Roll Call 156

Angelique67 · Nov 12, 2019 at 10:36 PM

It was cold beyond anticipation today. It snowed furiously after lunch but didn't accumulate. I hope it won't be so cold tomorrow. I was freezing in my winter coat.

I hope I'll start losing weight soon. I can be more relaxed about it because I'll only be weighed once a month. But I get very hungry and eat all the rice on the plate, etc. So I don't know. Hope I lose weight even if I eat the carbs.

I skipped the last vape because I didn't want to be that cold again and I was done with meds and snack by 7:30. I was really glad because the earlier that happens, the sooner I can lie down and vape under the blanket.

Lately I've been thinking of Loial, I hope he's well.

newtus · Nov 12, 2019 at 10:40 PM

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It was cold beyond anticipation today. It snowed furiously after lunch but didn't accumulate. I hope it won't be so cold tomorrow. I was freezing in my winter coat.

I hope I'll start losing weight soon. I can be more relaxed about it because I'll only be weighed once a month. But I get very hungry and eat all the rice on the plate, etc. So I don't know. Hope I lose weight even if I eat the carbs.

I skipped the last vape because I didn't want to be that cold again and I was done with meds and snack by 7:30. I was really glad because the earlier that happens, the sooner I can lie down and vape under the blanket.

Lately I've been thinking of Loial, I hope he's well.

What are those icons next to your name? I've been trying to figure it out for a month now.

Sometimes psychotic · Nov 12, 2019 at 10:47 PM

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What are those icons next to your name? I've been trying to figure it out for a month now.

I think one of them is tapatalk VIP Ie paid, not sure about the other...

Desoxyn · Nov 13, 2019 at 01:05 AM

My cat has been my emotional support animal since I bought her as a kitten when my mental illness started at age 12 =[ (Probably taxoplasmosis lol..)

I've taken pictures of me with her where she looks into my eyes. You've seen them =]

look · Nov 13, 2019 at 03:06 AM

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Gotta get my poetry ready for the poetry jam! So excited. I wonder if there will be minimal music behind it, like that genre of music called spoken word music. I love the band Listener. They say poems over minimal music, but his ability to put together words into stories is the most amazing thing I've ever heard. They were featured in an emo/hardcore song like 10 years ago.

just been listening on youtube, their good.

junkDNA · Nov 13, 2019 at 03:58 AM

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Everyone talks about coffee so much here. I think I'll have my coffee from lunch after my diet Pepsi. They make a nice coffee here. It's not like a dark roast, but it's good.

My tongue and throat hurt. I'm so sick of this place. I want to escape. But they'd find me and put me into a worse place.

I need to make my friend jealous so he'll get me away from here. But then I have to use someone which is a rotten thing to do. Maybe not, maybe I could just smile at someone as I'm losing weight. When my friend can see. It would be good if I could actually make a friend here. In my youth I once smiled at a barista and my then bf looked like he'd lose his head. He was a quintuple Scorpio 12th houser.

Oh well. I fell asleep in my chair waiting for the smoke break this morning and no one woke me! I woke up as they were coming back in. So it might be hard to make a friend here.

Are you into astrology???

I'm an aries sun Gemini moon and pisces rising

I have pisces mercury and venus both in 12 house LOL

I can't imagine a quintuple scorp with all 12 H placements!!!

junkDNA · Nov 13, 2019 at 03:59 AM

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What does everyone think about getting a roll call tattoo? Like either your username or something that says roll call or whatever?

If I get a tattoo I want to get something that reminds me that my voices r liars

But I want it to be just for me . I dont want to have to explain it to other people .

I dont have any tattoos

Blue_Bird · Nov 13, 2019 at 09:40 AM

Woke up feeling really motivated. Cleaned the apartment then changed the litter box. I didn't go for a walk in appointment though. I woke up at the right time but dragging myself out of bed at 6 to walk in 10 degree weather was extremely unappealing. I'll try to go one day when it's at least a little warmer.

I feel really good

Blue_Bird · Nov 13, 2019 at 11:15 AM

I think I gained a pound or two, trying to eat healthy though. Hopefully it goes back down. I'd like to be 150 by January. I'm about 162 now

newtus · Nov 13, 2019 at 11:37 AM

My sister just called me. She said she thinks she had a panic attack last night. She said she was just eating dinner and out of nowhere she felt like she had been drugged and felt her body completely relax and she felt outside her body. And then she said she felt like she was going crazy. She said the more she tried to calm herself down the crazier she felt.

I told her it was probably a panic attack.

