneer woman.

newtus · Nov 09, 2019 at 04:54 PM

Finished my Christmas list....kinda. it is just the beginning of my list and it had like 40 things I want. Mostly home decor. Like painting, poufs, etc.

Sent it to my mom with a message at the bottom that said "MORE TO COME..."

LOL

Blue_Bird · Nov 09, 2019 at 04:55 PM

Took a shower. I'll probably be taking them everyday now since it feels good with the nice new showerhead. Feels more like self care than a chore now.

See my doctor (psych) and therapist Monday. Tuesday I can sign up for heating/electric assistance.

By the beginning of December I should have a decision sent to me in the mail for my tuition refund appeal (cause I withdrew for medical reasons in the spring). Hoping for good news.

Blue_Bird · Nov 09, 2019 at 04:56 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Finished my Christmas list....kinda. it is just the beginning of my list and it had like 40 things I want. Mostly home decor. Like painting, poufs, etc.

Sent it to my mom with a message at the bottom that said "MORE TO COME..."

LOL

It's fun decorating a new place

Angelique67 · Nov 09, 2019 at 04:57 PM

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Have you been able to see a doctor about the pain?

No, that's why it's been going on 4 weeks. This place will probably let me die before I ever see a doctor again. I'm having desperate thoughts about escaping back to my apartment before my friend clears it out totally. I think he's trying to do that by the new year.

Desoxyn · Nov 09, 2019 at 05:01 PM

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You'd think maybe they'd have orange or grape pop instead of 2 compartments of Coke Zero (it's only sold out because I'm drinking it). I had a regular Coke yesterday and I don't want to derail my diet with pop. I look slightly thinner already.

I've been replacing my daily energy drink habit with a daily 1L bottle of coke.

As an addict, I can tell you that soda hits the spot not like euphoria but like.. Stops craving from other things and pain of things which I'm stressed about..

Sometimes psychotic · Nov 09, 2019 at 05:05 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I've been replacing my daily energy drink habit with a daily 1L bottle of coke.

As an addict, I can tell you that soda hits the spot not like euphoria but like.. Stops craving from other things and pain of things which I'm stressed about..

Coke has a lot going for it...sugar...caffeine and fizz I only have a tiny one like 8oz but it fills a lot of voids.

Angelique67 · Nov 09, 2019 at 05:05 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I've been replacing my daily energy drink habit with a daily 1L bottle of coke.

As an addict, I can tell you that soda hits the spot not like euphoria but like.. Stops craving from other things and pain of things which I'm stressed about..

I know, I drank one or more large bottles of Coke everyday for over a year. And I was eating daily candy and stuff. I hope it's not going to take forever to lose weight. I've eliminated regular pop from daily use and I'm eating much less candy.

Blue_Bird · Nov 09, 2019 at 05:06 PM

I want to get a bunch of nice smelling soaps, sprays, and lotions from Bath and Body Works. Love their products

newtus · Nov 09, 2019 at 05:07 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

It's fun decorating a new place

It really is.

And taking a shower now is great too.

It feel like I'm under a natural jungle waterfall.

Sometimes psychotic · Nov 09, 2019 at 05:10 PM

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I want to get a bunch of nice smelling soaps, sprays, and lotions from Bath and Body Works. Love their products

I went in there looking for bar soap and they didn’t have it. Luckily another store in the mall had organic based bar soaps in like gardenia and other scents. But I have to admit that sounds like a fun shopping trip. I pick up soaps as souvenirs now so I can remember the trip but not have permanent clutter.

Angelique67 · Nov 09, 2019 at 05:14 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I want to get a bunch of nice smelling soaps, sprays, and lotions from Bath and Body Works. Love their products

Yes, I want a nice new shower gel. I'll have to go to the horrible drug store and try to pick one out. I'm tired of using the one they have here. But my face wash, which I love and I think it was discontinued, disappeared the last time someone "cleared up" my room.

newtus · Nov 09, 2019 at 05:15 PM

I also feel like my life is better without calling my mom so much. This past week is a good example. I called her 3 times this past week. And instead of being on the phone for an hour each time. It was just 20 min or around there. Except for a little bit ago it was 30 min.