She said when her husband was talking to her, his words seemed "blurry".

Sometimes psychotic · Nov 13, 2019 at 11:44 AM

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I think I gained a pound or two, trying to eat healthy though. Hopefully it goes back down. I'd like to be 150 by January. I'm about 162 now

Sometimes there’s a bit of a set point....like I was stable at 165 as long as I was walking two miles a day and eating healthy....I was ok with that. I’m closer to 178 now since I stopped walking though so I’m a little chubby. I guess what I’m saying is you’re fighting your body past a certain point where you can always be hungry or just let go and let your body stabilize where it wants and have normal hunger where you can eat when hungry. The set points are of course much lower without APs but you live the hand you’re dealt.
This is just what I do, ymmv.

Sometimes psychotic · Nov 13, 2019 at 11:46 AM

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My sister just called me. She said she thinks she had a panic attack last night. She said she was just eating dinner and out of nowhere she felt like she had been drugged and felt her body completely relax and she felt outside her body. And then she said she felt like she was going crazy. She said the more she tried to calm herself down the crazier she felt.

I told her it was probably a panic attack.

She said when her husband was talking to her, his words seemed "blurry".

That’s weird...I’ve never had one like that....best bet is she see a doctor just to be sure....I mean to rule out a stroke or something.

Blue_Bird · Nov 13, 2019 at 11:48 AM

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Sometimes there’s a bit of a set point....like I was stable at 165 as long as I was walking two miles a day and eating healthy....I was ok with that. I’m closer to 178 now since I stopped walking though so I’m a little chubby. I guess what I’m saying is you’re fighting your body past a certain point where you can always be hungry or just let go and let your body stabilize where it wants and have normal hunger where you can eat when hungry. The set points are of course much lower without APs but you live the hand you’re dealt.
This is just what I do, ymmv.

Yeah, I was considering that. I initially lost 10 lbs and now I seem stuck around 160lbs no matter what I do, it's just stayed within a lb or two of that the past few months. It could definitely be a lot worse, I weighed a LOT more when I was on Invega.

Sometimes psychotic · Nov 13, 2019 at 11:50 AM

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Yeah, I was considering that. I initially lost 10 lbs and now I seem stuck around 160lbs no matter what I do, it's just stayed within a lb or two of that the past few months. It could definitely be a lot worse, I weighed a LOT more when I was on Invega.

While I haven’t been on invega per se, risperdal was terrible for me.....I know I told this story before but there were cupcakes in the break room and I ate one and it was stale but I couldn’t stop and still ate another...it felt humiliating to me that I couldn’t control myself and ate something so gross.

Angelique67 · Nov 13, 2019 at 11:51 AM

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What are those icons next to your name? I've been trying to figure it out for a month now.

Tapatalk stuff I think.

Angelique67 · Nov 13, 2019 at 11:55 AM

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Are you into astrology???

I'm an aries sun Gemini moon and pisces rising

I have pisces mercury and venus both in 12 house LOL

I can't imagine a quintuple scorp with all 12 H placements!!!

Haha, yes I'm an astrologer. Aries sun and Gemini Moon rules! I wish I had that lol.

SlumberKitty · Nov 13, 2019 at 12:13 PM

Tired today. I'm stressed out about my GP appointment (pap smear time) I'm either ridiculously stressed or I am totally numb. I keep cycling between the two. I'm at work but it isn't busy yet so it's going to be a long day even though I am leaving early for the doctor appointment. I keep thinking it's Thursday and it is only Wednesday! I'm all off!

SlumberKitty · Nov 13, 2019 at 12:15 PM

The one good thing is that I know my lab reports came back good so that's something.

newtus · Nov 13, 2019 at 12:31 PM

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That’s weird...I’ve never had one like that....best bet is she see a doctor just to be sure....I mean to rule out a stroke or something.

Yea true. Although that's exactly how my panic attacks are.

newtus · Nov 13, 2019 at 12:32 PM

Like when I get nervous or panicky i feel my whole body relax and get heavy like I'm drugged and then the mental/emotional feelings start flooding in.

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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,989 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Nov 13, 2019 at 01:05 AM #284 My cat has been my emotional support animal since I bought her as a kitten when my mental illness started at age 12 =[ (Probably taxoplasmosis lol..) I've taken pictures of me with her where she looks into my eyes. You've seen them =]
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Nov 13, 2019 at 12:32 PM #300 Like when I get nervous or panicky i feel my whole body relax and get heavy like I'm drugged and then the mental/emotional feelings start flooding in. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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