I'm so so so proud of myself.

Desoxyn · Nov 09, 2019 at 05:16 PM

I would like to announce that I'm feeling really good.

Just wish it wasn't cuz of the beta-phenyl-GABA...

I'm gonna tell my psychiatrist about it. She may or may not be happy.. Or tell my mom to take it away.. My mom always takes away my molecules...

I might take a cold shower. I only feel like taking cold showers on it.

Desoxyn · Nov 09, 2019 at 05:21 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I also feel like my life is better without calling my mom so much. This past week is a good example. I called her 3 times this past week. And instead of being on the phone for an hour each time. It was just 20 min or around there. Except for a little bit ago it was 30 min.

I'm so so so proud of myself.

20 minutes is still a long *** time. You shouldn't be proud of yourself. You should be miserable. I will make you miserable.

No jk ILY.. You've done well with your life like crazy. You are a perfect example that life can get better with schiz. It's best not to talk to your mom cuz she has bpd or something.. Or she just loves you a lot idk..

Sometimes psychotic · Nov 09, 2019 at 05:22 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I would like to announce that I'm feeling really good.

Just wish it wasn't cuz of the beta-phenyl-GABA...

I'm gonna tell my psychiatrist about it. She may or may not be happy.. Or tell my mom to take it away.. My mom always takes away my molecules...

I might take a cold shower. I only feel like taking cold showers on it.

Have you read pihkal.....I think it’s right up your alley.

Desoxyn · Nov 09, 2019 at 05:25 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Have you read pihkal.....I think it’s right up your alley.

I've heard of it! lol I'm putting it on my list =]

Blue_Bird · Nov 09, 2019 at 06:13 PM

I feel guilty for eating dinner

Desoxyn · Nov 09, 2019 at 06:26 PM

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I feel guilty for eating dinner

I should have waited to go to the restaurant but I ate clam chowder.. I was hungry..

Hunger is like the hardest addiction to control.. our brains say "I want dopamine" then send signals to the brain stem (Promative brain for hunger, reproduction, breathing, water, etc) to MAKE you eat.

There' no stopping the brain stem. If you want to lose weight, then limit food just a tiny bit.. 3 or however meals you want a day.. exercise, mental stimulation, etc..

No need to feel guilty. It's the brain stems fault.

Blue_Bird · Nov 09, 2019 at 06:38 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I should have waited to go to the restaurant but I ate clam chowder.. I was hungry..

Hunger is like the hardest addiction to control.. our brains say "I want dopamine" then send signals to the brain stem (Promative brain for hunger, reproduction, breathing, water, etc) to MAKE you eat.

There' no stopping the brain stem. If you want to lose weight, then limit food just a tiny bit.. 3 or however meals you want a day.. exercise, mental stimulation, etc..

No need to feel guilty. It's the brain stems fault.

I am losing weight and eating healthy for the most part, I've just been struggling with wanting to

Possible trigger:

restrict and purge recently, I'm recovering from Bulimia

Not sure what triggers the thoughts/obsessions to come back, it just happens sometimes

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Sometimes psychotic Legendary Wise Elder Member Since May 2013 Location: Chicago Posts: 26,409 (SuperPoster!) 10 22.8k hugs given	Nov 09, 2019 at 04:54 PM #81 Oh yeah I’m also going to make sloppy joe sliders this week in the crockpot...saw them I think on pioneer woman. __________________ Hugs!
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,743 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Nov 09, 2019 at 05:06 PM #89 I want to get a bunch of nice smelling soaps, sprays, and lotions from Bath and Body Works. Love their products __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,986 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Nov 09, 2019 at 05:16 PM #94 I would like to announce that I'm feeling really good. Just wish it wasn't cuz of the beta-phenyl-GABA... I'm gonna tell my psychiatrist about it. She may or may not be happy.. Or tell my mom to take it away.. My mom always takes away my molecules... I might take a cold shower. I only feel like taking cold showers on it.
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,743 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Nov 09, 2019 at 06:13 PM #98 I feel guilty for eating dinner __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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